Rottmnt oneshots!

Its my fault🥀

⚠️TW MENTION OF SH + CUSSING⚠️
🥀Angst w/ a happy ending💗

There isn't a reader, it's just the family
'this means intrusive thoughts'
'this is normal thoughts

Donnie POV:
I was watching videos on my tablet, trying to get a distraction from my racing mind. All I could hear was just negativity and self hatred, over and over. 'No one will know! Just relapse, you have all of these tools!' I didn't notice I was scratching my arms, soon reaching the scars scattered on my wrist where my wristbands would usually be. As I scratched over a certain large one, I felt a tinge of pain and froze. Looking down and seeing the red, I started to panic. 'Does this count as relapse!? Oh god, if Mikey knew... What if he told everyone!?'

As I panicked, I failed to notice the constant knocking on the door and continued to run and search for the small med kit in the lab. Once I finally found it, I heard the door shut, a small gasp. "... Don?" Shit! Out of everyone, why did it have to be Leo!? "Uhhh... Hey, Leo. What's up?" Hiding my arm, I replied. "Donnie. What happened." His voice was now serious and quiet, something he never does unless he's serious. "What do you mean?..." He steps closer. "Leo?" As he yanked my arm, I couldn't help but groan at his grip. It was silent until I finally found my voice. "I'm sorry... This is all my fault! Look, I didn't mean to-"

"Why didn't you tell me?" Another pause. "I understand you not telling Raph, but why not me? I understand okay?" I've failed to look him in the eye this entire time until now. As I did, I saw the tears and cried he was chocking back. "Donnie, you shouldn't ever be sorry for this! It isn't your fault, and it's going to be okay." Soon I felt my own eyes blur as he let go to grab bandages and antibiotic. While he was gently wrapping the cut, I couldn't help but hear those thoughts again. 'Hes lying! He doesn't care, he just wants to seem like he's nice! You're a jerk. You did this. You did this!'

It is my fault... God I wish I never failed that attem-

"DONNIE!" I jumped, not expecting the yell. As I looked around, I saw my other brothers and dad standing there, hugging me close. "Don't ever say that again. You mean everything. It. Isn't. Your. Fault." Raph said, crying. When I tried to talk, I couldn't. All I could do was nod and sob, leaning into everyone's touch. "We love you sooo much D! I know I promised not to tell, but I couldn't help it! It was killing me! Seeing you like this..." Mikey just hiccuped, hiding his sobs in my neck. "My son... I'm so sorry you went through this alone. Should I have spent more time with you?" 'grwat job! Now your dad thinks it's his fault... Monster.'

"Donnie, don't listen to the voice okay? You are amazing and perfect the way you are! We care about you so much, and we love you. Please tell us when you're hurting. I- we want to help." Another nod. "I... I'm sorry... I never meant to- Uh.. Could we maybe stay like this? Just for a little while?" What I got in response was a slight squeeze. I truly don't deserve them. As I felt myself start to slip to sleep for exhaustion, I finally told them what I've wanted to say for a while.

"Thank you for everything."

A/N Hi! Sorry for the angst! I just havrnt been feeling great sooo yeah. If you ever feel like this, please do reach out! It'll help more than you think! I love you guys so so sooo much!! Have a super duper amazing day/night/afternoon! BAIIIIII

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