Stay Away 2 (sequel to Stay Away) | #Wattys2015

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Is it bad that I wanna stop writing all together?

I'm just...

I'm just done.

It's complicated.

But, there's a voice in my head telling me to not do it.

Like to be motherfuckin' honest, the only thing I wanna do right now is delete all my books, delete my social media, cry my eyes out, and snuggle into the covers to attempt to escape reality.

I'm upset.

I have been for almost three years now. I cut, cried, and attempted to end my life in these three years.

Like my heart aches right now from stress.

And you know what's weird?

No one knows about this.

No one.

I don't talk. When I feel the urge to, I cry.

So, I keep quiet and suck it up.

I'm thinking I should talk to my Dad about it, but I'm scared.

I'm scared he'll judge me.

I hate me bottling my feelings up.

That was a mistake because now I'm having a breakdown...

I don't know.

I don't know what to do.

I'm just done.

I'm gonna take a shower and blast music because if I don't, I'll start shaking.

Like literally shaking and then I'll lose it.

I don't know how to end this. So...

Bye. I'll speak to you guys soon.

I love you guys.

Stay swaggy for me

~ Malikah