Olivia's POV:
I was ready for winter break to end. I had spent the first few days forcing myself to be busy. If I didn't occupy myself with to-do lists, I'd get too into my head and wouldn't leave my bedroom for days. The only thing I wasn't excited about with school was seeing River. Even the thought of it made my stomach tighten. They hadn't texted me the whole week and I was worried that I upset them. Or, even worse, I worried I hadn't upset them. It would make my life a lot easier if they hated me, quite honestly. And if that's some damning fact meaning I shouldn't be with them, I was fine with that.
It was the first Wednesday into break and I had begun my 3rd book of the week. A lukewarm cup of coffee perfumed into the air, neglected beside me as I read. I expected Cleo to be the one texting when my phone lit up beside me. She had kept up with me ever since sleeping over the other day but, when I turned to the screen, River's name met my eyes.
River: hey
Me: Hey, what's up?
River: idk. i just feel like we left for break kinda weird
Me: Oh? What do you mean?
I knew exactly what they meant. We were slipping, whatever we were. A couple, just friends, whatever. We weren't doing as well as we had been.
River: idk, you followed Cleo into the bathroom
River: i didnt wanna bring it up bc ik u guys have a complicated history, but it felt weird seeing you leave like that ig
I waited a moment before responding, allowing myself to organize my thoughts.
Me: Right, Cleo and I are friends now. I wasn't trying to make it seem like I was choosing her over you or anything... We hang out often, so it was pretty normal.
River: u hang out often? wdm?
I furrowed my brows. Were they actually jealous?
Me: Just like hanging out, idk. We just had a sleepover a few days ago.
River: oh
What does "oh" mean? Why can't they just tell me how they feel?
River: well, do u think I can sleep over soon?
Me: Sure. That sounds fun.
River: how about tonight?
Oh my god. No.
Me: Yeah, you can come over at 5 if you want.
River: cool, see u then <3
I was pathetic.
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My stomach was in knots as I waited for River to show up.
In the time I spent waiting, I deep cleaned the entire house. My hands spent their minutes scrubbing and disinfecting. It was just enough to keep me busy. River would be here any minute and I was nervous, to say the least. There were about a billion things that could go wrong. This sleepover could be painfully awkward and yet, I was hopeful. This might settle some of the issues that had been eating away at me for weeks.
The doorbell sounded from across the hall and I quickly made my way to answer it, stopping beside the mirror to check my appearance. I took in a breath before opening the front door. River stood, holding a tote bag. Their once dark blue hair was now a forest green color. It didn't look terrible.
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RomanceOlivia Hansen is perfect. At least, that's what everyone thinks of her. She maintains her busy schedule by following routines and setting rules for herself. The pressure is stacked on by everybody in her life, but once she's assigned to tutor Cleo R...