𝒓𝒚𝒂𝒏'𝒔 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒘
I FOUND MYSELF rereading the letter Louis gave me God-knows how many times. I read it over and over last night after the Christmasparty, and now the next night over and over in my bedroom.
Call me old fashioned, but I still think it's adorable for someone to write you a love letter.
To be honest, I don't know if this note is in that fashion however. There's certain things in the writing that signifies what you would put in a "love letter" and it still makes me feel the same way one would. But, knowing Louis, I don't know if that was his intentions, really.
Every time I read it I feel this weird feeling in my gut where I just want to stand up from my bed and start dancing in joy around my room. Gifts like these have always been my favorite, only because they're sentimental and heartfelt. It's not something I thought Louis would ever do and I think that's why I adore it so much.
Whenever I first read it, I won't fib, I almost cried tears of joy. My mother was most likely worried about me since I was standing in the middle of the kitchen, reading the note with tears in the rims of my eyes. I didn't give her an explanation however, which probably troubled her even more.
It reminds me of the small note Louis wrote me on my chalkboard wall painted in my bedroom. Which is still up there and not erased, by the way.
It's simply the best letter I've ever received. He easily took the top tier. Even though Louis apologized for his poor grammar skills or misspelling, I think the whole thing was perfect. It showed the true him and that's all that matters to me.
I'm sorta thrilled for Christmas. Once you get older and you don't believe in Santa anymore, the whole thing dies down, you could say. It's still my favorite holiday out of the entire year, since I get to spend time with my family and purchase gifts for my favorite people. But, it just doesn't feel the same as it did when I was little.
I have no idea what my parents have gotten me this year. I've took a few glances at the wrapped presents under the Christmas tree labeled "To: Ryan, From: Your parents." And the shapes of the boxes didn't give any clues. I didn't ask for anything, except for money, and Mom hasn't given any clues either. Which is surprising, she usually tells me about now.
But, whatever I receive I'll be grateful for. My Mom has always been a great gift giver. And I'm truly excited to see the look on my sibling's faces when they tear open theirs.
The present Louis was better than I could imagine, as you can tell. So, it leads me to have second thoughts on my gift for him. He reassured me on how much he loved it, but I still have some worry about it.
I haven't taken off the necklace Louis clasped around my neck either. And I don't plan on it. Other than the short 30 minutes I took it off while showering. I quickly put it back on once I stepped out of the shower though.
Knowing I won't see Louis for another 2 days is aggravating, but at least I'll be spending time with my family.
And once the holiday is done on December 26th, you know I'll be calling him over.
dear ryan,
this is the softest thing i've ever done for a
person, but it's about something that's pretty
important to me, and that's you. i sound like
such a cupcake, i know. i'm terrible at writing
letters or anything on paper really since
nowadays i just write everything on my phone.
so, please bare with me. i wanna start off by
simply saying thank you for everything you do
for me. i know just 'thank you' will never be
enough and you deserve so much more than that
so i'll try to make it up to you soon once i figure
out how. i'm bad at this whole thing if you can't
already tell. i'm truly grateful for all of your
support, and knowing you're proud of me is all i
ask for. i heard once that you should pay
attention to the people you're around when you
feel your best. you, along with a few short
others are the ones who bring the best out of me.
i'm terribly sorry, but i'm about to get sappy for
you okay? you're one of the most kind-hearted
people i've ever laid eyes on and there's not a
moment where i think unhappy thoughts when
i'm in your presence. not only do i admire you, i
admire everything that comes with you. your
family, your friends, etc. that's rare nowadays
and i now know where you get your charm and
chaotic yet soft personality from. if whatever we
have doesn't work out, i know i'll always have
evie to be my girlfriend so it's fine. all jokes, all
jokes, but i've been dreading the day i leave to
go back to london. it's in a week or 2 i think.
so, in these last weeks i'm dragging you out of
your house to spend time with me. no exceptions.
unless you're sick or something, i guess, but i
think everything will be fine. and we gotta have
our sleepover i told you about at the mall too,
your calendar is gonna be full, sorry ;). enough
with that though, don't forget i'm always here
for you. literally always, i don't care if we're
mad at each other or anything (not that we will
be, but ya know) i'll be there as fast as i can. even
though i'm terrible at talking about feelings and i
can't explain what i'm thinking at all, i'll listen.
in our short 2, almost 3, months of knowing each
other i've created some of my most favorite
memories ever with you. such as walking
through tall corn stalks and being the most
awkward i think i've ever been since i only knew
you for like 3 days. and sleeping under the stars
in the middle of the night on your birthday,
where you almost froze to death due to your
dress. and going to big bear, swimming in a pool
that i bugged you over, and then being kissed the next day by you suddenly. i wanted to scream due
to how excited i was in that very moment, but i
had to play it cool ok. there's so much more that
i'm too lazy to write out and i honestly don't have
enough room to write on these 2 pieces of paper i
have. but, i'm hoping to make millions more with
you and i'm hoping you feel the same. there's
times where i want to pull a sly move, but i end
up being too scared and overthink. I GET TOO
NERVOUS AROUND YOU, ITS NOT OKAY!!!
i have so much more i wanna say, but millie is
bugging me and i literally can't think. so, expect
far more letters in the future. i'ma watch youtube
videos and stuff just so i can get better at them.
(expect better grammar and spelling too) merry
christmas, ms. ryan. ♡
love, lou, your absolute
favorite person in the entire
world (if i'm not i'll be very
upset)
p.s. ur weird
𝑮𝑹𝑨𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑷𝑬𝑨𝑲𝑺!
this chapter is rlly short, but i really
hope you guys enjoyed it!! the letter part
made me cry while writing it bye. IT WAS
A PAIN TO EDIT THO BC OF THE
ALIGNMENT
i have a few questions for you guys
though, and i would appreciate if you
guys would answer if you'd like!!
1. what type of hobbies would you see
ryan doing? i feel like i haven't said
anything about it, and i feel like
her liking art would be too cliche
and boring. i need to find something
she would like to pursue into a career
into the future!!
2. would you like a christmas chapter?
i don't think louis would be in it, but
would u just like a chapter with ryan
spending time with her family and you
guys would get to know them more? like
grandma/grandpa/aunt gemma/etc
and that's all i think!! thank you all
SO MUCH FOR 3K VOTES AND 76k
VIEWS!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO FUCJUNG
MUCH!!
ima go play bloxburg now bye 🤍🤍