I wake up feeling na masusuka habang sapo ko ulo dahil sa sakit na tila minamaso. I don't know kung gaano karami ang na inom ko kagabe with Green and Orange, ang alam ko lang gusto kong makalimutan ang sakit ng hindi pag sipot ni Mae sa akin. I get up when i notice i am not alone in the bed, ni hindi ko alam kung nasan ako. May nakita akong mukha ng babaeng katabi ko ay bigla akong napatayo.
"Shit! What have I done? Fuck!"
Biglang nawala ang naramdaman kong hilo at pag susuka dahil na natuklasan ko. Dahil sa gulat ko ay agad kong hinablot ang kumot at shock akong makitang were only having underware as clothes.
"Shit! Naloka na! Am i that drunk at nakuha kong pumik up ng babae?"
Tulog na tulog ang babae, I have no idea kung sino siya, so i called Green. Naka ilang iing muna bago sumagot. "Black---"
"GREEN!" sigaw ko.
"ANO BA! KAGIGISING LANG NG TAO NA GINAMBALA MO TAPOS SISIGAWAN MO PA AKO?"
"I'm in trouble ok. Hindi ako mapalagay."
"Anong ginawa mo?"
"Ginawa? I wake up with a woman beside me who knows kung sino. And God I don't even have any idea kung anong ginawa namin."
"Hahaha chelax bro., babae lang yan."
"Ako wag mong ma chelax-chelax d'yan pag ganitong aburido ang utak ko."
"Alright! Sorry. Wag ka lang kasing mag panic."
"Ohh, I am. And I can't even stop myself from panicking."
"Come on, Black. You're a man. My needs. It's normal."
"THIS IS NOT NORMAL GREEN! THIS IS NOT ME!"
"I think your panicking because takot kang malaman ni Mae na nag taksil ka sa kanya."
Bigla akong natahimik sa sinasabi niya, bigla kong nakapa ang puso ko, Green is right. Kasi kahit galit ako kay Mae it doesnt mean I dont love her anymore. Because the truth is i still love her and i donot want her to know about me cheating.
"Black, sorry."
"Your right. I love her very much that I don't want her to know that I just had sex with another woman, coz cheating would be the last thing on my mind."
"Yeah, your right! I can't cheat either."
(Subukan mo lang at makita mo akong magalit)
Boses babae yun ahh, nag take home din ba siya?
"Who's that girl?"
"Ahhh---Not for you to know."
(It's me, Venice.)
[(But mo sinabi! )]
(Ikinahihiya mo ako ganun?)
[(At saan mo nakuha yan aber?)]
(Good mabuti na yung magkaalaman)
Napailing nalang ako, I'm happy for Green, finally abot kamay na niya si Venice at naka home based na naman siya dito. I let the lovers be. Kaya binaba ko nalang ang phone. Agad akong nagbihis at ginising ang babaeng tulog na tulog
"Hey, you wake up! WAKE UP!"
"Ingay mo naman."
"You get up and tell me what happened last night. Why were you here!"
"Duh! Do I have to say it? Really?"
"Answer me straight. May nangyari ba sa atin?"
"Kung meron nga anong gagawin mo?"
"I can't undo what I did, but I have to carry this guilt of cheating for the rest of my life."
"Is that how you loved her, huh?"
"I'm in no liberty of explaining anything from you."
"Walang nangyari."
"Good! Then I'm going!" Tumalikod na ako dahil gusto ko nang makalabas sa lugar na 'to but i stop from leaving when i hear her say.
"I don't know na may puso akong maawa sa isang tao, ang alam ko lang I'm a playgirl with a happy-go-lucky image, but me staring at you till morning last night waiting for I believe that woman makes me feel so sorry for you."
"What are you saying this time?"
"I care for you and i don't know why, my heart was moved looking at you last night. Kaya gusto kong e trap ka and make you believe na may nangyari nga sa atin, para sana magulo ang utak mo at nang hindi lang siya ang iniisip mo, but i was caught between guilt too."
"Listen. I don't know you. So stop caring for me. I do not want you to care for me. Because you're not the woman I want to give me the kind of care I am looking for. And you are right. I love her fucking much to the point that it destroys me."
"I'm Cheiz Ledesma. Here's my number if you need to phone a friend. Feel free to call me."
I didn't say anything. I just walked away.
***
"THAT SON OF A BITCH!"
Gusto kong matawa ng makita ko si Egypt na sumasayaw ng maharot. Kadarating ko lang galing Russia, ayoko pa sanang umuwi kasi im still working on may experiments kaso mapilit si Tito. Sabi niya I have to meet the team sa bahay nila Marrion, my adopted bro. Sa paligid nakita ko si Marrion na may pinagalitan. When i look around nay namataan ang mata ko, someone that's so very familiar.
Damn, she's beautiful! I stay afar, looking at her. No one comes to your beauty Mae, not even the beauty Queen.
I can't forget way back teen life. I promise to do anything and everything for her. I even bargained to help her about finding her father in exchange for having her as my girl. I am that desperate. I wanted to follow her when she left the Philippines, but tito Rency asked me to let Mae be. Instead, I was sent to Russia as an exchange student and studied there till ninong built my image as a bad boy.
I'm a doctor! With all of these tattoos on my skin, none of them believe that I am a doctor. Instead, nagmumukha akong EXCON buti na lang its a fake skin kaya pwedeng alisin. After five years, I was thrilled to meet the Mae I used to know. The Mae that my heart knows. And there she's, "A BOMBSHELL!"
Para siyang mga experimento kung bomba, na dapat hawakan ng tama ng may kasamang pag iingat. Pwede din siyang, once it hits you, you're dead. She became more beautiful as the days went by. Maturity suits her too. Looking at her napatunayan kong, my feelings for her never fade. Instead, nag multiplies pa.
Five years, Mae and I promise not to give up this time. Ang cute niyang magulat.
Kaya naman seeing her falling scares the heck out of me. Not wasted any seconds i jump to where she fell, I'm too late but i covered her para hindi siya mapuruhan sa mga nag bagsakan. But it hurt me. Hindi ang mga tumama sa akin na sumusugat sa aking katawan. Kundi... ang kanyang huling sinabi.
"I love you, Black. I guess I can't make the five years promise."
May pinangakuan siya? Mahal niya? Am i too late?
Hindi ko ininda ang sakit sa katawan ko, pero ang sakit sa puso ko ang nangibabaw sa lahat. Nang dumating ang ambulance ay agad na isinugod si Mae sa ospital. Naewan kami for imbestigation.
"The little girl didn't make it!" Malungkot na sabi nitito Rency.
"God! She must! Hindi ko kaya kung may mangyaring masama sa kanya." bigla kaming na takot ni Egypt para kay Mae. " We are talking five floors here." tama si Egypt, napakataas ng 5th floor lalo pa at unconcious si Mae nag masagip ko.
"I know she can make it." Malakas kung sabi kahit deep inside natatakot ako, she is lifeless when the medic came to rescue her.
"Alam kong doctor ka pero let the medic do their job, hayaan mo silang gamutin ka, your bleeding too." Puna ni tito sa katawan kong maraming sugat.
"I'm fine, mas nag alala ako kay Mae."
"Thanks for covering her up from all the falling debris. I don't know what to say to Oscar if he wakes up."
"Dad, alam ko mabubuhay pa si Mae, paano nalang ang five years promise niya sa boyfriend niya."
Nagulat ako sa sinabi ni Egypt. Nagunahan sa pag kirot ang mga sugat ko at ang puso ko. My boyfriend, siya.
"Do you know kung sino?" I ask. I want to know.
"Black 'yun lang ang alam ko."
Napapikit ako sa pagkatinig ng pangalang Black, ang huling pangalang binigkas niya. I'm hurting inside. So I decided to get the alcohol from the hand of the medic and pour it into my open wound, na shock ang medic, but I needed that to divert the pain in my heart because it hurt that she was in love with someone else.
Agad kaming sinalubong ng attending doctor ni Mae. "I hate to say this but she is still in danger, ginawa na namin ang lahat ng aming makakaya. Let's pray for her. I will give you 24 hours. If she recovers, it's a good chance of her surviving. But if ma coma siya--- all we have to do is wait for miracles.
"What if she can't make it?" Tanong ni Egypt na nag panic na.
"We need to be positive for Mae." Ani ni Tito.
"And by the way masyadong malaki ang damaged sa kanyang dalawang páa if she can make it, don't think her legs will, masyadong malaki ang damage nito, hindi na siya makakalakad pa."
"WHAT? NO!" sigaw ko at tinakbo ko ang kwarto kung saan siya naka higa at awang-awa ako sa kalagayan niya.
Shes like a dead vegetable na nakabalot ng benda ang buong katawan. "Mae, kumusta kana? Matapang ka naman diba? Lumaban ka! Huwag mong hayaang kunin ka nila. Promise aalagaan kita, I dont care kung hindi kana maka lakad pa. I dont care kung hindi ka niya mahintay o ayaw na niya sayo. Andito lang ako Mae, si Robin. Mahal na mahal na mahal kita Mae."