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"So, Tol, huh? Didn't I ask you out first? Tsk. I shouldn't have introduced you guys to each other."
Mik made a face at me. We were at the library for the final leg of our thesis preparation and it had been about a couple days after I agreed to try it out and go out with Tol.
"Mik, we both know you just asked me out for convenience you lazy turd. You don't really like me that way. If I did agree to go out with you and choose someone who doesn't really like me, then I might just as well throw myself at Earth."
He snickered and shook his head.
"I know you like Earth, but I didn't know it's that serious."
I rolled my eyes at him.
I didn't really straightforwardly admitted my feelings towards Earth but I knew, Mik was just all into it.
"Now you know."
He shook his head.
"And Tol? What is he? A filler or something?"
I shrugged.
"I told him time and again how I already have someone I like. But he's very persistent and he kept on asking for a chance to change my mind and so I agreed. This is me giving him and myself a chance."
Mik narrowed his eyes at me.
"And?"
I nonchalantly scanned a book.
"And let's just hope Tol doesn't fvck things up until I can finally move on from Earth. That way, I could give him the chance he deserves."
I heaved a sigh.
Tol did fvck things up last night and for the life of me, I hadn't yet to move on from Earth.
And the jerk just told me something about chasing me last night and I didn't know what to think anymore as after the make out, we spent the remaining of the night drinking and partying like crazy.
I looked to my left shoulder and saw Earth's head lulled on it as he snored a little.
His front on the bed as almost half of his body was cradled to mine. No wonder I had been feeling so numb when I woke up with a pounding head and that memory of the talk I had with Mik.
I closed my eyes.
I knew everything was real.
I wasn't dreaming.
Earth indeed was beside me and he just stirred as he turned on his side towards me. His right arm snaked to my neck.
I could still feel his slight snoring on my neck.
I stared at him before I took his hand from around my neck and held it on my chest.
I love this guy.
And by some miracle, he just told me he felt the same way last night.
A part of me was adamant to not believe him. But a bigger part of me wanted to take all of what Earth had just said.
I couldn't help but think that maybe, Earth was just being possessive of me as he felt like he was losing a friend and I didn't want to hope for it as the pain would genuinely be unbearable.
But his kiss.
It spoke volume and I couldn't help but believe.
I groaned and massaged my temple with my free hand.
This is too much for ten thirty in the morning when you went to bed smashed at four am.
I was about to take my other hand to my temple when I felt Earth held it back.
I looked at him.
He still had his eyes closed but the snoring stopped and I could already feel his breathing changed on my neck.
The jerk was awake.
"Okay, get off now, I wanna pee!"
Earth groaned.
"Earth!"
I called out.
"Hmmm."
He hummed yet another reply.
"Earth, don't be such a jerk!"
I said as I tried to shake him off me and he finally opened his eyes and smiled at me.
I glared at him and before I could react, he gave me a peck on the lips.
"Oiii! Your mouth stinks!"
I cried out to disguise the rush of happiness I felt with his action while the jerk just laughed.
"Haha. Guess what? Your mouth stinks too but I still want to kiss you. Must be love, huh?"
I gaped at Earth before I was finally able to shrug him off me and I immediately sat up by the edge of the bed as I turned to him who's still lounging on the bed.
"You needed a brain scan. You must have hit your head last night you just failed to realize it."
I heard him chuckled yet again and one more time I was reminded why I was in love with him.
"Trust me, P. I'm more than fine. More so now than ever."
He said, as we held each other's gaze and I forgot about how I should have been having a hung over and the urge to pee.
We stayed like that for a moment before I snapped out of it and finally took my control back.
"Ggget up now. Let's go get breakfast!"
I said before I ran into the bathroom for refuge.
I couldn't take it.
I was too happy.
And so, the rest of the day was spent on the beach, eating and swimming and just basically fooling around enjoying the bliss we had for the moment.
Bangsaen was definitely a good idea.
By the night, we strolled around the local market and had our dinner and went back to the beach for an acoustic band night before we retired to bed by eleven for an early drive back home the next day.
Earth and I didn't talk about us yet again but his cheesiness the whole time didn't waver and although it made me want to puke most of the time, I couldn't lie, I enjoyed every minute of it.
All the more reason I was in love with him.
By Sunday, Earth drove us back to the city by mid morning, ending one of the best weekends of my life.
We both stood at the lobby of my apartment as he insisted on bringing me home although it was illogical since his dorm was way past where I live.
"Uhm, so, goodbye. For, now, I guess?"
Earth said sheepishly and I had to bit on my lower lip to stop a smile.
"Okay."
I nodded.
Not sure what more to say as when your heart is full, the mouth can't talk. And my heart was just too full at the moment.
"So, you'll answer my calls now?"
Earth inquired.
"When did I ever not answer your call? It's you who stopped calling and texting."
I accused and he snickered.
"I know. But it wouldn't be the case from now on."
Ugh!
Earth was just too much for my heart!
"So, how are you gonna go home?"
I changed the subject.
"I'm going to the towing shop."
He said and my face soured at him.
"Earth, no more bike, please!"
I said.
And I didn't just say it as someone who's in love with him but also as a friend and as someone who didn't want him to get hurt.
"I know. I know. I just. I promise, I promise I'll be careful."
He said.
As he always did every time I called him out for riding his big bike back then. I just couldn't take the risk.
"No! Take my car. Just have someone from the shop deliver your bike to you."
He chuckled and looked at me.
No, I wasn't joking.
He pursed his lips when he realized it.
"P, I promise, I'll be careful. Just let me for now. Na na na?"
I heaved a sigh.
"Fine. But call me once you arrived at the dorm okay?"
He smiled and shook his head before he gave me a hug so quick I wasn't able to return.
"Bye, na! I had fun."
I nodded at him as he got on his taxi.
I sighed yet again.
Guess the big bike will always be the closest competitor.
"Ugh. Help! Someone's so whipped it's blinding!"
I turned around and saw Mik approached from a nearby parking.
"What are you doing here?"
I furrowed my brows at him. We worked in the same company and at the same department but I didn't understand why he's at my place when he still lived at the dorm.
"Didn't you instruct me to get the report from you first thing in the morning yesterday?"
I gaped at Mik.
We did have an agreement.
"Fvck! I forgot."
I checked my phone and I just realized it was empty. I had forgotten it over the weekend.
"Yeah, well, a weekend with your bestfriend does that. I guess. Also, Tol kept on bugging me since last night. What's wrong with you two?"
I shrugged before I led Mik to my room.
"He fvcked up."
Mik made a face.
"And Earth?"
I looked at Mik.
With the faint sound of the elevator as the background, I thought I finally knew what to do with Earth and I.
He's my person and I wasn't just gonna let him go. Not now when he's finally giving us a try.
Love is a risk.
Indeed it is.
But I was willing to take it yet again as it's with Earth.
I looked at Mik and smiled.
"Earth? Well, he just un fvcked everything up. He'll try. I'll let him."