I didn't know what to do after Vic left, I just wanted to cry. I took off my scarf and climbed into the shower. I slid down the side and laid there. I didn't know what to do. If I love Vic I risk losing my mom, and if I like or care for him too much, I might as well be digging his grave. The only person I ever loved and cared for was taken away from me, I can't let that happen again.
I sat there, trying to calm myself down, I felt horrible. Tyler knocked on the door and told me to hurry. I snapped out of my mind and washed up. I left the the bathroom and got dressed in Tyler's room, while he took a shower.
After I finished getting dressed, I started to look around. He had random pictures of him and Michael. They were a cute couple, both of them were going into the same profession. They planned on creating a band after school.
Tyler had connections in the music industry, his uncle owned a record company. I picked up one picture they had, Tyler was kissing Michael's cheek and Michael stuck his tongue out at the camera. I smiled at the goofiness.
There was a knock on the door, I knew it was Tyler. He was trying to see if I was dressed. I opened the door and he walked in with a towel wrapped around his waist. I moved aside so that he could come in.
"I'll let you get dressed." I told him.
"No, it's fine. I need to talk to you." He said. I nodded and got on the top bunk and stared at the roof.
"About what?" I sighed.
"You know Vic likes you right?" He asked.
"He told me he does."
"Don't you like him?"
"I don't know. I mean, does he even really like me? He loves pains, he likes to bother me. How could he like me?" I threw my hands up dramatically and let them fall down.
"He does. Why would he bring you out here to see me if he didn't?" I shrugged.
"I don't know. And even if he did, I refuse to like him." I admitted.
"Why?" I turned to him and sat up. He had his pants on and was putting his shirt over his head.
"It's hard to explain." I took a deep breath.
"Come on, tell me." He put on his vans and walked over to the bed.
"I just don't want to replace my mom, or kill him." I confessed.
"Kellin, you won't kill him. And as far as replacing your mom, that wont happen. She'll always have a place in your heart."
"Yeah, but I don't even think I can love anymore. The only person I ever loved more than myself, was taken from me. I can't take another chance like that." I laid back down.
"Kells, you can't let fear ruin your life." He took my hand. "That fear will end up being the death of you."
"I just, I can't take that risk. I'm sorry." He pulled himself onto the top bunk and laid next to me.
"It's fine. Just give him a chance. See how things go, okay? You don't have to like or love him. Just have fun." He suggested.
"Thanks." We smiled at each other and he leaned in and kissed me.
"Now, let's go meet Michael." He said through the kiss. He pecked my lips one more time before getting up and pulling me with him.
We walked out the room and into the hallway. Vic was coming from his room, he was dressed. He was headed into Mike's room, I guess they were going too. We followed behind him and watched as he went over to Mike. He helped him up and took him into the bathroom.
Mike wasn't seriously injured, like he didn't have anything broken. He had bruises, a gash in his side, and a swollen face. Vic was bathing him, me and Tyler asked could we help, but Vic rejected. We went downstairs and started to watch Law&Order. I sat next to Tyler and layed in his arms. He wrapped his them around me and rubbed my back soothingly.
"Where's Rebecca?" I asked. He had a sister names Rebecca and she was an angel. She was 9 years younger than Tyler, he spoiled her.
"She stayed at a friend's house. She's going to be back this afternoon though." He explained.
"Okay, great. I want to take her out to have some fun." I hadn't seen her in 3 years, she was the tiniest thing back then.
"We could take her to the park or our swimming in the back." He pointed to the backyard.
"You have a pool?" I stood up.
"Yeah. We don't have many people who get in it. It's just mostly me, Michael, and Rebecca." He admitted as he opened the back door.
"This is amazing. We have to go swimming while I'm here." I told him.
"Well you're gonna be here for 2 weeks, so why not?" He shrugged.
"2 weeks?"
"Yeah, didn't Vic tell you? He called me the day after your mom's funeral and planned this trip." He looked from me to the pool.
Why did Vic do this, and didn't ask me to pack? I don't have any clothes that could hold me up for 2 weeks. What was I going to do about school? I missed enough days as it is. He didn't plan everything out, if he did I wouldn't have mind staying. Tyler went back in the house and I followed. When we got in the house, Mike was awake and being held by Vic for support
"Ready to go?" Vic asked.
"Yeah, come on. We can take my car." Tyler grabbed his keys and we followed him out.
Mike and Vic got in the back and I sat next to Tyler. We talked the whole way to an ice cream parlor. That's where we were meeting Michael, Tyler couldn't have been more happier. He told me about how when they get out of school that they had a meeting with the record company.
We pulled up to the ice cream shop and Michael was outside waiting. Tyler took my hand and squeezed it.
"You'll love him. Let's go." He told us.
He got out and we all followed. He ran into the arms of Michael, greeting each other with a kiss. They were actually cute, Tyler was a little shorter. He jumped down from his arms and took his hand, leading him over to us.
"This is Michael. Michael this is my friend Kellin." Michael shook my hand and grinned.
"Nice to finally meet you." He said as he looked at Tyler then Vic.
"This is Kellin's friends. Vic and his brother Mike." Vic held out his hand to shake it.
"This is going to be weird having 2 Mikes." Michael stated.
"Well, he has a nickname. Mikey." Vic informed him.
"Nice." He pulled Tyler closer to him. "So what brings you guys to Utah?"
"Well, I thought Kellin needed a break from everything." I looked at Vic, he was smiling at me. He needed a break too, especially after what he's been through.
"That's nice." He smiled at us and Vic looked at me. "How long have you both been dating?"
That question stunned both of us. We didn't know what to say. We looked at each other with a look of concern and nervousness. Did it look like we were dating?
**Vic's P.O.V.**
"We aren't dating." Kellin replied bluntly.
"Oh, sorry." He looked at Tyler who looked upset, so did Kellin.
I could see that that might have ruined our day. We stood in silence for a while. The words sank deep inside me. He said it strictly, like he was annoyed. I wanted to cry, Mike must have sensed it. He grabbed my hand that was wrapped around him for support. He squeezed it lightly and mouthed 'it'll be okay.' I nodded and looked back at the guys.
"Um, how about we go ahead and get some ice cream?" Tyler suggested as he took mike's hand and walked into the shop.
I waited for Kellin to go before I walked. I trailed slowly behind him, because I had Mike and because I didn't want to be near him. We walked inside and ordered. Tyler & Mike got a sundae to share, Kellin got a mint chocolate chip ice cream cone. Me and Mikey got strawberry in waffle cones. We went over to the table and enjoyed our ice cream.
"How long have you two been together exactly?" Kellin asked Tyler or Mike.
"2 years and 10 months." He admitted.
"That's impressive." He smiled at the happy couple.
I frowned because I wanted that with Kellin. After countless random conversation topics, I excused myself. I was going to take Mikey, but he said that he can get someone to help him. He knew I needed space. I nodded and left the shop and went walking. I walked through the big town and started walking through streets.
I didn't have a feeling anyone would mess with me. I'm the type of person who looks as mean as they act. I put my hands in my jean pockets and walked down the sidewalk. As I walked further down the street, I came upon houses. There were some kids who were playing basketball or just outside talking.
I passed one house where there was 3 guys playing instruments. One was on a keyboard, another on guitar, and the third with a mic. They didn't sound bad, they could maybe use a drummer or something more. I went over to the garage they were in to listen better.
"Hey." The one with the mic in his hand shouted as I crossed the street.
"Hey, you guys are good." I told them.
"Thanks, we aren't really that good though." He said insecurely.
"No, you guys are awesome."
"Really?" I nodded. "We were just trying to practice some of our music for a last time. We just lost our drummer and rhythm guitarist, so no need for a band."
"That sucks. I'm sorry." I wish there was someway I could help.
"It's okay." He smiled hopefully at me.
"Do you mind?" I walked over to him and pointed at his guitar.
"You play?" He took it from around his neck.
"Somewhat." I put it on and began to strum a few chords from the song Legacy by Black Veil Brides.
"That is amazing. You have to be our guitarist." He gave me a high-five as I have him his guitar.
"I don't know. I live in California, I'm just here visiting." I explained.
"For how long?"
"2 weeks." He nodded.
"Well how about you practice with us for the two weeks and if you like being in the band you can stay here with us. This is my house after all." He held up his hands as to show it off.
"Okay, deal." I shook his hand and they cheered. "But wait, can my baby brother stay with me? He's a year younger than me and I don't like to leave him behind."
"Did he come here with you then?" I nodded. "Well, bring him with you to rehearsals and if you stay he can too."
"Thanks." I smiled and he took my arm and lead me over to the guys.
"I'm Craig, by the way. This is Jonny, and Nick." he introduced me to them all.
"Hey. I'm Vic." I shook their hands. "So what's you guys' band name?"
"Isles&Glaciers." Jonny said.
That was actually a cool name. I could get used to being around these guys.