A/N – This is a bit different once again, it has a bit of Geordie slang in this story. So feel free to ask me if there is something you don’t quite get, I am hoping you will still enjoy it. :0)
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I have always been a sceptical person, I don’t believe in god, ghosts or any other invisible or mysterious beings. I am not superstitious either, I walk under ladders and I step on the cracks in the pavement almost on purpose to prove that nothing will happen and that I certainly won’t break my back if I stand on a crack.
I am the kind of person who until they see it with their own eyes, are unwilling to believe it’s real. Which is strange because when I read a book I am the complete opposite. I love stories that take me to another world one in which it’s easy to believe that another world might just be real.
Let me give you a few examples James Herbert’s Once, an adult story about the erotic lives of humans and fairies, quite a hot read. Or let’s take Harry Potter for example who’s to say we aren’t muggles and Harry isn’t off gallivanting around the city right next to you? Or Celia Rees the Witch Child, set in Salem when the first puritans came to America, she was able to cast spells that almost had her put to death.
In reality I know that none of this is true, humans are far too nosy for fairies to be flying around without being caught in a net. Or for Harry Potter to be flying around on a broom without setting off some radar that the army has set up for incoming aircraft. I also know that the witch was probably just a good doctor and those loopy puritans were just stupid and decided to call her the bloody devil.
Anyway back to my point, although I can disappear into another world while reading I am very dubious in real life. So that is why I am questioning my own sanity as I am sitting in a hall with my two mates Nathan and Olivia or Ollie for short. The room was full to the brim with suckers who had willingly paid to come and be told by a so called ‘psychic’ what their future would hold.
I on the other hand had been dragged, Ollie had paid the fee for me and told me I had no choice. I tried kicking and screaming but Nathan gave me that look so I shut up and went. Nathan has the hot’s for Ollie and was trying to stay in her good books, I thought his infatuation was gross as we had all been friends since we were in nappies. We were almost like siblings, urgh whatever turns you on and that??!
Myself I wanted a nice, slim, tall dark and handsome man. I wanted him right between my legs, oh yes that would be nice, maybe this Mystic Meg guy could teleport one right here for me hmmm that would be class. I wanted to sit at the back of the room but Ollie had dragged us to the front row so now I was sitting low in my seat in the hopes that I would blend in and not be picked out.
I have the shittest luck in the world though and I should have been ready when this guy came on the stage and looked straight at me. He turned to the crowd to welcome everyone but he had a funny look on his face and I knew he wasn’t done with me yet.
He started pulling people from the crowd and started telling them about either their futures or about people that they have lost. I thought that was pretty sick to get their hopes up like that, some people were actually sobbing at the news that their lost love ones were here with them. Oh yeah like the dead would choose to hang around a bloody sports hall, in a rundown school in the dodgy end of Newcastle.
If it was me like I’d have gone straight to whatever heaven is and I’d be lounging around on the nearest beach drinking bottles of beer while I munched on ice cream. Yup, I’d miss my family of course but I am sure they’d be enjoying themselves without my sarky arse hanging around them anymore.
I thought it was disgusting that he was going to take their money and send them away believing everything he was saying. No doubt he’d be back to suck them dry each month until they finally realised that he was clearly bullshitting them by picking up on facial expressions.
I thought I was going to get away with it, he was just feeding a little old granny news about her late husband and then there would only be a few minutes left. He wouldn’t have time to pick me out of the crowd so I was ready to run for it as soon as he walked back onto the stage at the front.
Remember when I said I had the shittiest luck? Yeah well he asked everyone if they would mind hanging around a few more minutes because he had one more person to help. He pointed at me and asked my name, I wasn’t going to answer him but Ollie nipped my leg to scold me for being rude. I told him my name was Kris and I chuckled when he nodded like he had already known and he was just double checking, that earned me another nip.
He told me that as soon as he had spotted me he had been getting strong visions and he needed to share them with me because he felt they would change my life. I sighed loudly and Nathan couldn’t help his quiet chuckle earning a scowl from Ollie making him blush deeply.
I raised an eyebrow waiting for him just to get on with it so that I could escape this place and get back to the city centre for a drink. He cleared his throat and closed his eyes, how very theatrica,l now I was totally going to believe everything he told me how clever is that?!
Rolling my eyes and ignoring Ollie I glared up at him so that he would cut the crap and just get on with it. He looked back at me and told me a man would enter my life, oooh goody maybe he could teleport one right here maybe I was wrong. I waited for him to continue and he described the man to me, people whispered as they clicked on that I was in fact gay but I ignored them. I was used to it.
He told me that I would meet this guy unexpectedly, he told me he would be tall, dark and extremely handsome. Ok now this was becoming slightly clichéd, I mean I am fully aware that I had asked for exactly that but I never meant it, it would be nice but I am not that bloody conceited. I am not a buff, toned and tanned guy off tumblr. I am a pale Geordie boy who has barely seen a ray of sunshine in the last three years why the hell would a tall, dark and handsome man choose this?
This clown in front of me continued to tell me that I wouldn’t expect him, that he was not from around here and that I would have a big decision to make as he had an important job. He told me he could see water, bright lights and loud noises. That’s when I had, had enough and I rudely held up my hand to stop him right there.
He addressed the room with a sardonic smile and told them that they all had a cynic in the room. The buggers all chuckled along with him and against my wishes I instantly turned a deep shade of red. Right enough! I glared at Ollie and she finally realised that I was done and she nodded her head saying we could leave.
She thanked the dickhead at the front while I forcefully dragged Nathan from the room, I climbed into his car and I was in a huff all the way back to the city until Ollie placed a pint in front of me. I heard them enter a conversation but I was still trying to calm down enough so that whatever came out of my mouth next would not be childish.
When I had forgotten about that man I tuned into the conversation between the other two and they were talking about the air show. I had been going to that thing every year for as long as I could remember, once you’d seen the planes it wasn’t that exciting but being at the beach if the weather was nice was always fun.
“The weather is actually supposed to be hot so I think we should go to the beach at least. Maybe we could take a picnic and some booze?” Ollie asked Nathan.
“Sounds good we can get the rest of the guys involved make it a day out.” He replied.
“If you get caught with booze in Seaburn you’ll get fined.” I deadpanned.
“Stop being boring Kris, just because you’re still pissy. Where is your sense of adventure, its half the fun trying not to get caught.” She laughed.
“Fine count me in.” I replied. “I could use some colour.”
“I have an idea that will give us a laugh in case the air show is boring.” Nathan said.
“Go on?” Ollie probed.
“Nope I’ll explain it on the day.” He smirked.
Knowing Nathan it would be something that would humiliate people, he was a nice bloke but he liked to laugh at people which wasn’t one of his best traits. I finished my pint and said my goodbyes, heading off home I had a banging headache and If we were going to the air show tomorrow I wouldn’t want this to still be here.
When I went home I had a quick bath then collapsed on the couch watching the TV not that I was paying any attention. Against my better judgement I was thinking about this mysterious man that I was supposed to meet, I didn’t think it would actually happen but I was allowed to fantasise.
I pictured my idea of the perfect man, didn’t need to have super model looks but it would be nice if he was tall, dark and handsome. Deep brown eyes with honey coloured skin, fresh from a beach holiday or from some constantly hot climate. Deep, rough voice that would make me shiver and big strong hands, yup sounds really good.
Shame that guy was full of crap I could really use some guy that wasn’t a leech or so vain that he would be checking out his own reflection in my eyes. I wonder what decision I would have to make, if this guy was nice enough for me to fall in love with him I would do anything for him. Well within reason, but seriously I wish I could just fall in love. Maybe I could fall in love with the idea of this perfect man and at least that would get me through the next few weeks.
I could love a guy like that and I am sure he would have the perfect personality to match his good looks. His important job would just make him sexier to me and if he wore a uniform I would want him to use it in role play. Oh yes I am definitely falling in love with this idea, how depressing now I really want that stupid pyscho to be right.
The next day I jumped on the bus with my drink and met Ollie and Nathan in Shields ready to get the bus through to Seaburn for the air show. When we got through the beach was already packed, the weatherman had been right and for a surprising change the sun was blazing down on us.
We set out our blankets on the hot sand and set up our picnic so that we could commence the drinking session that would make the show bearable. Nathan disappeared for a few minutes with a pound coin and some super glue and when he returned he was sniggering to himself.
We downed our first few drinks easily the hot weather helping them go down quickly and before we knew it we were getting quite tipsy. Around an hour after we got there another five of our friends joined us already half cut so they didn’t need to catch up.
I nearly jumped out of my skin when Nathan burst out in laughter pointing at an old man that was stooping to pick something up. We all looked at him in confusion and he explained that he had super glued a pound coin to the pavement so that when someone went to pick it up we could all laugh. I knew it would be something that would humiliate people but I was slightly drunk now so I joined in with the others as they laughed each time someone tried to pick up the coin.
After a few hours of this we were well drunk now and the laughing just got louder and more obnoxious so I had stopped joining in. However when a kid around ten years old tried to pick it up and they all laughed I looked up. I watched him as he ran to the beach grabbed his spade and went back to the coin effectively prising it from the pavement. I laughed out loud at them all as they booed him as he ran away with his prize and his tongue stuck out at them all.
Go kid ha!
When I had ate some food to try and sober myself up a bit I decided I wanted to have a wander round, no one else but Nathan would move so I agreed to go and see the planes with him. We walked further up the beach to where the planes were situated and I walked round as he reeled off pointless facts about which fighter jet was which.
“Urgh Nate I really couldn’t care less.” I groaned after the fiftieth plane.
“That’s a shame.” A stranger replied.
I whirled around to find Nathan had disappeared and behind me was a tall, dark and handsome man in a uniform. YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?! This was absolute crap Nathan was setting me up, this was supposed to be some lame ass joke on my behalf well ha ha not funny.
“Nathan not funny, where are you?” I yelled.
The man in front of me just looked at me strangely and looked around to see if he could see anyone approaching us. I sighed as I realised he wasn’t coming back, he was probably watching from the side-lines pissing himself.
“Um I don’t know who Nathan is and I am sorry but I don’t know where he is either. I saw you talking to yourself.” He smirked and I realised he was an American.
Not from around here, important job.
“You wouldn’t happen to be a pilot would you?” I asked dripping sarcasm which he totally missed.
“Yes sir. American Air Force, my name is Joey nice to meet you.” He beamed.
“Regular Tom Cruise.” I replied still believing this was a joke.
“No just your average pilot no heroics.” He chuckled and I melted.
“What are you doing here?” I asked.
“Well I am talking to you I heard you mumbling to yourself, you sounded like you were bored of the planes and I thought that was a shame. Have you ever been in one?” He asked eyebrow pulling up.
“A fighter jet? Er no.” I replied, it was obvious I wasn’t a pilot.
“Well then maybe you’d let me take you up one time, might change your mind about those planes?” He smirked.
“Er in case you haven’t noticed I am English and I don’t think I will be jetting off to America anytime soon. However, if you ever find yourself in the North of England again feel free to drop me a line.” I said sarcastically and turned to walk away.
“Actually I am based in England, granted its five hours away in Wethersfield but in a plane that’s an hour at the most.” He smirked as I stopped.
“Look this has been sweet and all that but you can drop the act now it was funny I get it ha ha.” I chuckled bitterly. “Nathan you arse get out here.”
“I don’t know what you are talking about and I told you I don’t know who or where this Nathan is?” He looked at me confused.
“Hey.” Nathan said from behind me. “Who’s this?”
“You arsehole I bet you thought it was hilarious right, how much did you pay him?” I huffed.
“No idea what you’re on about mate, never met this lad in me life.” He said confused. “You alreet mate I’m Nathan.”
“Joey.” He replied shaking Nathans hand then turned to me. “I don’t know whether to be amused or offended that you thought I would take money to talk to you?”
“He’s a little pissy because of this psychic’s prediction yesterday, it is pretty spooky like.” Nathan smiled. “I’ll let him tell you though.”
He winked at Joey then slapped me on the back before walking off in the direction of Ollie, probably to tell her all about this. I groaned they were going to take the piss out of me later on, it was an absolute impossibility that this was actually happening though. I was going to wake up in bed soon having dreamt about that man’s prediction and I’ll groan because it wasn’t real, then I will go meet the guys to drink it all away.
“Still don’t believe this is happening huh?” He asked snapping me out of it.
“Well you wouldn’t either…” I replied.
“You gonna expand or do I have to read your mind?” He chuckled again and my knees almost buckled. “I am off duty how about we grab a beer?”
“If you’re off duty then why are you dressed like that?” I asked.
“We’re told to wear this and show up here but we don’t have to do any work. So a drink?” He smiled.
“I guess so, you probably deserve it after my attitude. Sorry by the way.” I smiled.
“I am sure I can find a way for you to make it up to me.” He smirked again eyes twinkling.
I blushed deeply and head off to the nearest bar so that we could have this drink, I could feel him walking beside me silently chuckling to himself but I didn’t dare look at him. He was just gorgeous and if this wasn’t a joke then I need to go and pay that man double, I am reserving judgement though for now I am still not convinced yet.
I bought drinks and Joey sat at a table in the corner and smiled as I walked over to him to join him. There was silence for the first five minutes as we sat and sipped at our drinks, I was so embarrassed about telling him this prediction I was hoping he wouldn’t bring it up.
Hell no, remember worst luck in the world?
“So you gonna sit there all quiet or you gonna tell me what this man told you?” He smiled.
“You don’t really need to hear that.” I tried but he arched a brow. “Fine.”
I launched into the story about being dragged to the psychic show and being told that I would meet a mysterious man. He laughed when I described the man I would meet and how he would have an important job but he frowned when I told him the psychic said I would need to make an important decision.
I explained why I had thought he was a joke, it was just too easy. Also there was no way in hell someone like him would really be attracted to someone like me so I was still my usual sceptical self. He frowned at me and tried to grab my hand just as I reached for my pint and we both blushed as I mumbled an apology.
“Look I am just gonna cut to the chase. I haven’t got much time to waste so I will just throw this out there, I like you and I wanna to take you out sometime if you’ll allow me to?” He said.
“I…Erm…Are you sure?” I asked nervously. “I mean I am just-“
“Stop I know where you’re going and you might as well give up. I told you I like you and I want to get to know you better I am sure I can come up on my days off and maybe you can come to the base if it works out between us?” He smiled.
“I just cannit get over the fact that he was right? I mean come on how often does this type of shite happen are you sure ya not just takin the piss outta me. I mean howay man you can just admit it I winnit kick off I promise ya.” I said quickly.
“First of all I have no idea what you just said and second of all could you please say whatever it was a little slower?” He chuckled.
“Sorry I am nervous. I said I can’t believe he was right, this is like the movies or something. I won’t be hurt if you want to pull out now you know?” I replied.
“Oh right. No I don’t want to pull out now so can you please just say yes already?” He smiled.
Taking a deep breath and thinking about this- hell there was nothing to think about this man was gorgeous. So gorgeous in fact I’d quite happily kick Tom Cruise the f*ck out of Top Gun and replace him with Joey. Then I’d make that the only film I ever watched just so I could see that teasing smirk and hear his deep rumbling chuckle over and over again.
“Yes I would like that.” I smiled at him at last.
“Super.” He smiled back and I laughed- who says super?
“So when do you leave?” I asked.
“Monday, so do you want to meet me tomorrow?” He asked.
“Sure what do you want to do?”
“Well you could show me around the North East?” He smirked. “I’d like to see where you live.”
“I am sure you would.” Mumbling under my breath but smirking at the same time. “Ok sure sounds good.”
“Ok well I am staying at the army base in Whitburn do you know it?” He asked me and I nodded. “Can you meet me there and we can decide where to go then. Shall we say midday?”
“Sure I’ll hop the bus and wait out the front for you.” I replied.
“Okay I have to get back to base can I take your cell and I will call you?” He asked.
I gave him my number then we stood to leave the bar, we both walked in the same direction as I made my way back to my friends and Joey started the walk to Whitburn army base. Just before I left him he grabbed my hand and pulled me close to his body, I could feel how toned he was underneath his tan coloured shirt and I groaned.
He chuckled as he reached down and kissed me softly on the side of my mouth, some people catcalled and others hissed but I didn’t give two shit’s. This god of a man just kissed me in public and I loved it, I wanted more. I blushed deeply but moved my head so that his kiss landed on my lips and I could feel him chuckling again.
I pulled away grinning at him and he rubbed his huge hands down my arms, he said his goodbyes leaned in for one more kiss then walked away. I watched until he disappeared into the crown then I sighed and made my way onto the beach to sit with my friends. I laughed out loud as I approached them, every single one of them were watching me mouths hanging open.
I tried to ignore them and sat down opening another can and waiting for conversation to pick back up again but once again I had no luck and Ollie spoke up first.
“Er who was that?!” She gasped.
“Did Nate not tell you?” I asked shocked.
“Nope mate didn’t wanna steal ya thunda.” He spoke roughly.
“His name is Joey he’s in the American air force based about five hours away. He heard me mumbling to myself complaining about Nate banging on about the planes and he spoke to me. I thought it was a fuckin joke man look at him! Turns out its not though and he wants to see me again.” I grinned.
“Oh my god, that’s awesome man I can’t believe it came true!” Ollie exclaimed.
“I know right, it’s crazy!” I laughed.
“So when are you seeing him again?” She asked.
I told them the whole story, start to end and by the time I reached our date tomorrow Ollie was squealing excitedly. Now that I had told them all and I could feel how happy they were for me it made the whole situation more real and I could feel myself getting more and more excited.
They guys wanted to continue drinking so I left them too it I didn’t want to be rough tomorrow when I met up with Joey. I went home to get an early night so that I could get up early to make myself look half decent for our date.
The next morning I woke up just before my alarm and despite leaving early the previous day my head was still a little sore so I moved to my kitchen to grab some pills then I jumped in the shower. I decided to keep myself casual didn’t want to try so hard and after all he saw me in a much worse state yesterday and still wanted to see me again.
Once I was ready and happy with the way I looked I pulled on my Chelsea boots and went to wait for the bus to take me back to through to Whitburn. It was about a forty five minute journey on the bus because I had to get two buses from Newcastle city centre into South Shields then onto Whitburn.
I was a late learner when it came to driving, it had never bothered me before but the older I got the more I wished I could do it. When the bus pulled up at my stop I jumped down and walked the very short distance to the army base gate. I didn’t have to wait long when I could see the tall, handsome man walking towards the gate, still in uniform and giving me that sexy smirk he was wearing yesterday.
He typed a code into the gate and it swung open allowing him to leave the premises, I stood there speechless for a few moments taking in his appearance. He seemed to be wearing a casual uniform today not the shirt and dress pants he had on yesterday. This didn’t matter though he was still gorgeous and as he bent down to kiss the side of my mouth again I blushed deeply.
“Are ya always this forward man, ya gunna give me a heart attack or summit!” I chuckled and he looked confused at me. “Oh sorry erm nervous again. It doesn’t matter, thanks for that.”
He laughed then and the sound vibrated off every part of my body making me shiver in delight. I didn’t know why he was laughing at me but I didn’t feel embarrassed he wasn’t taking the piss he just seemed to find my thank you amusing.
“Are you gonna say thank you every time we kiss?” He asked smiling still.
“It depends how often are ya planning on deeing it like?” I replied laughing even harder at his face. “I said it depends, how often are you planning on kissing me?”
“Every second I can if you will allow it Kris.” He said chuckling.
“Well if we are going to get to know each other you’re going to have to learn to speak Geordie.” I bumped him gently with my shoulder not that I could move him.
“And you’re going to have to learn to speak like a yank.” He bumped me back.
Apparently he had seen enough of Sunderland so he wanted to see where I was from, so we jumped back on the bus and head to South Shields. From there we jumped onto the ferry into North Shields and I showed him around all of the Roman ruins, after that we jumped on the Metro and head back into Newcastle.
I showed him around the city, the millennium bridge, St James Park and around the shops. Then we took a walk along the river and went for something to eat and drink at the quayside it was so much fun and I was beginning to get sad that he had to leave tomorrow.
It was typical that I would finally meet a really cool guy and he’s an American pilot living nearly six hours away in Wethersfield. So it was bad enough being six hours away but he could potentially be sent back to the US at any time and I was having fun getting to know him.
Before he was due to leave we continue our walk back along the river towards my apartment, Joey was just going to get a taxi back to Whitburn. He grabbed my hand and laced his fingers with mine as we walked along and he looked at me to make sure that I was ok with it, and I completely was I didn’t want to let him go.
I guess it was pretty stupid I barely knew him but I felt like if he left tomorrow I wouldn’t see him again. He promised me that he would keep in touch but people say that all the time right? I guess I would just have to wait and see if he meant it, he also said he had time off in four weeks and he asked if he could see me again.
Once again I groaned as I could feel my face heating up in response to his question and I nodded my head letting him know I would love to see him again. He walked me right up to my apartment door and I offered him in but he told me he had to get back before they lock the gates for the night.
He went to peck me on the lips again but just like yesterday I wanted a proper kiss so I moved my face so that our lips met. His hand came up and wound its way around my neck and into my hair as he pulled my head closer to give me our first genuine kiss.
His tongue finding its way passed my lips and he tasted as good as he looked. I brought my own hand up to wrap around him bringing his torso closer to mine so I could feel his toned chest pressing against me. We moaned at the same time but didn’t pull apart until we were both breathless, as he pulled away he smiled and rest his forehead against mine.
He still had a hold of my other hand and I was feeling reckless I just didn’t want to see him walk away just yet. So I pulled him by the hand into my flat to continue the fun in private, once the door was closed he slammed me against the wall and smashed his lips against mine again.
The clothes were next and we stripped each other quickly, only pulling away from the kiss to lift our t-shirts over our heads. I pulled us backwards towards my bedroom and I didn’t have time to get shy about this as he pulled off his boxers and helped me out of mine.
I turned my back to him as I went to a cupboard in the corner, he wrapped his arms around me from behind and kissed the back of my neck. I could feel his hard on pressing into my back and my own throbbed in response so I grabbed what I needed and pulled him to the bed.
I lay down pulling him down on top of me as we resumed our kiss and he ground his hips against mine rubbing our cocks together. I moaned out loud as he moved his kisses down my neck and stopping at my nipples to flick them with his tongue.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” He stopped to look up at me.
I just moaned again which he took as my approval and he moved back up to capture my lips once again. He pulled back for a moment and grabbed the lube and condom I had left on my bedside table, coating himself liberally then spreading some on me too. Then he leaned forward kissing me everywhere he could reach, trailing kisses from my belly button all the way up to my lips.
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He was amazing I have no other words. He knew exactly how to work his body to get the best reactions out of mine and my body responded with so much enthusiasm I was wondering if once would be enough. As I lay in his arms waiting for the dreaded moment that he would leave for at least four weeks I gripped onto him as if I had known him forever.
Eventually I felt him take a deep breath and sigh, his arm subconsciously gripped me tighter and he turned his body to nuzzle my neck. I turned my face to kiss him on the lips and groaned with him as he stood up to dress so that he could leave.
I pulled on some shorts and called him a taxi and while we waited for it he reminded me that he would call and text and that he would be back in four weeks to see me if I still wanted to see him. I laughed at that of course I wanted to see him again I just didn’t believe I could be that lucky.
My buzzer went off letting us know the taxi was outside and I could feel my face pouting against my will. He chuckled again but his eyes were equally as sad as he kissed me one last time then pulled on my hand until he walked out the door. I watched him walk to the lift and stayed there until he disappeared then I shut my door, grabbed a beer and collapsed on the couch in a huff.
I ended up waiting three days for a call from Joey and in all honesty I had been worried that he had forgotten me, which made me pissed off myself for feeling so needy. He kept texting me from that point onwards constantly, every day. Each time one came through I dropped what I was doing and lost myself in the dream that he was here with me.
As the months went on I was happier and much more believing when it came to twists of fate. Joey had been to see me once sometimes twice a month if he could squeeze it in and he text me every hour and called me every day. We would Skype sometimes but I didn’t really like being on a screen and he understood so I just looked forward to hearing his voice.
On the occasions when he could make it back up north we had made love each time but a little less rushed or frenzied as it was the first time. He didn’t get any worse though only better and each time he left my body quaking from the amazing orgasm he helped me reach.
Six months in and I wanted more of him but I felt really selfish saying anything to him, he was trying so hard and because I couldn’t drive and I had a shitty job I couldn’t go down to see him. I went back to see that psychic to tell him what had happened and he smirked when I said it was probably just a coincidence.
He told me there was no such thing as coincidence and everything happens for a reason, which I was finding easier to believe these days. I asked him if he could give me any more information about this important decision but he told me it wasn’t like it was all written down, he was only privy to certain information.
I told him about how hard it was that Joey was so far away and asked him if the decision would be for either him to leave his job or for me to leave Newcastle behind for good? He just looked at me sadly and told me he wished he could help me more but he had given me everything he could.
I went home feeling a little dejected. I really wanted some answers just so that I could speed things up a bit if it came to moving down south I could do that. It would be easy to come home whenever I wanted once I passed my driving test and I am sure my mates would be buzzin if I invited them for a drinking session.
Maybe Joey doesn’t want to take it that far I mean it’s only been six months and if you condense down our meetings it’s been like what? Three weeks at the most. At this rate it would probably take us three years to get to the same position as a couple that has only been dating one year.
How would this work? What if he did ask me to move down south with him and we got to spend loads of time together, would he find he doesn’t like me as much or would I get sick of him? Maybe that had nothing to do with the important decision anyway maybe he just wanted to know if I preferred Banana or Strawberry milkshake.
I just wanted to see him just a little bit more, even if he could just stay three days instead of two when he came up once a month but I knew he couldn’t. Why did I have to fall for the guy that lived three hundred miles away, it is so bloody typical. That psychic was right though he changed my life, I won’t be able to stop thinking about him now as long as I know him.
I used to spend my time thinking of the footy or when I could go for a pint with my mates now I spend most of my time talking to myself and whining like a bitch in heat. Time to stop moping around, he was coming up tomorrow and I didn’t want to look upset for him, he already felt guilty enough and it wasn’t his fault.
I began to clear my flat of all of the evidence of my moping, throwing the empty takeaway cartons and crisp packets into a bin bag, and then giving it a quick hoover. Once it was presentable I went and changed my bed sheets because I wouldn’t have time to do it in the morning he was getting here so early.
I didn’t really see the point we would just spoil them again, we always spent the majority of the two days in bed wrapped up in each other. I didn’t want him thinking I was a scruff though, he already thought I was a minga because of the way I left dirty washing lying about.
I went to bed early because I wanted to be awake to greet him in the morning for a change, he was always coming in to find me fast asleep and he would leave me for hours instead of waking me. That was precious time with him being wasted and I didn’t want that to happen so I climbed into bed and was out for the count.
It was five am when my alarm went off the next morning, I had one hour to get dressed and make us breakfast ready for him walking through the door. I had specifically taken work off so that I could spend my time with him and I wanted to enjoy breakfast together, we would need the energy it gave later.
Six am on the dot and I heard his key going in the lock, I continued making breakfast until his arms wrapped around me from behind. His chin resting on my shoulder and he nuzzled my neck taking deep breaths. I turned to face him and he looked kind of sad, I was going to ask him what was wrong but he kissed me before I had the chance and I dove straight into kissing him back.
He picked me up and placed me on the counter and I wrapped my legs around him bringing his body closer to mine. I lost count of how many times we came back up for air but by the time that we stopped altogether my breakfast was burnt. He gave me that deep, throaty chuckle as he carried me from the kitchen to the bedroom were we spent the majority of the day as planned.
In the evening I attempted to cook again and this time I successfully made spaghetti and we curled up on the couch to eat our food and watch a film. He was being really quiet and he had the same sad look that I had noticed this morning, it had been lost when we were in the bedroom but it was back and stronger than ever.
“What’s wrong with ya?” I asked him.
“Hmm?” He said snapping out of his thoughts.
“What’s up?” I repeated.
“Nothing I will tell you tomorrow ok, let’s not let it ruin our day.” He tried to smile.
“No if you’re sick I would rather you just leave now, if that’s not it then I want to know what’s wrong now.” I demanded.
“Kris….I’m leaving.” He replied.
“Ok, can I know what I did wrong and why you waited to tell me after you’d shagged me all day?” I said trying to keep my emotions in check.
“Kris I am not leaving you… well I am but not like that. I have to go back to America.” He grimaced.
“What, why?!” I yelled.
“We’re being switched around again, it happens every once in a while I have lived in America, Italy and Korea before I came to England. I didn’t think I would be here long because I was only in Italy and Korea for twelve months each but I have been here for seven years. I swear if I had known I wouldn’t have entered into a relationship with you because now I have to leave you.” He was almost in tears.
“When?” I asked quietly.
“Before our next monthly visit so this is the last time I will see you unless…” He trailed off.
“Unless?” I probed.
“No it’s alright you’d never want to, it was just a crazy thought.” He replied.
“Tell me Joey man!” I snapped without meaning to.
“Will you come with me?” He looked hopeful. “It would mean living full time on the base and possibly moving around a bit but you’d get to see some of the world and you’d have me?”
I didn’t know what to say. I mean I had contemplated moving down south but at least that was in the same damn country. I didn’t really see my family so I had nothing to lose there but Nathan and Ollie were like my family, could I pick up and leave them behind?
“It’s a huge decision I know, it was stupid I am sorry you don’t have to say yes. I don’t want you to feel like you’re letting me down or anything. We have only been together six months so I understand ok?” He went to grab my hand.
“Just giz a minute to think about it alreet, I wanna to be with ya but I never envisioned leaving England for nay one.” I said.
He looked confused again, he had picked up some of the slang I used but he still struggled with a lot of it. I leaned in and kissed him trying to force a smile as I repeated what I had just said in proper English. Then I stood up telling him I needed a few minutes alone so that I could think about it, I told him I was going to have a bath and he nodded his head the sad look still in his eyes
I went to the bathroom and turned on the taps then I pulled out my mobile phone and called Ollie, she picked up and started taking the piss out of me as usual. When I didn’t respond she knew there was something up straight away and I could hear Nathan in the background asking what was wrong with me.
I told her what had happened and she went silent on the other end, then I heard her telling Nathan and they both went silent again. I couldn’t bear it after a few minutes and I begged them to just say something, anything at all to help me with this.
“An important decision.” She said at last.
“I know, I got that too.” I replied quietly.
“You have to go Kris, you love him I know you do. We will always be here if you come back but you can’t tempt fate by letting him go, he was given to you for a reason and I know he will make you happy.” She said sternly.
“Yeah mate go we will be fine and you’ll be living in America how class is that?!” Nathan shouted.
“I will miss you both.” I chuckled through tears.
“We will miss you too but once you get settled in your posh as hell army house we will be reet out there to throw a house warming for ya.” He replied.
“Yeah we will come and visit, I have always wanted to go to America.” Ollie said.
“I don’t even know where I am going yet, I could be in some rough as hell town like Benwell it could be like a suicide mission.” I said and they both laughed.
“You’re going to be fine wherever you go cos you have Joey to protect you.” She replied
“Oh god how cheesy was that man!” Nathan yelled.
“Ok guys I have to go but I will be round to see you when he leaves ok, I need to go and talk this over with him bye.” I said and they replied with their own byes and hung up.
I poked my head out of the bathroom door and asked him to come and join me, he was there in a flash and he climbed into the bath first as I situated myself between his legs. We sat in silence for a while as I thought about what I was going to say to him, I don’t think there had been any doubt really that I would follow him. Other than Ollie and Nathan I had nothing keeping me in Newcastle and everything was waiting for me in America with Joey.
I feel like I just needed Nathan and Ollie’s blessing and now that I have that there is nothing stopping me going with him. He stroked my arm as he washed me down and waited patiently for what I had to say, he had tried to cheer up so that his sad eyes wouldn’t sway my decision and I loved him for that.
Eventually though I had tortured him enough and I tilted my head back so that I could see him clearly when I told him. He looked down at me eyes brimming with unshed tears because I knew he assumed this was goodbye and that I would let him leave without me.
I reached up to kiss him and he let go of the breath he had been holding to kiss me back, I could feel the tears running down his cheeks no longer able to keep them back. I turned carefully in the bath so that I could sit on his lap and I pulled him in for a hug.
“If you’re sure about this Joey then I want to come with you?” I said.
“What?” He said choking on a sob.
“I said I want to be with you and if that means going to America and getting a stupid accent like you then that’s what I will do.” I laughed and he rolled his eyes at the jab at his accent.
“I want you too, I love you Kris.” He pulled me in to kiss me again.
“I love you too, I sometimes still can’t believe how this happened but I am not going to fight it any longer I finally believe in fate and bloody psychics.” I replied and he laughed.
“So when do we leave, I can’t go back with you tomorrow I haven’t seen Nathan or Ollie yet and I have so much packing to do?” I asked curious.
“You can’t come over with me anyway, civilians are not allowed on our planes I was joking about taking you up before. If you’re ok to fly alone I can arrange a ticket for you into Texas where I will be based until they decide on a more permanent fixture?” He explained.
“Sure I should be able to manage one flight alone right? You will be there at the other end though won’t you?” I asked nervously.
“Yes I will be there and you can drop your bags and run into my arms where I will pick you up and twirl you around like the pretty woman that you are.” He chuckled.
“Arsehole!” I shoved him but smiled. “What will I do for money though Joey, I don’t have any savings and my job is crap.”
“Don’t worry about it we will sort all of that out later, I just want you with me I don’t need your money.” He smiled.
“So were actually going to do this after just three weeks?” I said and he looked confused. “Condensed down.”
“Oh well yeah, I don’t care if it’s been three weeks or three years I want to be with you plus you had to have been given that premonition for a reason right?” He asked.
“That’s what Nathan and Ollie said.” I nodded.
“Smart pals you have there.” He smiled.
“Yeah, their class.” I smiled back.
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The next six weeks were torture it was the longest I had been without seeing Joey and the phone calls and texts were becoming more difficult as he was called to duty to help pack up their camp. The new soldiers arriving to take over would need it to be clean and he was given the duty of inspecting everything.
With the help of Nathan and Ollie I had quit my job, packed up everything I was taking with me, given my notice to my landlord and threw away anything I couldn’t take along. Joey had booked my ticket in first class so that I would get one of those cushty little pods you see in the films all to myself.
He had called last night from America to tell me to text him as soon as I land so that he could make his way inside to meet me. I was beyond excited but it was marred slightly by the fact that I was saying goodbye to my best friends, it wasn’t forever we knew that but it was going to be a hell of a lot longer that the twenty four hours we usually spent apart.
They took me to the airport the next day and I couldn’t help the tears that were falling down my cheeks, even Nathan cried and Ollie positively wept. I gripped onto them as they gave me one last hug and I cried shamelessly as I left them behind walking into departures at Newcastle airport
The flight was long and boring because I couldn’t concentrate on the movies available to me, so I took full advantage of the free alcohol. Hours later the plane finally began it’s decent and when it rolled into the airport I could feel the Texan heat and the doors weren’t even open yet.
As I promised I would I pulled out my phone turning the airplane mode off and I text Joey to tell him I had arrived and that I was just waiting to get off the plane. I had done some research about Texas and learned that they weren’t the friendliest state for people like myself and Joey and I found myself wondering if that would affect us in any way.
When I had collected my bags I walked through the corridors and the thought of kissing him began to scare me slightly, I didn’t want to get pushed back on a plane and sent back to England for loving a man. The further I walked though the more I thought of how perfect he would look, his dark hair and eyes, his tall and toned frame.
They can all just go and fuck themselves, I haven’t seen him in six weeks and I am going to kiss him whether they like it or not. When I neared the doors I could see him waiting a huge grin on his face and I decided to have a little fun with it. So I dropped my bags and laughed as I ran towards him, luckily he clicked on and opened his arms ready to catch me as I smashed into them.
He laughed as he spun me around and I yelled that it was enough because I couldn’t breathe from laughing so hard. He lowered me back down and I kissed him hard, ignoring several looks and not caring if they were positive or negative.
I went back to collect my bags where I had dumped them and he walked forward to take them off me. He put them back down and this time gave me a slow soft kiss that had me humming and wanting more from him. I was happy to be back with him and I thought back to that prediction how much it had changed my life to fall in love with the idea that this man could be real.
He had proven that he was real time and time again but I wonder if he would laugh if I told him I had loved him before I even knew that? I had practically dreamed him up and now I wasn’t prepared to be without him so here I am in America with Joey ready to start a new life.
I couldn’t wait…
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Dedicated to Jenny for the song choice. Based on the lyrics to Savage Garden I knew I loved you.
I hope you all enjoyed it despite the Geordie slang and like I said if you need to check on something just ask. ;0)