Angel Sapphire Cane
I was running like crazy, so crazy that people are looking at me like I lost my mind. I can't think straight right now, I can't when every time I breath, every time I close my eyes, hell even if I step, all I can ever think is him. The way he said those painful words that made me feel like I'm worthless. Heck, that suits me. I'm worthless. I'm pathetic.
How can he say that? I thought he loves me. I thought we is true. I thought he meant it when he said that he loves me. I thought we were meant together, that we were made for each other but it was all a joke. A mistake. Another mistake in my life. All this time, he never loved me but I'm too stubborn to realize it. Maybe I realized it but I don't want to believe it.
I can't stop running and I don't know where I'm heading to but I don't want to give up. I want to run away from me, from him, from the truth. I'm definitely sure that I look like a mess. Tears are streaming down my face and I can't stop them.
I can't believe I fell on his trap. I can't believe I actually love him. I can't believe I thought that there's good in him. I was proven wrong and my pain is the proof that he didn't love me. Not even once and to think that I almost gave my innocence to him.
I already saw my apartment from afar and my legs are already hurting from my running and I don't care. All I want to do right now is to escape from the reality. I want to brawl my eyes out. I didn't bother to catch my breath as my chest hurts. My lungs are now burning from the lack of oxygen but I didn't stop, afraid that the truth will catch up on me and hurt me even more.
I reached my apartment and quickly picked my keys as I opened the door. My tears are now flowing freely and my hands are sweaty while fumbling on my keys. I pushed the door open and quickly pressed the switch. As my apartment light up, a kind of explosion was heard while pieces of paper from confetti was thrown at my way.
"Surprise!!!"
I look up and my gaze instantly stopped at my friends. My highschool friends. They were smiling from ear to ear while Chris is holding a bouquet of my favorite flowers, calla lilies and Scarlet is holding a cake. Cass is also with them. I was still rooted in my place as I clutched my chest in pain. Their smiles instantly dropped when they noticed my tear strained face.
A sob that I've been holding already escaped my mouth and I slumped on the ground as I clutched my chest painfully. Why do I need to experience this pain this day? My friends visit me and I ruined everything that thy planned. After all these years that I haven't saw them and now that they are here, I ruined it completely. This is the worst.
They immediately rushed towards me and started to bombard me with questions and comfort. Some sweet words that are supposed to calm me but all I can feel right now is pain. My breathing became irregular and it came out like pants as I struggle to breathe evenly. Cass is already crying while Scarlet is trying to sooth me by rubbing her hand against my back. Chris is already pacing while looking at me with pained face.
I tried to stand but I only failed as I slumped again. I'm too weak to even move and my tears are making it worse but I can't it from escaping. Black dots are already forming and I tried to keep my vision steady but failed miserably when my body already went down and my head was slammed on the ground. Blackness surrounded me and the last thing I remember is the panicky faces of my friends.
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I slowly opened my eyes and squinted them when I felt my eyes burn from the sudden exposure on light. I wandered my eyes on my surroundings and noticed that I'm actually on my room. A sudden pain strikes my chest when I remembered the painful events and I felt the corner of my eyes brimmed with my tears. I clutched my chest tightly when the pain increased. I loved him but he broke me. I stood up, wanting to find my friends and explained why I acted that way. I missed them so much.
I was about to open the door when the door itself was pulled open by someone and that someone is Chris. My best friend and my savior. I was still in shock so I didn't make a move and just watch him as he looked at me with a scowl. He is holding a bowl of soup and I smiled sheepishly at him. I scratched my head and looked at the ground, scared that he might think badly of me.
"Well, aren't going to hug me?" He suddenly asked and I instantly smiled as I look up and saw him, he's smiling at me right now. He pushes me inside and settled on the corner of the bed as he put the bowl on the table next to my bed. He slumped himself and waved his hand for me to go to his lap. I smiled and ushered towards him as I positioned myself on his lap as I straddle him.
I hugged him tightly and he wrapped his hands too. I inhaled his scent and smiled against his chest. He didn't change anything about his scent. He still uses the cologne that I gave him as a gift for his first birthday that he celebrated with me. I was really happy back then. He treats me like a sister and I couldn't be more happier. He makes me happy and I'm really thankful to him for that.
"Angie, what happened?"
He stopped caressing me and abruptly pulled away as he looked at me with his warm brown eyes. I almost coo him because of his eyes. They are seeking for answers and I sighed loudly. I looked down and fumbled with my own hands. I'm never the talking type but he understands it completely. I just hugged him again and buried my face on his neck.
"Doll, you know that you can trust me right? I know you don't want to talk about it right now but later, you'll eventually tell me, okay?"
He said with his deep voice and I nodded quietly as I continuously sniff his neck. It was never intimate between us and I know that I'm just a sister to him and he's my brother for me. I love him so much. I love how he cradle me on his lap when I'm sad, how he never prioritizes his flings over me, how he's protective and I love how he treated me like I'm his princess.
"I miss you so much Tian." I murmured and he chuckled.
"I miss you too, doll. You never changed, huh? How many times did I tell you not to call me that?" He said and I laughed slightly, remembering how much he hated that nickname. I call him that because his original name is Christian but he didn't like it so he preferred Chris but I don't like it and just made Tian for him since I like the name Christian. It's cute right?
"It's cute and you don't like me to call you Christian but I don't want Chris." I pouted slightly and played with his necklace as I pulled away a little. He still wears it. I gave it to him during our graduation as a gift. I remember when we were in highschool, he used to so popular since he's the captain of the football team and the is the second brightest in our year after me. You see, Chris is attractive with his bad boy look but beneath that is a sweet and Teddy bear like attitude.
"Doll, was it Tyler?"
I tensed up and looked at him with a scored face and he narrowed his eyes at me. He knew it. His soft eyes are replaced with his hard ones that I only got see whenever his angry or upset. I didn't know that I was crying until Chris wiped my cheeks and cradled my head on his neck. Hr kept in saying some sweet and comforting words and I just cried there.
Everything returns, the same with my feelings and the pain that I once experienced. I clutched his now damped shirt my fist. Everything hurts. Tyler betrayed me. We were supposed to be having a good time but everything was ruined. I loved him. Hell, I still love him right now but the immense pain that I'm feeling right now is too much for me to handle. It is covering any love and care I was supposed to give to Tyler.
I didn't remember it clearly but I already fell asleep in an oblivion of a dreamless sleep on my best friend's lap. I felt safe yet I still feel the pain.
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