I confess
To The Boy Whom I Never Thought I'd Fall For-
I honestly don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe I'm hoping that someday you'll come across this and know that you're the person I'm talking about...Let me start by saying that he's definitely not my type. He's not the type of guy that I would fall for or have a crush on. But I guess he has this THING, this indescribable thing. You know that feeling you get when the least person you expected you'll get attracted to will have that extraordinary factor? Damn! He has that factor. I think fell for it... Since then I would try my best to look good just for him to notice me. Trust me I'd do everything for him to notice me. He's perfect. Oh so perfect. He may not be the most handsome, the hottest, most intelligent or popular guy, but he is PERFECT. He has his imperfections. I don't care! It's what makes him, HIM. He's perfect. I know I've said this many times but what can I do he's really perfect. The way he moves, talks, laugh and looks. It's perfect! It gives me the chills... HE IS EVERYTHING... He changed me in a way that neither I, nor my friends could ever explain. He taught me how to be patient, to wait for the right time, God's perfect time. Every time I see him my heart skips a beat. I would find a way not to cross paths with him. When I stare at his eyes its paradise. Oh god he makes me feel so nervous. Whenever I talk to him I hold my breath and if he only knew he makes my stomach turn. But I treasure every moment I'm with him. It's one of the best times of my life. He can easily brighten up my day even just by passing by. Every stupid love song reminds me of him. He makes me forget everything. Even if it means, swallowing my pride for him. 'Cause I know he's worth it. He defies every single guy in this world. I'd do anything for him. Anything...We had our moments, moments wherein we act like lovers. There's just one problem he isn't mine. He could NEVER BE MINE. He belongs to someone else. Someone, whom he loved from the beginning and for sure 'til the end. It breaks my heart to see you happy with someone else. My hearts aches knowing that she makes you twist, toss and turn. But I know that you'll never be happy with me cause I WILL NEVER BE HER. I know that. I CAN NEVER BE HER. If she only knew how lucky she is... I'd trade places with her. I'd give anything to be her. Whenever I think about it my heart feels like it's about to burst out of my chest due to the pain. I know it's wrong for me to ask you to love me instead. So I would rather see you with her and hurt than see you miserable in my arms. I know it's cliché but your happiness is my happiness. So to the boy I'm talking about, I fell for you. I did. And I guess I love you even if it's wrong. It was unexpected but I know it served a purpose. I thank you for the happiness you have given me. Although things may be different now, just know that I will forever treasure our friendship. Maybe one day, when things are better and the timing is perfect we could be together. I hope and pray that we'll be together. -Ms.SilentLOver
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