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Leon
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A week has passed by since we got here. My name is from now on Joshan Lockheart since I faked my ID to stay out of trouble.
At least, we try to.
Violetta has been struggeling since we got here. She gets ill very quickly and beside that, it's clear her father has set up a life in this place. Many people know his name , and I know she's hurt.
Even I'm terrified he'll hurt her when he see's her. Maybe she would even freak out and only regret everything and cry for months about it.
I have seen her tears whenever she thought of him. I'm just not sure if I can let her do this. Actually I'm pretty sure we have to face him soon.
"Babe, I'm back" I said as I closed the door behind my back and glanced at her as she sat down with Hope in her arms. Somethimes I wanna punch Diego in his stomach because he left without his own child. I don't blame him, he's my best friend. But still, I wouldn't be able to do such a thing.
"I made lunch for you, it's on the table"
My smile curved up to my ears. I was feeling so proud she's my girlfriend. "You're the best"
"I know" she grinned as I started eating what she had made for me.
She was happy today, and with the news I was about to tell her I was pretty sure it could ruin her mood. Perhaps I should just wait a day longer and go to his house tomorrow.
"You should cut your hair you know" She said as she stood up and walked towards me.
"I don't know" I muttered while she stood behind my chair.
"It's not that I don't like your little curls" she murmured as her fingers ran trough my hair. I loved that feeling. So good. "It just gotta be a bit shorter because I can barrely see your eyes"
"It's not like I had time yet to cut my hair Vilu"
"Time?You have more than enough time.What else have you been doing all week beside helping the farmer of this place?"
Shoot. This wasn't really my plan either.
"Just walking a bit around Violetta"
"You mean finding information about my father" she let out a sigh, pulling herself away from me.
"Babe"
I shove the chair away and walked towards her, grabbing her hands.
"Please don't be sober"
"I'm not" she shook her head. "I just would have like it if you could just simply tell me you were looking for him all the time. I thought we would go looking for him together"
"And we will" I replied. "I have an adress"
She turned quiet.
"Y-you do?"
I nodded slowly. "Yes"
"Since when?"
"Today"
Her gasp filled my ears.
"We can wait a day longer if you'd l-"
"No" she shook her head quickly. "I want to go right now"
"You're sure?" I whispered , resting my hands on her shoulders.
She gave a small nodd.
"Okay, but don't expect him to be there. "
"I won't" she shook her head lightly.
I placed my the palm of my hand on her cheeck and carressed with the thumb of my hand her bottomlip.
"I love you" I said, ending my lips on hers.It was soft, nice, comforting.
I loved them.
As she grabbed my hand I knew she was ready.
"Don't let go" she muttered underneath her breath as we went outside.
Without saying anything back to her we walked futher. I knew where we were going to.
At least, I thought to.
But even I had to confess, I was clueless the more closer we came to the adress.
Her grib on my hand was the tightest she had ever held me before.
There I stopped.
The gasp of Violetta filled my ears as the both of us stared at the house in the front of us.
It wasn't big, not small either. Just enough space for the both of them to live.
I couldn't.
I couldn't let her go in there. He didn't deserved her.
He just fucking didn't.
He never even fucking cared for her the way he should. He isn't even the name worth it to be her family.
"Leon" she whispered, loosing the grib I had on her hand. "I'm going to ring the bell okay?"
I didn't nodd. I just stared at her, waiting to do something.
That was the moment she left my side.
My heart started pounding hard against my chest and it felt like I could break something every moment as she rang on the bell.
Within a second she stood beside me.
We waited.
Violetta grabbed my hand in a reflection as the door opened. But it wasn't who we expected.
A woman, between thirty, forty years showed up instead.
I imagined things as her eyes looked into mine. Would he had build a life with someone else?
"Excuse me, what..What is the intention of you two standing at my door?"
"I..I ehm" I heard the struggle in Violetta's voice.
"We're looking for a man named Herman Castillo" I said, pinching in her hand.
There was silence.
"Oh" she said after a moment.
"Oh?" I asked.
"I'm sorry, but he..he isn't here anymore for like two years. " she said a bit confused.
"Two years?" I repeated.
"Yes, I wonder..I didn't expect when I bought this house..I just.."
"Bought?" That was the first word coming out of Violetta's mouth.
"Yes" she nodded. "I'm sorry b-"
"Do you know where we could find him?" I interrupted her.
"Find him?"
"Yes" I replied.
And again, there was a moment of silence between us.
"You don't know?" She asked , a glint of concern showed up.
"Kn..know what?" Violetta stuttered, looking into my eyes for a second.
"He died two years ago from a heavy fever" She mumbled underneath her breath.
It was like time froze for a moment. I glanced at Violetta. She didn't even made a single move.
So this is it.
I thought by myself.
She has no one left except me. I'm the only one who's still breathing on this earth for her.
"Violetta I.."
"Violetta?" She looked up suprised. I heard her gasp. "You're Violetta?"
"..."
"No" she replied. I just gazed at her with amazement. "No I'm not, sorry for interrupting your time. We should leave"
And with that she pulled me away from that door with her and the both of us walked away in a total space of silence.
He's dead. I repeated that to myself.
Not once, not twice. No, all the time.
And Violetta? Would she..
"Violetta what was that?"
I stopped walking and pulled her arm the fastest I could that she span around and faced me.
"Why didn't you tell her that you're Violetta?" I asked, she pulled her arm out of my grib. Even a bit anger appeared on her face.
"Why would I even tell her? He's dead so it won't do anything Leon. He's dead"
"He's dead" I whispered, just hard enough for her to hear it. "And that's why I'm asking. Are you okay?"
"I'm fine" she said after a moment.
"I just..Really?"
She nodded. "Yes, I'm not going to cry all over him."
"I know I just..It's your father"
"No" she shook her head absorbed, even prusting a bit. "Hell no he was never a father in my eyes"
"Violetta, you d-"
"Leon stop asking about the devil okay" she cut me off in a shout. "I've changed, I've moved on after everything I had faced and god knows how hard I've been trying to Leon. I'm sure you will be a good father one day. Better than our imagination can show us. Maybe it's the best news that happend so far Leon. Perhaps it was better for me to let him die with mums secrets so I didn't had to face the terrible father being he was."
She let out a deep sigh which prickled the skin on my neck.
"So no, I'm not going to cry because of someone I never knew"