27
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He knew very well not to let go of my hands all the way here. Hindi ko alam panong siya ang aking naging lakas ng mga oras na iyon. Iniintay niya akong mag salita, mag kwento pero hanggang ngayon tanging oo, siguro at hindi pa lamang ang lumalabas sa bibig ko, I knew so much that he's been dying for me to tell him the truth but I was too weak to admitt it to Him. Too afriad to be exact. Hindi ko alam pano siya papasalamatan sa mga ginagawa niya para sa kin, yung walang sawang pag intindi niya sa kin.
Hindi ko alam saan ako mag uumpisa.
He was always there at my back to push me forward, to pull me back, there he was always for me.
"Hindi mo naman kailangang gawin to Kz." mahina niyang sabi sa kin.
"Pero alam mong ito ang dapat." I said back meaning it.
Hinawakan nito ang kanyang pisngi at pinaharap rito. "I know you know how much I hate your vocalist,"
"But you still buy our latest album."
He let out a groan that I found childlish but cute.. Cute huh?
"Binili ko yun dahil sayo hindi sa kumag na yon! At alam mong hindi yun ang punto ko,"
Nag iwas na siya ng tingin dahil hindi na siya makatagal sa mga titig nito.
"You don't have to leave the band baby, there's another way just don't quit."
"There's no other way but to quit Chris, it's not worth it anymore. Nakapag desisyon nako."
Humigpit ang hawak nito sa kanyang kamay. "Y-your fans.. hindi ba sila sapat para mag bago isip mo?"
"Alam mong mahal ko sila. Aalis lang ako sa banda Chris hindi mamatay."
"Don't fucking joke like that! it's not funny."
Agad siyang humingi ng tawad dahil duon nang makita ang reaksyon nito. She's acting bitch for no reason.
"Ayoko lang na ganito ka, alam kong kahit andito ako sa tabi mo iniisip mo paring mag-isa ka."
Hindi siya sumagot sa sinabi nito. she hate him for being like that.. parang sa tuwing may mangyayari sa kanila ay mas lalo pa siya nitong nakikilala.
They arrive there half an hour ago pero hanggang ngayon ay wala parin siyang lakas ng loob pumasok sa loob ng studio.
"This been your life, your family , your everything sweetness."
Kelan ba siya naging mali? parang lahat nalang ng tukol sa kanya ay alam na nito.
"Music is part of you Kz, diba yun yung hilig mo? This is a big deal for you. Pangarap mo to pero binabasura mona ngayon."
It is indeed what I want. "I just don't want to be part of the band anymore."
More of you don't want to see them anymore.
"If that's what you want," he sound so dissapppinted of me. I know he knows what I meant when I said those words. I want to take it back but it was all too late.
...
"So this explain why.." sinabi niya sakin habang ako nakatingin lamang ang mata sa kanila.
They look so happy in a way that she's not with me. tinuturan ng kanilang vocalistang si Ryan ang kanyang ex na si Abigail na mag gitara. I'm more than great than him.. but why.
Pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko maialis ang mga mata ko sa kanila.. hanggang sa mag katinginan ang mata naming dalawa dahilan para tumigil sila. Never in my wild mind that I think I'll be in this situation wherein I was there while Chris holding my hand, and my ex standing there looking at me ..our hands actually while our vocalist is holding her hand.
Hindi siya umalis sa kanyang kinatatayuan nang makitang lumapit ito sakanila. Chris insist for us to stay so I have no choice but to face both of them and pretend that I didn't know anything about them..
..doing behind my back.
"I've heard your leaving the band,"
"Yeah, well we all know the reason why right?" Si Chris ang sumagot para sa kanya.
I want to shut him up, tell him to stop being a dick but I know deep down I want him to tell him that.
Tinignan lamang ni Ryan si Chris at duon palang parang nag kakasubukan na sila.
"So you and him now?"
"Yeah.. so?" muling sabi nito bago siya nito akbayan.
"You change your taste now?"
"She likes my taste more than anyone and me for her at the same time," ang sinabi nito bago siya hinalikan.
Hindi niya mapigilang isipin ang sinabi nito, alam niyang iba ang iisipin ng kahit sinong kausap nila ang ganong sagot. He just blurt out that were fucking each other, how great.
I was out of breath when he let go of me. parang sinadya nitong gawin iyon sa harapan mismo ng kanyang ex. Msyado siyang nadala sa ginawa ni Chris bago siya nakapag react sa mga nangyayari. Hindi niya makalimutan ang gulat-na gulat na mga mata nitong pinapanuod sila.
She was screaming at me to do something, to stop them but I didn't. Nakatayo lamang ako roon habang pinag mamasdan siya.
"Matagal kona dapat binangasan mukha nun e, pinigilan mo lang ako." Sabi ni Chris na ngayo'y nasa kanyang tabi.
"Still it won't change any Chris."
"Kahit na! sometimes you need to be bad for your own good."
"I don't like that sound."
"Just saying baby." Naka ngisi na nitong sabi sa kanya habang iniwan ang dalawa roon.
"What you did there is not a great way to say goodbye to Him Krae," iyon ang bungad nitong sabi pag kapasok pa lamang niya sa office ng kanilang Manager.
"Hindi mo manlang ako pinaupo muna," pinaikutan niya ito ng mata bago umupo. "At yaan talaga ang bungad mo sa kin."
Hindi nito pinansin ang kanyang sinabi. "May nakapag sabi saking may naka kita raw sayo, and I can't even believe it was a boy you were with!"
"Yeah you heard it right." bored na sabi niya rito.
"At kelan mo sasabihin saking babae kana? Kelan kapa bumalik loob sa women's club couz?"
You heard it right. Couz. She's my cousin. Our manager is my cousin.
"Give me a break , so have you singed it already?"
"Hell no!"
Muli siyang bumuntong hininga at sumandal sa upuan nito roon, naiwan sa labas na nag aantay sa kanya si Chris.
"Napag-usapan na natin to diba? Gin pinapahirapan mo lang ako."
"You know that besides your mother I am the only one who accepts and supports you with this, tapos ngayon sasabihin mo saking aalis kana sa banda?"
It was so unfair of her to used that against me.
"Kung hindi kalang duwag jaan edi sana hindi tayo parehas na nasasaktan ngayon," Nag bago ang itchura nito at nag-iwas ng tingin.
Nag-aaral pa lamang sila ng College ay may gusto na ito sa kanilang vocalist na si Ryan. Nag pursigi itong patunayan ang kakayahan kaya't ito ang naging manager nila noon hanggang ngayon na sikat na sila.
"D-don't start me with that, not now Kz. Hindi ko parin nakakalimutan ginawa niyo sa kanya."
"Stop blamming me and might as well start to defend me. okay? Pinsan ba talaga kita? Kung mag salita ka jaan parang hindi ka niya sinaktan."
Katulad niya sumalampak rin ito ng upo at hinayaang umikot ang swivel chair nito.
"I don't want to be on either side of both of you, and you know it's the right thing."
"Kahit na alam nating mas pabor ka sa side niya,"
"Kz stop. Hindi madaling gumitna sa inyong dalawa. look, I can't even save my self from my own mess. Forever na ata akong manager zone."
"Couz alam mong walang ganon."
"Well meron na ngayon."
Lumabas lamang siya roon nang masiguro niyang nakumbinsi niya na itong umalis bilang drummer ng banda.
And now she's job less and nonsense.
"Tell him then quit just like what I did. It's nonsense anymore Gin at wala ng nangyayari. If he doesn't change his mind after you told him, leave." is what I told her before I head outside.
I found him leaning against the wall. standing straight when he saw me, worried flash through his handsome face as I walk to his direction..
Wala akong sinabi at basta ko nalang siya hinalikan sa labi ng mga oras na iyon. I'm not thinking straight as I did what I did, He instantly embrace me almost telling me to not let go and just let my self depend on him.
Funny how I can give advice to my own cousin where here I am can't do anything about it.
He pinned me at the wall dippenning the kiss, thanking that there's no one else to witness me loose over him. hinawakan nito ang kanyang hita at walang alinlangang binuhat siya nito roon. He placed himself in between me, I let out a moan when I felt his groin hardenning from me.
Maybe I just want to forget.. or get lost to remember only him.
...
I was panting when his lips touch my bare shoulders, kakaalis lamang nito ng kanyang pang itaas. Dumeretcho sila sa kanyang kwarto para ipagpatuloy kaniyang sinimulan roon.
"I can't ..fuck when did you buy these? since when you decided to wear sinful black lace.."
"..no..teasing, last week I bought it last– oh god."
Lumakad pababa ang mga labi nito sa papunta sa kanyang dib-dib.
"Please.. I need you," halos hindi siya makapaniwala sa sinabi pero huli na para bawiin niya iyon.
"As much as I want to burry my self inside you right now I have something to do later.."
"What? no.."
He remove my black jeans revealing my black lace panties. "God these are... fuck you're so..so beautiful."
Hindi niya mapigil ang nararamdamang kakaiba sa mga sinabi nitong papuri sa kanya, he even step back and ask me to turn my self just so he can admire me with the laces I wear that time.
"Black fit you so well baby... you're making it hard for me not to take you,"
"Then do it.. take me. Now." I said as He pushed me back so I can lay at my bed.
I closed my eyes as his mouth touch my neck again, holding my waist, playing at the hem of my panties..
She was glad that he liked it, his priceless reaction is worth the price.. Hindi niya inakalang magiging ganoon ang reaction nito dahil lamang sa simpleng bagay na iyon. She's been wearing boxer type of panties dahil iyon naman talaga ang gusto niya dahil doon siya komportable, ngayon hindi na siya mag tataka bakit mabili iyon kahit na sobra pa sa regular price ang presyo.
It makes everything more sexy, more erotic ..
"I'm gonna take you with this still on.." Sabi nito habang naka baon ang ulo sa kanyang leeg. "This will be hard and fast sweetness, I need to be quick so I can get back to fuck you with these again. . argh."
Hindi na nito tinanggal ang pang itaas and she doesn't mind. mabilis nitong hinubad ang pang ibabang suot kasabay ng pang loob.
She felt his hands brushed through her entrance..
Placing my panties to the side as he enter me ..slow but hard.
"I love you,"
We both moan from intense pleasure him finally inside me, feeling me. pinning my hands with him, I was hopeless.
"You need.." closing my eyes. "you need to.. pull out... this time," I told him gasping.
He placed my right leg at his back as he made himself deep inside me. He groans telling me how warm I am for him. Sandali itong tumigil para tanggalin ang kanyang pang ibabang suot. I almost lost my breath when I felt his fullness again filling my insides with his hardness. he kiss my neck as he circle his thumb to my clit driving me insane. I was begging for him to make it fast but he didn't listen. Mas lalo nitong binagalan ang pag galaw sa kanyang loob. slamming himself hard and slow against me, I came first then him. letting my self come all over him just like what he always did ..to me.
Pinatay niya ang nilulutong tanghalian nang may biglang kumatok sa kanyang pintuan. he texted me that he's on his way, I didn't knew he'll be that fast. Matapos ang nangyari sakanila ay nag paalam itong aasikasuhin ang balak na ipatayong business sa Jewerly Sights kasama ang kanyang kaibigan na si Zach.
And the punk is indeed born with a silver spoon in his throat.
Parang mali ako.
Nakangiti niyang binuksan ang kanyang pintuan, lalong lumapad ang kanyang ngiti nang makita itong nakatayo roon.
I was so used of him starring at me just like now.
"Your back," sabi niya habang naka sandal sa pintuan na may ngiti. "Kanina pa kita iniintay, kumain kana ba?"
Sabi niya at iniwang naka bukas ang pintuan para makapasok ito.
Naka ngiti itong umiling sa kanya.
"Himala at kumatok ka." mahina pa siyang tumawa. "You should let your self in just like what you always did,"
"Just what I always did?" Nag tataka nitong tanong sa kanya kaya't hinarap niya ito.
"Yeah? letting yourself in without knocking." she said matter of factly.
"Is that so often to happen?"
"Always.." sabi niya habang naka ngiti parin.
Remembering how he thrust inside me just an hours ago..
Erase that dirty thought right now.
Natigilan siya nang bigla siya nitong yakapin ng mahigpit. Sobrang higpit in a way na nahirapan na siyang makahinga. Nag tataka man siya bakit iba ang pabangong gamit nito ngunit hindi nalamang niya iyon pinansin.
"May problema ba?"
"No.. Namiss lang kita ng sobra, Krizzia,"
Hindi siya makapaniwala sa tinawag nitong pangalan sa kanya, huli na nang mapagtanto niyang iba ang suot nitong damit ng mga oras na iyon. He was not Chris.. He can't be..
Bago pa man siya makapag react ay may pumasok pa na isang lalaki sa kanyang bahay.
"Ean! you're supposed to talk to the girl what the he— oh. ow," natigilan ito nang makita siya. "Is that her?" muling sabi nito pero hindi ito sumasagot at maanam lamang na nakatingin sa kanya.
"Lewis, single and very available, DILG head of Quezon City." pag papakilala nito sakanya, habang hawak ang kanyang kamay. gusto niyang matawa sa sinabi nitong single and very available sa kanya pero wala roon ang kanyang isip.
Kundi sa lalaking kanina pa nakatitig sa kanya.