36
"But what if it's true? hindi mo naman masasabi kasi hindi mo siya kinakausap."
"I saw it through my own eyes Chris. please drop it, ayokong mag away tayo dahil don."
Lumapit ito sakin at niyakap ako saking likuran. "Were not arguing if you'll just stop complaining,"
I sighed and face him. ayokong sirain ang pag stay ko rito ng dahil lang sa bagay na yon. Marami nang nangyari ngayon at wala na akong time para pag-usapan pa ang tungkol sa kin at sa father ko. Right now I'm still at his house lumagpas na nga ako sa sinabing date ni Dr. Nathan, six days.. he convinced me to stay here for six days already. Hindi niya ako pinapakinggan kahit na sinabi kong kaya kong protektahan ang sarili ko.
"Okay let's make a deal, makikinig ka rin sa sasabihin ko kapag nakinig ako sa sasabihin mo ngayon,"
Napaisip ito sa sinabi niya. Wala pa tong alam sa kung anong tungkol doon. "Alright." sabi nito, I listen to him as I continue my work at his own kitchen.
"Sinabi niyang hindi niya yun babae at wala siyang babae," I roll my eyes. sino bang guilty ang aamin sa totoong kasalanan? diba wala naman? hindi nalmang siya nag salita at hinayaan itong mag patuloy.
I busy my self slicing the chicken for adobo. Naalala kasi nito na hindi niya sinunod ang gusto kaya't iyon ang lulutuin niya ngayon. Nakalimutan kona nga yun tapos siya naalala parin.
"..and I believe him babe, I believe his telling the truth. ako mismo ang kumausap sa babaeng nakita mo noon. At wala talaga silang relasyon.. nag kita lang sila ron para bayaran ang inorder ng papa mo,"
How would I know? I didn't give him a chance to explain, never really bothered to hear anything from him. I shut him out of my life and even treat him dead..
"He's with her now. I told him where you kept her, all this time you never give him a chance to see his own wife?!"
"You did not!"
"It's okay babe everything is fine now. he never cheated on you or his wife, he loves you both so much sweetness kung andun ka lang makikita mo kung gano siya kasaya, ka-proud habang kinukwento ka."
That's not true. He hated me from choosing this path, what he wants me to become is to be a police. "Inamin niya sakin nung una dissapointed siya, pero natanggap rin niya so he bought you a gift.. A second hand guitar for your graduation. Hindi na niya nabigay sayo pero inabot niya sakin."
"Promise me one thing baby, that you'll talk to the poor man, give him a chance, hear his side. okay?" I nod hinalikan muna nito ang aking sentido bago siya iniwan sandali.
...
"Ano nga pala yung sasabihin mo?" napatingin siya rito, kasalukuyan na silang kumakain nang pinaalala nito ang dapat niyang sasabihin kanina.
"Gusto kong makipag ayos kana kay Sean, drop the cold treatment."
"What? I thought you were on my side? diba napag-usapan na natin to?"
Namaywang ako at dinuro siya ng tinidor. "Alam mong hindi pa natin to napapag-usapan you always cut the subject and we end up making-out."
Napa ngisi ito at umiling. "It's because you're easily to distract." kinuha niya ang plato nito at inilagay iyon sa lababo.
Sinasabon na niya ang mga ginamit na kasangkapan nang lumapit ito sa kanyang likod. "let's just not talk about it okay?" ramdam kong unti unti niyang nililihis ang aking itim na damit.
"No. Lawrence we are having this conversation right now." he drop his hand on his side.
"Okay, but after this," binabalik na niya ang mga malinis na baso nang idinikit nito ang sarili sa kanya, napahigpit ang hawak niya roon dahil doon.
Kinuha nito ang baso sa kanyang kamay at inilapag iyon sa tabi, he slowly bend me down at the marbled sink. teasing me with his hard groin. "Talk to me now babe," how can he.. I can't even talk right now, can't even form any sentence.
He lift my shit and grab my chest, playing with my already hard nipples. a soft moan escape my lips as he continues. "what did he say?" napapikit ang kanyang mata nang maramdaman ang pag pasok niyon sa loob ng suot niyang boxer na pag mamay-ari nito. he didn't took long to found my weakness, my toes curl as he touch me down there. "so.. wet for me." He steady my body as he start to massage my clit in a slow circular.. motion.
"He.. He did not.." I bite my lower lip as he insert two fingers inside me. Oh my holy god it feels so good.
"What? what did you say baby?" he is a fucking tease, I hate it.
After a few minutes, I was begging for more of him. I let an animal sound when he finally le me reach the ecstasy. I heard him taste me, wishing I could see it.. later on he positioned himself in my entrance and take me. hinawakan nito ang aking bewang habang walang tigil siya nitong binabayo.
"He didn't cheat Chris, oh fuck." I told him but he didn't listen, instead he make the phase fast and rougher that leave my body shaking in pleasure.
If someone enters the living room and go straight at the kitchen, him fucking me at the sink the first thing that they will see. "You got it all wrong," He flip me back up as I look straight in his dark blazzing eyes. He's mad.
Itinaas nito ang isa niyang hita bago muling pumasok sa loob niya. I cried and hold to his hand. He started to move not minding what I said. napaliyad ang kanyang ulo dahil doon I'm so close.. He trust in deeper this time letting a groan, he didn't tell me I love you this time as he came inside me for a hundredth time. He touch my clit not stoping as I came again all over him.
Hindi ko na siya pinilit na makinig pero nag sasabi ako ng totoo, hindi ko alam bakit parang napaka hirap para sakanyang tanggapin iyon. I didn't say anything again and let him drag me upstairs. he's so right I'm so easily distracted, only by him.
I stand in the doorway looking at him. Hindi ito nag salita nang makita niyang mag kasama kame. "You can come if you want.. bibisitahin ko lang naman sila, babalik rin ako."
Sean became my personal body guard after the poison thing happen, hinayaan ni Zach na bantayan niya ako and Chris doesn't like the idea of it. "okay." sabi nito na parang ayaw siyang paalisin.
I kiss him in the lips. And told him "I love you," before I head in my house. hindi ko na pinakinggan kung nag i love you too ba siya basta nalang ako umalis.
"..He's just confused, iniisip niya parin siguro yung sinabi ko." kwento niya sa kapatid nito.
"I told you he won't listen." kahit na.. mas maganda narin na alam niya yung totoo.
"Mas okay narin na nag iisip siya. Hindi ko naman hahayaang maging ganto nalang kayo palagi, syempre gusto ko ring makita na maayos kayo."
I told him smilling. We enter inside my house. agad kong niyakap ang mga babies ko, sobrang miss kona sila kaya bumisita na ako. Hindi kasi siya pinapayagang umalis o lumabas man lang ni Chris. Na bobored na nga siya sa bahay nito kasi lagi nalang siyang naka kulong doon. Nakakalabas lang siya kapag mag aya itong kumain, manuod ng cine, mamasyal yun lang then after that balik nanaman siya sa bahay nito.
"He's lucky to have you Kriz."
Lagi kong naririnig kay Sean yang linyang yan. naniniwala nako na mahal niya ako, pero hindi ko sinabing gusto ko siya noon kahit kay Chris. He'll lost it, siya kasi yung tipong gusto kapag siya lang, siya lang talaga at ayaw niya ng iba.
Sandali kami nanatili doon bago ito muling mag salita. "Do you love him that much?"
"Sean.."
"Gusto ko lang malaman.. I never got a chance to love you even you to love me back,"
I sighed stroking my big cat whose now sleeping in my lap. "I did I just never told anyone. natakot kasi ako noon dahil kaibigan kita. but everything change now and this is different from what I felt from anyone, this is love. the real love."
"Pano kung nalaman mong pinag lalaruan kalang pala ng taong mahal mo?"
I looked at him frowning. "Ha? Anong gusto mong-"
"What if he's just playing at you at hindi ka naman talaga niya minahal." I got up from sitting.
Lalabas na sana siya nang pigilan siya nito. ayaw na niyang pakinggan pa ang sasabihin nito, Chris is right he's trying to ruin us because of his love for me and that's just not right. "stop it already. Sean alam mo sinabi kona sayo, mahal ko si Chris at hindi na yun mag babago pa ng kahit anong sabihin mo. uuwi nako."
"Kahit na sabihin ko sayo about sa pustahan nila sayo?"
Bago pa siya makapag react ay nakalapit na ito sa kanya. "Hindi ka talaga niya gusto Krizzia.. he's doing this just because of the bet Zach offered him to,"
Zach.. bet.. No. bago pa niya ko mahalikan ay may marahas nang tumulak sa kanya palayo sakin. "You never really give up do you?" mahigpit ang hawak niya sa braso ko.
"Bat di mo siya subukang tanungin Kz?"
Nag palipat-lipat ang tingin niya samin. "Yan? yan ba gusto mong bigyan ko ng chance na kausapin?" He exhale, "how can I trust someone like him if he keeps on feeding you the same bullshits everytime I turn my back?"
Hinayaan ko siyang hatakin ako palabas. nang makarating kami sa kwarto ay sinandal niya ako sa pinto at hinawakan ang aking pisngi. "what did he told you this time? bat kasi ayaw mong makinig sakin? He'll try anything, everything just so he can break us both apart."
"He.. he told me about the bet.. that Zach offered you.. is it true?"
Kilala ko si Zach he's my friend and he's a good guy alam kong gagawin niya lahat para maging babae ulit ako pero hindi siya aabot sa puntong ganito. na gagamitin niya yung iba para lang mapaibig ako.. May pinapakilala lang siya hanggang dun lang..
"I.. I was going to tell you about that pero hindi ngayon.."
"So hindi siya nag sisinungaling? na lahat ng sinasabi niya sakin totoo? simula sa hindi niya inagaw yung ex mo mula dito?" I'm fighting my hardest not to cry dahil gusto kong malaman lahat.. yung totoo at alin yung hindi. Alam naman nating hindi niya talaga sasabihin yun sakin dahil alam niyang ganito ang magiging reaksyon ko.
Hindi na ako nag salita after non, hindi kona rin pinakinggan mga gusto niyang sabihin sakin. I need time to think, to process everything. I never felt so betrayed in my whole life. My friend.. my boyfriend and my psycho old friend. I need an escape from everything so I left his house without him even knowing. let the world laugh at me cause I know.. right now that the joke was on me.