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(5 more chapters and this story is done. im cryyyinggg!! i love chris kaya gagawin kong maganda special chapter niya.)
Init na init siya nang magising dahil naka dagan ang katawan ni Chris sa kanya. Naka yakap ang isang braso nito sa kanya habang naka sub-sob ang ulo nito sa kanyang leeg. She tried to get off of him pero mas lalo lamang humigpit ang hawak nito sa kanya, They sleep together but don't spend the morning together just like now. Kadalasan, gumising pa talaga siya ng maaga para paalisin ito sa bahay niya at pauwiin pero iba ngayon. She was in his house, in his bed and naked. I can feel his grin forming in my shoulder even if I can't see it. I was struggling to get off while his holding me in place.
"Chris alam kong gising ka! let me go."
But instead he pokes up. Nangalumbaba pa ito sa harap niya at binati siya ng Good morning. I roll my eyes at him. He's trying to be cute with a just woke up face and just have a great fuck last night smile. I hate it.
"San ka pupunta?" Hindi ko siya sinagot habang pinapanuod niya akong mag bihis.
Hindi matanggal ang ngisi nito sa labi habang kusot kusot ang matang pinapanuod siyang hanapin kung saan napunta ang suot niyang itim na bra. I knew he planned to do that so he can watch me, just like now. I grab his shirt and wear it. thank god I found my boxers, forget the bra I have plenty of those.
"Nakapag suot kana ba ng lace underware?"
Tinignan ko siya kung seryoso ba siya sa tinatanong niya bago sumagot. "No. they're not my type. alam mong hindi ako girly."
"Then I'm buying you a black pair, Zach told me girls love it."
"I'm not one of those 'girls' thankyou."
"I'm still buying you. I wanna see what Zach told me about it, sabi niya hindi raw ako mag sisi kapag binili kita."
It's my turn to watch him change. Simpleng itim na boxers lamang ang sinuot nito at walang pake na ibinalandra ang katawan nito sa kanyang harapan.
"Enjoying the view?"
"Hindi nakakasuka nga e." sabi ko kahit hindi. I need to get out before I did something stupid again.
Pag ka bukas niya ng pinto ay naabutan niya doon si Sean na pakatok palang sana bumaba ang tingin nito sa suot niya at parang na-curious siya bigla, it was Chris shirt.. muli nitong binalik ang tingin sa kanya at nag salita.
"Pwede ka bang maka-usap?"
"Oo naman." sabi ko at handa nang umalis kundi lang may yumakap saking likuran.
Sinadya nitong idikit ang matigas na bagay na iyon sa kanyang likuran bago siya hinalikan. my throats went dry all of a sudden because of that. parang bigla siyang nanghina dahil sa ginawa nito. "Let's go?" muling tanong ni Sean sa kanya. He let's me go with a smug face on his face.
"I'm sorry about the-"
"You know it's not your fault, at totoong hindi ako buntis Sean. hindi totoo yung kinakalat ng baliw mong kapatid."
Sandali kaming natahimik dahil doon, I know it's not the right time to bring that up but I said it anyway, ayoko lang na kung anong isipin niya sakin o samin..
"Nalaman naba kung sino nag bigay ng chocolates sakin?"
"Wala parin.." putol nito na parang may gusto pang sabihin. "Actually kaya kita kinausap kase may gusto lang akong linawen about samin ng kapatid ko at about satin Kriz."
It's odd. I feel weird when he calls me by my old nick name.
"Okay?" bigla siyang kinabahan na parang mayroon siyang malalaman na hindi niya dapat malaman.
"He hates me obviously. halata naman." sabi nito at umiling. Hindi naman sila msyadong lumayo, sa katunayan nasa labas lamang sila ng bahay ni Chris. Kundi nga lang dahil sa gate nito ay nasa kalsada na sila.
Iniisip ko rin bakit ayaw ni Chris sa kapatid niya. Hindi siya palakwento at hindi rin ako pala tanong kaya siguro hindi namin napapag-usapan ang bagay nato dahil walang may gustong mag open ng topic.
"At hindi niya yun tinatago kahit sayo o kahit kaninong kilala niya. Hindi naman talaga kami ganito, close na close kami ng kuya ko nung bata pa kami. He was used to be my bestfriend, pero nag bago yun pag dating namin ng highschool."
Tahimik lang ako nakikinig sa kanya, hindi ko man to marinig kay Chris atleast kahit manlang sa kapatid niya. "And I know you're familiar with Lily,"
I'm on bitch face automatically when I heard that name. "Very." sabi ko sa seryosong tono na ikinatawa nito.
"He likes her and I didn't know that, until recently they start dating and we move school just so he can be with her."
I nod so he can continue. "Naalala mo yung sinabi kong kapag gusto ka niya ipapakita niya yun kasi kilala ko yung kapatid ko?" I nod again. "It's true. everyone is crazy about him way back then but he's a snob. His eyes only for her." Tumaas ang kilay ko at nakita niya yon at agad siyang dumepensa. "..only that time."
"He was obsessed with her to the point he does every sweet things every girl wished."
Alam ko yun dahil ganun rin siya sakin. gustong-gusto kong isigaw yan sa kanya pero hindi ko yun gagawin.
"He's one year ahead of her so turned out we became classmates."
"So you and the bitch now?"
"It's Lily and no."
"Same thing." sabi niya sa bored na tono.
Rinig kong bumuntong hininga siya sa tabi ko bago mag patuloy. "We became friends while they start dating and became girlfriend boyfriends. She's nice, beautiful yeah a little spoiled brat."
"Just get to the point already." sabi kong hindi na tinatago ang pag kairita.
"She grew up in states. rich family and what do you expect. okay.. Eto na nga sabi ko nga e, She talked to me one day and told me she liked me."
"Then?" I said urging him to continue.
"Hindi ko maintindihan noon bakit.. everyone knows she's dating my brother tas sasabihin niya may gusto siya sakin.. my brother caught us having a deep conversation, he got it all wrong mag papaliwanag dapat ako pero bago ko pa yun magawa sinapak na niya ko. It was so hard my nose almost broke. It's their anniversary that day and they broke up the very same day he was heart broken and depressed over it. Wala siyang kinakausap, he was so mad. Simula non hindi na kami nag-usap, I think that was the last time we talked before I transfer here for college."
"Dahil doon kaya dito ka nag aral?"
"Dahil sa kanya talaga. He can't stand to see me, to live in the same roof with me, to breath in the same air with me."
"Did he know about this?"
Umiling ito bilang sagot. "He won't listen okay? it's not that easy."
"Then I'm going to tell him my self."
"It's the same thing with Theresa, Krizzia."
Napahinto siya sa sinabi nito sa kanya. Duon lang pumasok lahat sa kanya kung bakit gusto siya nitong maka-usap.
"Hindi ko sila inagaw, wala akong inaagaw. just like what lily did, theresa confess to me too Kz."
Hindi ko alam panong nangyari na ganoon, what happen to Chris happens to me too. And our names sounds the same too! if it's not fate or something then I don't know what it is.
"I.. I.."
Ngumiti lamang ito sa kanya. "And..may hindi pako sinasabi sayo Kz. Akala ko noon ganyan ka lang, boyish, amazing, carefree pala hindi mo talaga gusto yung lahi naming mga adan.. Kase gusto mo si Eba. Hindi ko nasabi to noon kasi katulad ni kuya hindi mo narin ako kinausap."
Bigla naman siyang nakunsensiya dahil doon kaya't nag-iwas siya ng tingin.
"Matagal na kitang gusto Kz. Sinubukan kong ibaling yun sa iba—"
"Kaya niligawan mo si Nicole kahit hindi mo naman siya talaga gusto? Is that why?"
He nods. napasandal ako ng di oras sa kinauupuan ko dahil doon. All this time I thought it wrong? How can I be this stupid? Bakit hindi.. akala ko... napahawak ako saking ulo. I wasn't expecting that. Alam ko naman kasi itchura at kilos ko noon, I mean wala naman akong gusto na mapansin ako pero hindi rin naman ako umasa na sana magustuhan niya ko pero.. hearing it from him is different.
"And it doesn't change.. Kz. I still love you, all this time it's always been you."
"I don't know what to say Sean,"
"Hindi mo naman kailangan sumagot Kz. Hindi naman tanong yung sinabi ko."
I look up to him seryoso siyang nakatingin sakin habang ako hindi alam pano gagawin. "You know I'm with your brother," he nods. "and you know that I love him."
Nakita kong nag-iwas ito ng tingin at bago ko pa mabawi ang aking sinabi ay may narinig akong nag salita saking likuran.
"And I love you too baby, as much I want to hear it again from you saying it.. to him... we really need to eat. I don't skip breakfast you know? it really depends on who I'm eating. I mean what.. Nakalalito kasi minsan, alam mo na.. parehas kasing masarap."
Sa sobrang hiya at inis ko iniwan ko silang dalawa roon sa labas at pumasok ako sa loob.
...
Muli kong hinimas ang aking ulo habang pinapanuod silang mag talo sa harapan ko.
"I'm not letting you cook for us! pano kung malason mo pa kami."
Naiinis na tinanggal ni Sean ang suot na pangluto bago lumapit sa kapatid.
"Sana nga ikaw nalang yung nalason para natahimik ka."
"Wala ba talaga kayong balak na tumigil?"
Tumayo siya at pumunta sa pwesto ni Sean. Nathan should be the one cooking for us right now but he can't come. Hindi kasi naisip ng maliit na utak ni Chris na busy yung tao at hindi na kayang isingit ang ipag luto pa silang tatlo.
"You can sit Sean. Ako na mag luluto." Masungit niyang binalingan si Chris bago mag salita. "At ikaw pwede ba? itahimik mo yang bunga-nga mo."
Nilabas ko ang mga kailangan para sa lulutuin ko habang pinapanuod nila ko. wala nang bago dahil nag talo nanaman silang dalawa, Kelan ko ba sila makikitang mag kasundo? tinanong ko silang dalawa kung anong mas gusto nilang ulam ngayon. Sean said Nilagang baka while Chris liked Adobo, mas pinili ko yung gusto ni Sean na nilaga just to pissed him off.
"Sino ba boyfriend mo dito? diba dapat ako pinapakinggan mo? dapat yung gusto ko yung niluluto mo ngayon hindi yung sa kanya."
Hindi ko pinansin pag dadrama niya at nag patuloy lang ako sa pag hiwa ng baka, iniisip na sana leeg niya yun, just kidding. Hindi naman matagal lutuin ang Nilaga, tumatagal lang talaga dahil sa pag papalambot ng baka. It's ten when Chris decide to eat breakfast, then came eleven. naubos halos ang isang oras dahil lamang sa nag tatalo sila kaya kung hindi ako nag kusa kanina baka hanggang ngayon nag tatalo parin silang dalawa. Ewan ko ba. Mag t-twelve narin kaya pang lunch na ang niluto ko.
Eksaktong pag tanong ni Chris ng matagal paba ay duon ko rin nilapag ang lutong ulam at bagong saing na kanin para saming tatlo.
"God I miss your cooking." sabi ni Chris sa kanyang tabi habang humihigop ng mainit na sabaw.
"Dahan-dahan lang at mainit pa!" sabi ko dahil parang ngayon lang to ulit kakain.
Nginitian niya si Sean na nakatingin lamang sa kanya habang tahimik na kumakain. he smiled back and we all eat together silently and peacefully, thank god.
Pag tapos namin kumain ay sumaglit akong umakyat sa taas para hanapin ang aking damit, mag palit at umuwi. hindi niya mahanap ang itim na t-shirt pero nakita niya ang puting sando na pang doble sa damit. It's cold out here, wearing double shirts is just normal. Bago pa man may pumasok sa kwarto ay nasuot na niya iyon. tinupi niya ng maayos ang t-shirt nito na kanina pa niya suot sa kama at humarap rito.
"Looking for something?" he said in a teasing tone.
"Tapos nabang mag hugas si Sean?" napasimangot ito sa kanyang tanong.
"He left okay?"
"Good I am too."
"Ano? No! not you too. you stay here with me."
Nag salubong ang aking kilay dahil sa sinabi nito. "may bahay rin ako at uuwi na ako, my pets need me."
"Nathan said three to five days rest Kz." pinakadiinan nito ang salitang rest sa kanya.
"I am. kaya nga ako uuwi kase mag papahinga ako. salamat sa buko juice,"
"You're not going nowhere baby! you can't go!" Sabi nitong pigil sa kanya.
"You can't always boss me around! hindi porket tayo na e may karapatan kanang pigilan ako sa mga gusto ko at dapat kong gawin, I can handle my self."
"Your.. I, God baby your piercing's distracting me."
Napahilamos nalang siya sa mukha dahil doon.
He let out a sigh. "bossing you around and caring about you is different." sabi nito sa kanya sa mahinahong boses, "I'm not stoping you to go or do whatever you want after this. I'm worried. wala parin kaming ideya kung anong motibo nung lumason sayo Kz and this is serious, we don't know the person yet and it scares me. Pano kung maulit uli? pano kung next time hindi lang yun gawin niya? pano kung–"
Lumapit ako at inilagay ang aking index sa kanyang labi. I almost regret about it, hoping that I use my lips to shut him just like what he always do to me.
"Okay I'll stay. three days–"
"Five,"
"Three. Pero bago yun sino mag aasikaso sa mga alaga ko? we can't bring them here, they'll break everything."
Tinanggal nito ang aking daliri at hinawakan ang aking kamay.
"Sean will do it."
"Okay." that's all I need to know.
...
"Ilang beses ko ba kailangang sabihin sayo na mahal kita?"
"Everyday.. remind me everyday, how much you love me," sabi niya habang hindi mapigilan kagatin ang pang ibabang labi.
I was on his lap, he's kissing my jaw down to my neck while he removes my white sleeve-less shirt. I was top less now. I fist his hair when he suck me in his mouth, tongue playing my nipples. I hissed my breath as his warm breath touch my skin making my back arch. You're double sensitive with piercings tripple when he tugs and plays with it at the same time he suck.
"Do you really love me baby?"
I nod as an answer, I was so into him playing with my chest.
"Say it!" sabi nito sa malakas na boses na nag pamulat sa kanyang mata. ibinaba niya ang kamay at ipinatong iyon sa balikat nito.
"I do, love you," iyon ang unang pag kakataon na inamin niya iyon rito.
He kissed my lips. parang hindi ito makapaniwalang sinabi niya iyon, she did. At napatunayan niya iyon kanina nang mag tapat sa kanya ang kapatid nito. Wala siyang naramdaman na kahit ano.
"..then do me a favor and make me feel it." sabi nito sa kanya at inilapag siya nito sa sahig.
I was standing in his front half naked. hindi na niya kailangang ipaulit ang sinabi nito dahil naintindihan niya na iyon. He wants me to make love to him right? gusto niyang patunayan ko rin na totoo yung sinasabi ko by showing it. just like what he did so I can believe him.. so I can trust him.. so I can love him.. back.
Tumango lamang ako bilang tugon. Now's my time to return the favor.
There's nothing to not love about this man looking at me with dark eyes.
He's sweet, he'll irritate you at most times just to notice him. A little attention seeker at times but you can tolerate that.
He watch me as I remove his boxers in him and him remove my only last clothing.
He'll tell I love you in his own ways, possesive, psycho.. in a good way, obsessed boyfriend, crazy for you types, naughty at so many times, likes to talks sex, thinks about sex at most times. you'll love his dirty mouth.. especially down there..
"Ohh. I.." I can't speak he's too good. "is this enough?"
"More.. I.. need.. more of.. you,"
Damn I roll my eyes, too much pleasure.. Humawak siya sa balikat nito at mas pinaigi ang pag galaw. napahawak naman ito sa kanyang bewang at mas idiniin siya pababa. We both moan because of that.
"Talk to me," sabi niya rito.
"About what?"
"Any... uhh anything."
He remove me from his lap and placed me to the bed positioning himself above me. "I know you love my dirty mouth,"
And he enters me inside once again. binaon nito ang ulo sa kanyang leeg habang yakap niya ang likod nito. He moves for both of us as we get lost at the same time.
"I'm going to make you come so hard tonight baby, that's a reward.. Then I'm gonna make sure I knocked you up this time."
Before I can even argue he distract me by circling his thumb in my clit and moving faster inside..
I was so sleepy in his arms making me warm hugging me.
"Have you plan on talking to your father again?" I shake my head feeling my eyelids heavy.
"Tinawagan ako kanina ni Zach."
I didn't respond. "They saw Lily outside your house."
I feel him placing a kiss in my forehead. "Hindi ka pwedeng umuwi hanggat hindi namin naririnig paliwanag niya, wala akong balak na ireport siya.. as much as I want to do it.. just so you know.."
I nod this time. feeling my self so sleepy. "do you understand baby? you're staying here.. with me."
I nod again as a response. having a fight to stay awake and to be asleep.
"God you're easy to talk right now. you just nod and nod with no argue. Good fuck."
He kissed my lips this time and say, "Goodnight sweetness, I love you." bulong lamang ang pag kakasabi nito ng I love you sa kanya pero rinig niya iyon.
She found herself saying I love you too once again at him before drifting in a good and heavy sleep.