Throughout the drive back to my old house all I could ever think of were, Zander's and Ryan's family and also those guys. Ryan was the one who stayed in my thoughts a little longer, since he didn't even say a goodbye when I left. That did hurt a bit. But, who am I talking about here? Ryan Adams. He's unpredictable.
After reaching home I walked inside with Caleb and Brittany in tow.
"Gran-gran, I'm back." I shouted once we had hit the living room. It's around 12 pm and she's in the kitchen.
She speed walked from the kitchen to the living room and gaped at me for awhile. I was expecting her to say something like 'I'd missed you' or anything along those lines. But she surprised me by crying in joy. Not.
"What the hell are you doing here?" She snarled at me. I was blinking at my one and only blood relation in this planet and who'd just yelled at me for coming back home after two weeks time. Wow! I was so pleased and happy. NOT.
"Um- they sent me back and asked me to make the choice from here." I answered in a low voice. Caleb and Brittany were having a pretty good show.
"WHAAAT?" Grandma yelled a bit over dramatically and continued, "Why? Didn't you behave properly or something? Yes, that must be it." With that she charged towards me and the clever girl I am, I started running around in the living room. In corner of my eyes, I noticed Caleb laughing out his head while Brittany was looking at me with pitiful eyes.
Okay! Brittany's off my target range but Caleb is.
I stopped dead in my tracks and turned to face my furious grandmother and said, "It's all Caleb's fault, Gran-gran." I pointed at him, oh so innocently. My grandma's laser eyes were turned to him and she started chasing him. Caleb's face paled and he started running too.
Phew! I'm spared. Brittany walked up to me, laughing and handed me a glass of water. After having that, the both of us walked to my room but not before helping Caleb to escape from my Grandmother.
"Look out!" I screamed at Granny, and she turned back where I was pointing, which happened to be the front door. Caleb took this as a life or death situation and sprinted towards us for rescue. The three of chuckled and ran upstairs to my room.
The three of us jumped on my bed and was under a laughing fit for awhile.
Once the three of us were tired, we shut our mouths. We were just looking up at the ceiling without saying a word to one another. Britt decided to speak up.
"Kate? Have you made your decision yet? Or are you still confused?" I know what and about whom she meant.
"Yeah, I wanted to talk to you about this too." Caleb joined. Now both of them were facing me. I was in between the two love birds, by mistake.
I let out a deep sigh, "I don't know. Both of them are equally good and take care of me really well." I said looking at Britt, she nodded in what looked like understanding and I turned to Caleb, he was half asleep.
Idiot. I pulled his hair to wake him up. I didn't elaborate on it to make it sound like a boring story or something for him to sleep. Yet he decided to ignore me.
"Ow, ow!" I pulled his hair again. How dare he!
"Okay, okay, I'm listening." He said, immediately switching on to his cute expressions. He's cute even if he isn't having any expressions on which is a very rare thing.
"Zander was really sweet and did everything that made me happy and smile. While Ryan was not so sweet but showered his love on me and took care of me just like Zan. Both of them are equally good and that's why I'm damn confused. You guys gotta help me out." I sighed in defeat.
"I think Zander is the one." Caleb said, unsurely yet he managed to sound so sure.
"Don't rush it, hun. Take your time and make a good choice. There are still two more weeks." Britt said widening her eyes when she said 'two more weeks'.
Oh my God! I've just two more days. I couldn't tell this to anyone. They may think I'm crazy. Caleb might faint by laughing too much and Britt may start crying, thinking that I'm mentally ill or something.
"Okay." I said something, finally.
The three of us were in silence and slept of after awhile. Silence does that to us sometimes.
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By the time we woke up it was evening. Damn! We missed the lunch. But I wasn't hungry at all. I felt that Britt and Caleb were worrying too much thinking about my pathetic life. So, I chased the lovebirds out of my house, asking them to go out for a small outing, something more like a date. They did try to drag me along with them but I told them that I was a bit exhausted. They left me as such after grabbing hell lot of fruits from kitchen and throwing it all on me. They asked me to eat all of it before leaving.
I had grapes and an orange. Just then I thought about Ryan. Was he still mad at me or something? Should I text him or call him? These thoughts kept swirling in my mind and my food pipe got shut on it's own and I didn't feel like continuing with the intake of fruits either.
I grabbed my mobile and typed a text to Rebecca first.
Me: Hey! Is everything okay? Has Ryan come back?
Rebecca is my close friend and I didn't wanna beat around the bush, so I made it to the point.
Rebecca: Everything's fine but we miss you. :( Ryan's back. He looked like mess when he got back home. I think you should talk to him or at least text him. ;)
Rebecca can't be without smileys while texting, neither can I. But I use them only when I'm in normal mood and not when I'm badly confused and sad.
Me: Okay! Will do :) I miss you guys too :(
I sent her my last message, with smileys, of course, I also feel that a text message without them looks rude or something. Shoot my brain for thinking such weird things.
Should I text him or call him? I debated in my head and came to a conclusion that I would text him first and if he doesn't reply to it then I'll call him up and talk.
Awesome idea.
Me: Ryan, you okay?
I didn't know what else to send him. I thought of acting as if I hadn't noticed his angry state by texting him 'what are you doing?' or just a 'hi'. But I couldn't do it for stupid unknown reason.
I waited for along time and even stuffed lot of grapes in my mouth but he didn't reply yet. So, I texted him again.
Me: Are you mad at me for something?
That was my brilliant question. No, shit Sherlock. Of course he would be mad at me. I just wanted to send something.
By now, all of my grapes were gone inside my stomach and half the orange population too, no reply yet. I lost it.
I called him up.
He answered finally after million rings.
"Hello." That's it. Nice one Ryan. May be he was busy and couldn't read my texts.
"Ryan? Are you mad at me?" I don't know what was wrong with me. I was being so blunt today. I heard a small growl from his end and gulped.
"Just fuck off. Go kiss my cousin and do whatever you want with him. Just leave me alone." He yelled and hung up, leaving me speechless.
Kiss his cousin? Oh! Zander. Ryan must have thought so bad about me. Yeah, I feel like a top slut too but he didn't have to lash out on me like that. It did hurt like bitch.
I let the tears take over my overflowing emotions and buried my face in the pillows.
I hate myself so much.