Hello my flawless friend, I'm still here. Which is a good thing, right?
I still don't know why I have been feeling the way I do lately and it is scaring me so bad. I don't know what to do about it. I have my therapist but I hate telling her stuff. It just makes me feel weird, ya know what I mean? I know she is suppose to help, but to be honest, I lie more to her than anybody in this entire world. I could never tell her the terrible and rotten thoughts that endlessly flow throughout my mind. As you know, my mind is a very dark place.
How have you been? How was your day? How are you? My day was quite fine actually, I daydreamed all day long. I mostly thought about non realistic things that I wish would come true, but in reality never would. Do you ever do that too?
Sometimes I feel as if there is something missing inside of me. I feel as if a part of me isn't where it should be. As if it is lost somewhere in this world and I need to find it. Maybe finding this will help me be happy. I don't know why I get so sad, I wish I didn't. I've decided to give up on being sad. I always am and it isn't fun. Nothing is going to bother me anymore. I'm going to be strong and be happy. This is my life, I only get one shot at this and I should make every second count. I always thought my life was coming to an end, but really it has just been beginning.