I'm in the car with my sister on the way to the shopping outlet. We just left the hospital and I can't contain my happiness right now. My day started off well then I got amazing news that Ervin can go home in a couple of days.
"Soo it sounded like you had fun this morning?" My sister questions me. I look at her but she's not looking at me. She's focus on the road.
"What?" I ask.
"I heard some unholy noises this morning" she glances at me with a smirk.
"Oh my god" I cover my face. I can't believe she heard me.
"She must be good" my sister chuckles.
"Stop" I plead.
"Tell me. I don't know what it's like to be with a girl so I'm curious" she says.
"This is weird!" I exclaim.
"How is it weird? Were sisters. I'll tell you about Travis" she suggest.
"No, I'm good" I shake my head.
"Is sex with a girl better than with a guy?" My sister ask.
"I think it depends on the person. For me, sex with Ryujin is better. She can actually get me to finish unlike my exes" I give up and actually have this talk with her.
"I can see that. I've met your exes and they're all useless" my sister rolls her eyes.
"How are you actually feeling with your relationship though?" She ask.
"It's still scary but I'm doing my best. There's still a lot of days where I can't believe she's choosing to be with me when she can be with someone better but it's also hard to let her go because I'm happy with her. She takes care of me so well. She makes me feel so loved. I love how she shows her affection. It's how I imagined my partner would be with me" I share with her.
"I don't want anyone else but her but I'm afraid I'll ruin it. I have a tendency to self destruct as you know" I add.
"You've already done so many things that would make anyone leave but she hasn't. I mean if I was her and my girlfriend ran off when I propose, I'd be single right now" she laughs.
"Honestly, I'm surprised too" I laugh with her.
"Do you think mom will ever fully accept her? I know she accepts our relationship but I can tell she hasn't completely come to terms with it" I ask.
"I think she would. With how charming she is? I'd be surprised if that doesn't work on mom" she answers.
"That's another thing. I do hate the fact that she's so nice and charming because then people will like her and I'm sure some will try to steal her from me" I look out the window and cross my arms.
"So what? All that matters is that you know she won't go with them. You should feel happy that so many people like her but she's with you."
I check my phone and I don't have a text from Ryujin.
"I wonder what she's doing that she hasn't sent me a single text" I say out loud.
"Well she is with Travis so he probably talked her into doing something stupid" she comments.
"You should be nicer to him. Poor guy is doing everything he can to make you happy during this pregnancy" I look at her.
She parks the car since we've arrived at the outlet. I get out of the car first and she follows. We start walking around to shop as we continue to talk.
"I try but I just get so annoyed with everything he does. I don't know why. Even his smell that I used to love, I can't stand it right now. I do feel bad and I'm grateful that he's being so understanding with all this" Karina shares.
"It is funny to see him all scared" I chuckle.
"Have you thought about having another baby?" She ask and I snap my head towards her.
"I literally just had Ervin and you're asking that?"
"Not now. Like say Ryujin wants another kid" she ask.
"I have thought about it. It all depends on her. I want what she wants. She's already taking on two kids just by being with me. Three kids might be too hard to handle" I say.
"Oh I forgot to mention. Our family is coming here for Christmas instead. We figured since even if Ervin comes home, he can't really go on plane yet and driving would take like 3 days so it's easier if everyone comes down" my sister informs me.
I stop my shopping to look at her, "Like all our family?"
"Mom, John, dad, mom's brother and sister, dad's sister and some cousins" she tells me.
My body freezes when I heard my dad's sister is coming too. I subconsciously hug myself, remembering about what she did. My family doesn't really know what happened.
"Do you have to pee?" My sister ask.
"No why?" I shake out of my thoughts.
"You suddenly crossed your legs?" She questions.
I look down and she's right. "Oh yeah. I do have to pee" I say and I rush to the restroom.
I lock myself in the stall and start taking deep breaths. Why should she suddenly show again? I haven't seen her in years. She's one of the reasons why I wanted to move out of my hometown.
I close my eyes and continue to take deep breaths. I think about Ryujin, Eva and Ervin. I keep telling myself I'm gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay. I don't have to talk to her. I can stick to my sister, Ryujin or my mom.
Thankfully, I'm able to calm down. I leave the stall and wash my hands. I stare at myself in the mirror. "You're gonna be okay" I tell myself.
I go back to my sister and she's busy shopping.
"Are you okay?" She ask once she sees me.
"Yes" I smile at her and she gives me a nod.
We continue to shop until I feel myself get tired. I want to go home at this point to hang out with Ryujin and Eva.
The drive home is quiet. I just feel uneasy right now. I'm sure my sister senses something but I appreciate that she's not asking because it's not something I really want to talk about.
When we get home, she's the first one to enter the house. "I'm so hungry" she says. It is late in the afternoon now. We skipped lunch.
I walk in to find Ryujin in the living room with Travis and Lisa, watching something. I go to the kitchen, assuming the rest of Ryujin's family is there and Eva would be too.
"Hello everyone" I greet but it's only Mrs. Shin and Rosé.
"Hey, Yeji. How was shopping?" Rosé ask.
"It was good. Tiring" I say.
"Where's Eva?" I look around.
"She's outside with Gabe and Yuna, playing" Mrs. Shin informs me. I nod my head and join them at the table.
"What are they watching?" I point towards the living room.
"Some anime. Lisa said that the new season of Sword Art Online is out on Netflix and it turns out the other two watches it too. They've been there since morning, watching it from the beginning" Rosé answer.
I furrow my brows, "Why from the beginning? Not just the new season?"
"Because I guess that's not how you're supposed to watch it. Every time a new season comes out, you have to watch from the beginning" she tries to mock Lisa.
"You can stop them if you want" Mrs. Shin tells me.
"It's okay. Ryujin deserves a break from me so I'll let her" I laugh.
"Your sister told us about the plans for Christmas. It's nice that your family is coming here" Mrs. Shin smiles at me.
I smile back, pretending I'm okay, "Yes. I miss them."
I tell them about Ervin coming home too and they're extremely happy. Mrs. Shin is already excited about meeting her grandson, she already calls him.
"Ow! Ow! That hurts!" We hear Travis yell so we all rush to the living room to see what's happening. Karina is grabbing Travis' ear while he's on his knees and tapping her hand to let go.
Ryujin and Lisa are laughing.
"What happened?" Rosé ask.
"These three were talking about dating this girl named Asuna" Karina says, annoyed.
"Who's Asuna?" I look at Ryujin.
"She's the girl in the show we're watching" She answers right away.
"Is that so?" Rosé starts speaking, "Lisa, bring your ass over here" She orders and Lisa walks to her with her head down.
I don't know why but I understand why they're upset. Even if it's from a show and she's not real, I can't help but feel jealous. It doesn't feel right to hear your partner is saying they would date someone else aside from you.
I glare at Ryujin and she gives me an apologetic smile. She approaches me, "Yeji, you're not upset are you. She's not real" she says in a loving tone.
"It doesn't matter" I cross my arms.
This is actually one of the few times where I'm expressing my jealousy. In the past, I wasn't allowed to express when I'm feeling jealous. My exes would call me stupid for feeling that way or they'd start yelling at me.
"I'm sorry, love. But Asuna is nothing compare to you. Real or not, no one can top you" She gives me her cheeky smile.
"Then why would you say it?" I question.
"Because I'm stupid. I must have caught it from Travis" she says and I laugh.
"What the hell, Ryujin!?" Travis yells out.
"Sorry. Every person for themselves at this point" Ryujin yells back.
I look around and I see Mrs. Shin laughing. I laugh along with her because it is funny to see the three, looking guilty for upsetting us.
I always envied my sister's relationship with Travis because she would act all jealous like this at times but instead of Travis getting mad, he would try to make it up to her.
I see from the short amount of time I've known Lisa, that she's the same way with Rosé.
Now, I'm in a similar situation with Ryujin. I know how silly it is to be jealous of a character but she doesn't get mad at me or call me stupid. She apologizes and tries to make it right.
"I forgive you" I say and she hugs me.
"You're the best" I feel her breath on my shoulder.
"Just because of all this, you three are in charge of dinner" Karina says.
"Yes boss Karina" the three faces my sister then salutes.
"Travis! What the fuck did you teach those two?!" She yells at Travis again.
"Sorry, can't hear you. Busy thinking of what to cook" Travis runs from her before she can grab him again.
He walks past me with Lisa and Ryujin.
"What the hell is wrong with you two trying to get me into more trouble?" I hear him say and the two just laughs at him.
Once they're gone, my sister sits down on the couch and sighs. Rosé and I follow. Mrs. Shin went outside, probably to check on Yuna and the kids.
"It feels really nice to be in this kind of relationship" I say out loud to no one particular.
"Was your relationships before my sister toxic? Like all of them?" Rosé ask and I nod.
"Wow, I can't even imagine that" Rosé shakes her head.
"The last one is probably the worst" my sister sighs, remembering him.
After that conversation, we decided to watch TV while waiting for the three to finish cooking. But it's hard to focus when we hear them cursing each other while laughing.
"Those three really get along with each other" Karina chuckles.
"Travis really enjoys having them around" she adds.
I'm really happy that everyone gets along but I then remember my dad's sister is coming here to visit and I get lost in my head.