Updateeeeee!!! I finally managed to finish this chapter (be proud please hehehe). I really hope I will be able to get back to a fixed updating schedule for this story. Thank you for your patience and enjoy! x
When Louis arrived at school he was in a really bad mood. He couldn't sleep the last two nights and tossed around in his bed until he gave up at some point. The situation with Harry was driving him crazy and he had absolutely no idea how they could manage to get through this together and he was close to giving up his hopes to go back to how they were.
He trudged over to his locker and opened it grimly before pulling out his books. Something fell out of his locker and down to the floor. Louis frowned but crouched down to pick it up. It was a folded paper with his name written on it and he looked around himself to see if someone was watching him to make out from whom it was, but there was no one.
He shrugged to himself as he abstinently closed the locker while already opening the letter.
Lou,
I don't even know where to start and I'm sorry in advance if I start to ramble. I should start by telling you how terribly sorry I am for all the pain I have caused you in the last few weeks. Not only did I yell at you and called you the most horrible names, but I also insulted you and even hit you. I know that I have made plenty of mistakes and there's no apology for treating you like this and sometimes I don't even know myself anymore. I could blame it on the hormones, but we both know that's a pathetic excuse and I can only tell you now that I will change. I change for me, for you and for our future together. I won't let you go again, there is no way and I prove you that I'm serious.
You are the best thing that's happened to me and I'm not saying this because you gifted me two children. I'm saying this because you are the kindest, most gentle and most caring person I know. You always put other people's well being before yourself and that's a feature not many people have. You are so selfless which is admirable, but also really dangerous because some people take advantage of it, like me for example (but anyway, that's not the point right now). When you step into a room it goes brighter just because you are there. You are a literal ball of sunshine and I don't know how you do it, but you can make the saddest person laugh within ten seconds. You simply have every good characteristic a person could have, I don't even know how all of those things can fit in such a small body like yours, let alone such a big and pure heart.
You are thoroughly beautiful, inside and out and I know I don't tell you this enough, but it's the truth. You are perfect in every way, you are the reason I am happy to wake up every morning because I know I see your face and experience your unconditional love. I know it didn't seem like it the last few weeks, but I think you are one of the smartest people I know even though you act dumb most of the time, but that's just who you are with your childish mind (sometimes, but I love that on you). I love how you don't take yourself too seriously and I love how much you care about our kids and their future. I shouldn't have said that you were dumb, because that's far from the truth, I'm the dumb one in our relationship, otherwise we wouldn't have been in the situation we are in right now (but again, that's not my point right now).
I'm incredibly proud of you and how you manage everything so good and I have to admit I'm also a bit jealous because everything you do seems so easy. You once told me you aren't superman, but I think you are. I'm proud to call you my boyfriend and I will show you how proud I am actually.
This letter is a huge mess- no structure and too much dumbness, but anyway- what I originally wanted to say is that I love you more than anything and I am incredibly sorry. I promise to be better and I will make it up to you and I really really hope you are free tonight at seven p.m. and allow me to pick you up. Wear something comfortable and hopefully I see you tonight.
P.S. If you don't want to then I probably made a fool out of myself.
P.S.S. I wouldn't care of making a fool out of myself because I would do anything for you.
I love you with all my heart,
Harry
Louis didn't know if he should laugh- because of Harry's dorkiness- or cry- because it was the cutest thing ever- so he just did both. Tears were running down his cheeks, but he couldn't help but chuckle to himself.
"You idiot." He whispered smiling and shook his head in amusement.
He noticed that he must've stood there for ten minutes and when he looked at the clock he cursed. He was late for class. Shit. He quickly secured the letter in his backpack and ran to the classroom. He silently slipped inside while shooting the teacher an apologetic look who just glared at him before he sat down in his seat next to Harry quietly. He could feel his gaze on him as he pulled out his notepad and pen and scribbled a note on one of the papers.
7pm sounds good. Don't be late ;)
He pushed it over to Harry who let out a small giggle and as Louis glanced over to him he shot him a small smile.
Louis spent the lesson thinking of what Harry had planned, but he knew that he was unpretictable when it came to such things. They could either go to a restaurant or go skydiving, so he guessed he just had to wait and see, but he couldn't deny that he was excited for it. He just hoped that they could get around their issues and get themselves together, but the letter was a start at least.
After school he went home and instantly went to his room to do homework when half an hour later the doorbell rang. He didn't bother going downstairs because as he took a look at the clock it was only half past four so it couldn't be Harry. It was probably a friend of Lottie or something like that, so he didn't really care who opened the door.
To his surprise his bedroom door opened and Liam and Zayn stood in the doorway.
"Hey, Tommo." Liam grinned and Louis' head shot over from where he was sitting at his desk.
"Hey, lads. What're you doing here?" Louis wondered confused.
"We talked after school and thought why don't we have a lads day? We haven't had one of those in a while." Zayn smiled.
Shit, Louis thought to himself. He didn't want to kick them out, but he was supposed to meet Harry later. Maybe he could spend time with them now and kick them out in two hours. Yes, that was a good idea.
"Yeah, sure. Sit down." Louis gestured to his bed. Liam grabbed his backpack and turned it around and some bags of sweets landed on Louis' bed. Zayn pulled a few softdrinks out of his own bag along with some Playstation games. "Wow, you really thought that through, huh?" Louis chuckled.
"Course." Zayn snorted.
"Alright, guys. Fifa or GTA?" Liam wondered as he looked at the games after Louis had sat down on the end of the bed while Liam and Zayn were propped up against the headboard.
"Fifa, what kind of question is this?" Louis snorted.
They played Fifa throughout the whole time while eating rubbish food and drinking Energy juice and coke and Louis didn't have fun like this in ages. They were joking around and wrestling on the bed like old times and his stomach hurt from laughing so much. He had really missed his best friends terribly and until this afternoon he had forgotten how much he needed them around him. However he didn't miss the looks Liam and Zayn gave each other the whole time.
"Okay guys, enough of this. What the fuck is going on with you two?" Louis let the controller fall onto the bed and looked at his best friends expectantly.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Liam said quickly. Too quickly.
"Oh please, come on." Louis huffed. "I see the glances between you two and you're all touchy and whispering. I've noticed for weeks now, so spit it out."
"Okay. We didn't want to say anything, because well...you and Harry aren't exactly on good terms right now and we didn't want to spread salt in the wound, but uhm, well we are together." Zayn explained slowly as he looked at Louis' facial features carefully.
"Wha- seriously?" Louis asked with wide eyes.
"Yeah..." Liam scratched the back of his neck.
"Oh my god this is amazing guys! Congrats!" Louis grinned and tackled them both in a hug.
"You're not mad that we didn't tell you?" Zayn asked carefully when they sat up again.
"Why should I be? I thank you for your thoughtfulness, really. You don't have to tell anyone if you don't want to, not even me." Louis explained smiling. "I'm just happy for you, everything else doesn't matter."
"Thanks, Lou." Liam smiled genuinely.
"Now tell me how did that even happen? I didn't even know that you were gay. Well, I knew that Zayn has a crush on you for ages now." Louis propped his head on his hands and waited for the gossip impatiently.
They told Louis how they told each other their feelings and then how they got together and that they're going strong for almost two months now.
"Woah, this is crazy! But there is one really important question." Louis said thoughtfully as he watched both of them precisely.
"No, Lou." Liam whined, he knew exactly what Louis was talking about.
"Oh, please. You can't leave me groping in the dark!" Louis exclaimed.
"Ugh, fine. We share, okay?" Zayn grumbled.
"No fucking way! Really?" Louis' eyes grew big and he pressed his lips together grinning.
"What's so surprising about it?" Zayn asked unamused.
"Oh, nothing." Louis grinned. "Do you have fixed days or do you have conversations about it like 'I want to top today'...'No I wanted to'...'But you did last time already'...'Fine, but next time it's my turn again'." He said trying to mimick Zayn's and Liam's voices.
"Louis!" Liam exclaimed horrified.
"What? I'm curious." Louis shrugged innocently.
"We're done with this topic." Zayn glared at him and Louis just laughed.
"Fine. Can we continue to play then?" He asked and they picked up on their game again while talking about the most random stuff.
"Thanks for coming over lads, really. I missed you." Louis said sincerely.
"Don't thank us. Thank your boyfriend." Liam chuckled, but Zayn elbowed him in the ribs.
"Liam." Zayn hissed.
"What? He would've told him either way in half an hour. Speaking of, don't you have to get ready?" Liam grinned at Louis who just gawked at them.
"W-what?" He asked baffled. Zayn groaned.
"Harry told us to come over to you and that we should have a buddy day, because we haven't met up in a long time now and he thought you might need that, so he bought all of these things and practically forced us to come here, not that he had to, but you get what I mean." He explained grinning.
"H-he did all of this?" Louis still couldn't believe it.
"Yes. I think he is really sorry." Liam nodded acknowledging. "He told us what he had done and what had happened between the two of you and he really wants to make things right." He explained when he saw Louis' shocked face.
"O-okay. What the fuck?" Louis exclaimed unbelieving.
"I guess you have to think about some things so we leave you alone now. And don't forget to get ready." Zayn cackled at Louis' puzzled state.
"Uh, y-yeah. Okay." Louis said slowly.
"We need to do this more often again though. Didn't have fun like this in months." Liam smiled and both Louis and Zayn agreed.
When Louis was alone he took a quick shower before he got dressed in jeans and a hoodie. Harry had told him to wear something comfortable, but Louis was sure he didn't mean that he should wear sweatpants so black skinnies had to do. He quickly blow dried his hair because it was already five to seven and after putting on some cologne and grabbing his phone and wallet he made his way downstairs just as the bell rang.
He walked over to the door where Harry was standing smiling nervously.
"Hi." He said quietly.
"Hey." Louis smiled.
"Ready to go?" Harry asked slowly. "Or did you change your mind?"
"Nope. Let's go." Louis smiled and followed Harry to his mum's car. They got inside and only then did Louis notice that Harry was wearing sweatpants.
"Damn it." He cursed.
"What? What's wrong?" Harry asked panicked, he feared that Louis had changed his mind now for real.
"I was contemplating to wear sweatpants, but I thought that wouldn't be appropriate, but now you're wearing them too." Louis explained and Harry just chuckled and reached behind him and placed a pair of sweats in Louis' lap.
"I knew you wouldn't dare to put them on so I came prepared." He smiled.
"Thanks." Louis grinned. He shook his head slightly, to say he was surprised by Harry's actions was an understatement. Who was this guy that was driving now and what did he do to his moody boyfriend? "Where are we going?" Louis wondered as he awkwardly changed his pants, which was more difficult than he thought as he was still buckled up and sitting on the passenger seat.
"Just wait and see." Harry smiled.
After five minutes they reached their destination and Louis looked out of the window confused.
"Uhm, Haz. We're in the middle of nowhere." Louis said slowly as he saw absolutely nothing in the dark outside.
"Come on." Harry just smiled and stepped out of the car.
"Harry! What are you doing? Get inside, now! This is not funny! What if someone wants to murder us?" Louis started panicked, but Harry just shut the door. "Seriously?" Louis scoffed as he opened his own car door and got out himself. "Harold! Are you even listening to me? Get in the car now!" He glared at Harry who was just grinning at him.
"Are you done now? Can we go?" He asked slightly amused.
"No. No, I'm not done! What if someone wants to kill us out here? I bet we don't even have a signal. I don't fancy getti-" Louis stopped abruptly when suddenly a small path was lighting up in front of him. He followed the path with his eyes up to a small hill which was also lit up. He turned to Harry confused who held a small remote in his hand and smiled at Louis. "What-?" He asked confused and looked between the lights and Harry dumbfounded.
"Come on, now." Harry said gently and held his hand out slowly. Louis didn't even think about it and grabbed it, letting Harry guide him along the path. They reached the top of the hill where a blanket was spread out on the ground with a picnic basked on top of it. Around the blanket were laying pillows and two more fluffy blankets as well as an old school cd player.
"What the hell?" Louis asked baffled.
"Come, sit." Harry patted the spot next to him after he had lowered himself on the ground slowly. Louis looked around him still confused but he sank down on the floor and stared at Harry.
"H-how? And when? And why? Did you do this all by yourself? Harry, you shouldn't do that, especially not running around in the dark all by yourself! You're pregnant, for god's sake!" Louis exclaimed.
"Calm down, will you?" Harry chuckled. "My mum, Niall and Jack helped me, okay? They just left before we arrived here." He explained softly. "I wanted to do something for you on my own and I didn't want some boring restaurant visit or shit like that. I know you normally don't like these kind of things, but-"
"It's perfect." Louis interrupted him amazed. He smiled at his boyfriend softly who blushed and averted his eyes to the ground. Louis lifted his chin gently and looked him deep in the eyes before he leaned in and pressed his lips on Harry's in a short kiss. "Thank you, baby." He whispered and his heart could burst when a huge smile appeared on Harry's face.
"Now what have you prepared?" Louis grinned as he leaned back and rubbed his hands together in excitement. Harry chuckled and grabbed the basket. First he pulled out a champagne glass and a beer bottle. He handed the bottle over to Louis, before he took out a bottle of champagne.
"Uh uh. No way! Nope. You're not drinking, are you mental?" Louis gasped.
"Calm down, it's children's champagne, see?" Harry chuckled as he held the bottle out for Louis to see who visibly relaxed.
"You're such a dork." He laughed as he opened the bottle.
"I just wanted to at least act like drinking champagne, let me be." Harry pouted playfully.
"I didn't say anything." Louis chuckled and held one hand up in surrender, with the other he was still holding the bottle pouring the liquid in Harry's glass.
Harry pulled out ham sandwiches and a plate with fruits and vegetables. Then he grabbed a tupperware box with chocolate cake in it and also a bottle of water.
"I know it's not much, but the cake took so long to make a-and I didn't have time to make more...I originally wanted to make the mini pizza's and cinnamon rolls you like so much, b-but uhm...yeah." Harry explained slowly fiddling with a napkin he was holding in his hand.
"Darling." Louis sighed. "It's perfect, really. Don't rack your brain about it, okay? I would've been happy if we only had a bag of crisps and nothing more." He smiled gently.
"Okay." Harry whispered. He handed a sandwich over to Louis who turned on the cd player where some soft ballad was starting to play quietly. They ate in silence for a few minutes, Harry couldn't help but watching Louis the whole time. Once again he asked himself how he could've been so stupid and jeopardize their relationship and risk losing him.
"How are you feeling and how is Jack?" Louis spoke up after a while. He looked up from his half eaten sandwich to Harry's face who quickly chewed his food before swallowing.
"Pretty good, actually. The morning sickness is gone thankfully and the headache I always had piped down." Harry nodded to himself. "Jack's a bit...difficult. He always asks about you and why you're not home anymore and stuff. Uhm, most of the time I can divert his questions, but if not he usually throws a tantrum." He continued now slowly.
"Oh. I guess I should see him more often as long as I stay with my parents." Louis said. It was a bit awkward talking about that when they should rather talk about their issues first.
"I told him you have to study for school because finals are coming up, which is not an entire lie. He asked if you do the crazy things with the books and notepads while freaking out and I told him then that it's called studying." Harry explained chuckling. Louis grinned and shook his head in fond at his son.
"Are you cold?" Louis suddenly wondered when they were done eating. Harry didn't even notice that he was shaking just as he looked down on himself. He leaned over and grabbed one of the spare blankets and threw it over himself, but because they were laying on the cold floor they were also cold.
"No, it's...it's getting warmer already." Harry smiled slightly. Louis took a gulp from his beer before he put the bottle down on the ground and scooted over to Harry. He parted his legs as he sat behind him and gently grabbed his waist before pulling him close to his body.
"Better?" He asked quietly as he threw his arms around Harry's shoulders. Harry laid his head on his shoulder and snuggled into him.
"Better." Harry sighed contently. They were sitting like this for a while just enjoying the proximity after a relatively long time again. "Lou?" Harry whispered eventually.
"Yes, baby?" Louis hummed. Harry turned around a bit in his arm so he could look at him.
"I'm so sorry how I treated you. I don't know what was wrong with me in the past few weeks. There is no apology that I acted like that, but I swear I will do everything to try to at least make a little bit up for it if you just let me. And I hope you can forgive me at some point." He said with a trembling voice as he tried to push the tears in his eyes back. Louis tightened his grip around Harry to hold him as close as possible.
"I already forgave you, darling. I get why you acted like that. The hormones are making you like this and the stress of school is adding to it. I get it, really. But you're right, it's no apology. But we both made mistakes and you're not the only one to blame. I could've also grown some balls and talk to you properly without fearing that it would end up in a fight."
"No, no don't do this, please." Harry shook his head vehemently. "Don't blame yourself, because you did nothing wrong. On the contrary, everything you did was for us and I didn't even appreciate it."
"It doesn't matter anymore. All I want is that we can manage to save our relationship. I love you, Harry, and I want to grow old with you, but we really need to get our shit together when we want this to work." Louis said emphatically.
"I know. I want that too even though it didn't seem like it. You're the most important thing in my life and I don't want to lose you. I promise I will make up for it." Harry said seriously.
"We both make up for it." Louis smiled and squeezed him.
"By the way...I love you too." Harry smiled.
"I hope so. Otherwise this conversation would've been in vain." Louis chuckled slightly. Harry giggled against his chest.
"Can I kiss you?" Harry asked carefully as he lifted his head and looked in Louis' eyes.
"You can always kiss me." Louis whispered gently and placed his thumb on Harry's cheek to caress it.
Harry leaned in until he felt the warmth that radiated from Louis' face on his own skin and as Louis met him halfway he closed the gap between them and their lips touched. At first their mouths were only pressed on each other, but when Louis put a bit more of pressure on it his lips slowly started moving and Harry was quick to copy his actions. Louis' hands wandered down to Harry's hips and he gently turned him around in his lap so he was completely facing him before he sank down on the blanket taking Harry with him. Harry gasped when Louis' tongue touched his lips and he opened his mouth instantly letting Louis slip his tongue in his mouth. A groan escaped Louis' mouth when his tongue touched Harry's and Harry whined against his lips.
Louis blindly reached for the blanket and threw it over Harry's and his own body when he felt Harry shivering on top of him before he placed his hands on his hips again. Harry's hoodie slipped up a bit so Louis was touching his soft skin and started to caress it lightly with the tips of his fingers.
"Lou." Harry whined against his lips. Louis only hummed as he continued kissing him. "I'm so sorry, but I can't think of anything else than the chocolate cake." Harry mumbled with red cheeks. Louis broke the kiss and leaned back studying Harry's face precisely.
"Are you serious right now?" He wondered, he really wasn't sure if Harry was just messing with him right now or not.
"Yes. I'm really sorry." Harry said with a deep red head.
"I don't know if I should laugh or cry honestly." Louis chuckled, but then his face started crumbling and he bursted out laughing.
"Louuu! I'm sorry. But I can't...it's driving me nuts." Harry tried to explain panicked, but Louis only laughed more.
"It's alright, baby. Let's eat this cake then." He shook his head amused before he rose up from his laying position and they sat next to each other eating the cake together. Well, Louis got two bites of it, but he didn't complain especially not when he saw Harry's happy face as his mouth was covered in chocolate. He was positive that they could actually get themselves together and everything would turn out fine. Today had been a big step into the right direction.