Date: 11.11.21
Joke: Why do giraffes have such long necks? Because their feet stink!
Quote: "This ain't a heartbreak anthem, I don't care what happened, But I ain't got no time to dwell on it" - Heartbreak Anthem by Little Mix
Summary:
No one ever told me having close friends would be this hard.
My day was fine, I had no energy or motivation, so I wasted half my day. Played handball in gym with the boys instead of the girls and it was way more fun than with the girls, got a 5/9 on an important English quiz. Haha I hate reading comprehension questions *sarcasm but bitter sarcasm*. I am terrible at them and I don't know how to get better. Can't wait until I don't have to take English classes anymore 🥲... then I walked home instead of biking because it was beautiful weather! Then I ended up going climbing with E and B at the gym where I practice with my high school team.
Climbing was super duper fun! I tried really hard and finished appx a v5 and almost topped a V6! It was really fun hanging out with them, although I did notice a lot of tension because of you know what. Idk why it changed so much. B seems deflated now, like less energetic and not as happy overall. He does love climbing though, watching him trying climbs and working out beta, I could tell he loved it. Him and E only talked about climbing though, nothing else. I feel like I'm the middle person rn. I don't mind it, I just think it's hard on all three of us. I loved hanging out with E a whole bunch. I got a bit clingy and gave her tons of hugs and stuff, but I think we both needed it. She leaned into the hugs and things so I think we are both emotionally drained a bit. I love her so much but this is taxing. I need time to rejuvenate but I can't have time cause then it makes it worse. It's a dilemma. Let's change topics shall we?
I have gotten obsessed with Mat Kearney! He is a really awesome artist and an amazing story teller! It has been really comforting music!
Also I can't wait for Red TV!!! And all to well will be amazingly stunning!
Don't forget about Between Us by LM!! The new songs will be super duper trooper cool!
I'm gonna end this cause dark thoughts lace my every thought. (Wow that's poetic)
Thanks for reading!
Love you guys <3
Ps don't die please 🙃