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It has been exactly ten days since you last saw Seokjin and broke off the bond. The incident in the office seemed like it was long in the past and everything felt better now that you stayed home and in a less strenuous environment. To make things better your mother finally got her autumn break from the school she was teaching in so the house was less lonely.
Your mother knew everything but did not bring any related topic. Instead, like the good mother she was, she would make you delicious foods and urge you to play board games some nights. On days she would make snacks and the two of you spent time binging on Netflix.
Life finally feels better but you knew something was missing.
"Mom, when did you say that the school was re-opening?"
"By next week I think. But we still have some time to go out and have fun so don't worry about it."
"Mhm. I like hanging around with you much better."
She sent you a lopsided smile before turning back to cook the popcorn. Today was a typical Tuesday night and you planned to watch some movies with your mother matched with homemade popcorns and sodas she offered.
You sighed in content, glad to have this quality time with your mom since it was rare due to work though both of you lived together. Then your mind darted back to everything that has happened, things you were still trying to accept.
Everything happens for our own good.
You would tell yourself that phrase, that getting fired and losing the people you treated with extreme value happened for your good. It was partially true and everything was supposed to be okay now but it wasn't.
Because of him.
"The popcorn is done! Let's get to our movie marathon."
You followed your mother to the living room, settling on the couch as she binged for some good channels on the t.v. In this, while you spaced out again, your mind went back to the man who hurt you over and over yet he was still living in your head.
Jeon Jungkook.
The name itself was like a bittersweet taste that brings both happy and angsty memories to you. The man who came to the office to sleep instead of working, who didn't know how to differentiate between ointment for foot crack and burnt skin. Your boss who always relished in the coffees you brought for him, the man who was shocked at the taste of street for the first time.
Your heart squeezed inside but you let out a slow breath, trying your best to not let the emotions get over you. It had been around twelve days since you last saw him or heard from him. Even after everything you knew he was bound by his father's rules.
Despite knowing the truth, you foolishly waited for any text or calls from him in hopes that he would tell you about his real feelings, that he was sorry and wanted to start over. But he doesn't. And that hurts you even more.
"I can't find a good channel, here you try it."
You chuckle as your mother passes the remote to you. Without much thought, you began flipping from random channels before it landed on a news one and the headlines caught your attention, making you freeze.
"And now for the most surprising news of this year, we have the confirmation that Mr Jeon Jungkook, present CEO of Jeon Company and son of Mr Jeon Jongin, is set to marry the daughter of a highly successful businessman, Miss Kim Eunji. The marriage has been dated for 28th August, Friday."
You felt the air get knocked out of you. All the while you were pretending to be okay and get over everything that happened. But hearing the news broke you, made you realise that you were never okay but were only hiding it.
"Yuna?" You felt your mother shift on the couch, "you can change the channel dear, pretend you never heard this news if you want to."
But did I want to?
Did you want to ignore the problems and act like you are fine until you break down again and fall apart? Or would you prefer to suffer by watching the news and hurt yourself more? You chose the first one, changing the channel abruptly only to make it land to another advertisement that had Jungkook's picture largely pasted on the front.
"Shocking news: Jeon Jungkook confirmed to marry Kim Eunji, children of influential companies getting engaged."
The air felt damp and harder to take in because you did not need another attack on your poor mind. With rage, you flipped to several other channels but it seems like the universe was bent to show you the truth because everywhere, the news about Jungkook and Eunji was flying around.
You gave up dropping the remote on the table with a thud. Your mother gave you a pitiful glance but you had no idea how to react now. It was like everything was going well and the next moment, your life fell apart like a set of stacked dominoes.
"Oh dear, I am so sorry."
You hugged your mother who readily embraced you. Finally, your body began to shake as you shut your eyes and let the spring of warm tears escape down. The more time passed you cried harder, feeling hurt and betrayed.
Why were you crying over the man who hurt you since the beginning, a person who never valued you? Someone you wanted to help but he only ruined it, the most enraging fact that he was a coward who did not stand up for you or himself.
"There, you'll be okay."
You started to soften your sob as your mother kissed your hair and patted your back soothingly. You pulled away, somewhat embarrassed because you were walking around like nothing affects you but broke down as soon as you heard Jungkook's name on the news.
"I-I don't know what to do any more mom. It doesn't make sense."
"Life never makes sense honey, you need to figure your way out."
"That's the problem."
You wiped your tears and felt completely confused, what you should do now. You can't simply ignore everything but also had no right to fight since Jungkook himself was not supporting you.
Your phone buzzed on the table and you frowned, noticing that it was Seokjin. Why was he suddenly texting you after so many days? Ever since you broke it off with him, he sent numerous texts and calls but you ignored everything to make it clear. Then he eventually gave up, until yesterday.
You read his apology message but kept it on read and did not expect him to text you again. Curious, you checked it.
Seokjin:
ㅡHey I assume you saw the freshly released news about Jungkook's marriage right?
You contemplated replying but stopped yourself. Why should you care? Your feelings or opinion did not seem to matter before, what could be different now? So you kept your phone down but it ringed again and you skipped the urge to groan.
Seokjin:
ㅡDon't pretend to ignore me Yuna, I know you just saw the message. How can you keep me on read all this time?
You rolled your eyes until another new message appeared.
Seokjin:
ㅡCome on Yuna, just reply to me. I need you here. Stop being so stubborn.
You:
ㅡDo I know you?
Seokjin:
ㅡSeriously??
You snorted at his response and noticed that your mother goes to the bathroom.
Seokjin:
ㅡHeck you do. We are friends, remember?
You:
ㅡI thought it was clear that there was nothing between us.
Seokjin:
ㅡYou are still stuck on that? Fine, I am a stranger who desperately needs your help.
You:
Sorry but I don't talk to strangers, Good night.
Seokjin:
ㅡWait! I really need your help Yuna, pretty please?
Seokjin:
ㅡYuna? Are you there?
You leave him at read, still wondering what help was he referring to. These people only came when they need your help but never consider you as someone they can rely on. They'd use you like tissue and dispose of it when not needed. That really annoyed you.
"Hey, dear, who were you texting?"
Your mother reappears and you shrug, "a wrong number."
"Uhuh. So that handsome guy standing outside is the wrong number?"
You freeze, "what?!"
What did your mom mean by that, someone was outside? The thought gave you chills. Who could it be? A stalker? But you had no one to stalk your family or stand outside like that, especially if your mom saw it.
"Mom who was it? Did you see their face?"
Your worry began to skyrocket as you stood up and start asking her. She blinked, confused for a moment.
"Well it was dark but I felt like he was someone familiar. I think it's the guy who came to pick you up and always dropped you off."
Could it be. . ?
You had suspicions but why would he be hereafter everything? No, it could be someone else too. Maybe your mother saw it wrong. It couldn't be either of them that you knew.
Your mom shrugged, "why don't you go check it by yourself?"
Still uneasy and wary you nodded before grabbing your phone, heading towards the door with heart almost in your mouth out of anxiety. Who could it be? Was the person still outside.
A ding alerted your phone and you checked it, stopping on the spot.
Seokjin:
ㅡOh I forgot to mention this earlier but I am outside your house. Mind letting me in? It's cold out here.
You almost lost your footing and screamed because your brain was getting messed up. Was this man serious? What was he even doing here when you denied knowing him?
"Don't tell me he has been there since the beginning."
You mustered the courage, deciding to face the fate that came knocking on your door. With a click, the only thing separating you and the horrors of the outside world opened and your mouth went dry as you see him standing there, in flesh.
Seokjin grinned.
"Hello, Yuna. It has been long."