okay so after this chapter it's gonna be a time skip to tour because I don't want his book to get boring and I have SO much planned for tour, get ready bitches.
also this is kinda just a filler because I'm on my period and I have no motivation to do anything lol
also! gabby and i are VERY similar. so embarrassing things which gabby went through/ talked about, may or may not have been from personal experience. 😳
gabrielles pov
I didn't really sleep much last night. after we had both got ready and got into bed, billie had cuddled up to me and I just laid there, stroking her hair and listening to her quiet snores and soft breathing.
the sun started coming up so i unwrapped billie from me, and she groaned, trying to get closer but i managed to get free.
i located the coffee machine and made myself a cup, taking the blanket and sitting outside again, to watch the sunrise over the beach.
there was a few people walking on the beach with dogs and i spotted a man in all black, with a camera in his hand.
fuck.
he lifts his camera up and i rush back inside, not wanting him to take any photos of me.
i grab my phone from the kitchen island and walk back into the bedroom, gently getting back on the bed without waking billie.
she must've felt my body heat because it wasn't long before she was clinging onto me again, laying her head on my chest.
i moved my arm underneath her and ran my nails up and down her back, using my free hand to scroll through socials and reply to messages.
i decided to post a questions sticker on my instagram, getting the fans to ask me some questions to kill time.
(i'm too lazy to make stories so the questions are underlined and the answers are in bold)
how old are you?
sixty nine
favourite song
i have too many, right now it's friend by gracie abrams
are you working with anyone right now?
🤫🤫🤫
when's your next book coming out?
probably the end of the year idk
when are you releasing more merch?
soon 👀
unseen photo of billie
face reveal
*posts photo of black screen*
random pic in your camera roll
favourite artist right now
finneas
dogs or cats
dogs
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MORE
favourite movie?
the notebook 🥺
last text message you received
my dad lol
where are you right now?
in bed
what are your pronouns?
she/her 🥰
favourite author
there's this really sexy poet called angel monarch, she's kinda swag
u stink
no you
are you in a relationship?
HAHA nope
tell billie she smells
@/billieeilish you smell
DO YOU HAVE BIG BOOBS
WHY SO AGGRESSIVE
do you have a crush?
next question
favourite color??
either lilac or yellow
celebrity crush
zendaya hit me upppp🤤🤤
favourite memory
most recent would probably have to be yesterday lol, best day ever
what did you wanna be when you grew up?
happy
favourite social media
i hate social media 😍
last person you kissed
shark
what are you wearing rn?
nothing 😏
what's your favourite show?
ru paul's drag race right now
biggest pet peeve
loud chewers
people who fold over the corners of books
liars
people who hate on crocs
men
do you believe in aliens?
i am an alien 👽
do you know any other languages?
no :( but i wanna learn spanish so bad
how are you doing?
i'm okay! i've got some amazing people around me right now, i'm going to therapy!! i hope you're all doing well <3
"good morning" billie whispers, and I look down, realising she's been watching me on my phone while I've been stroking her back and answering some questions.
"hi, did you sleep well?" I keep looking through questions so I don't look directly down at her and make it awkward. "mhm you're comfortable" she snuggles into me more and I pray she can't feel how fast my heart is beating right now.
her morning voice.
her head on my chest.
her leg draped over mine.
fuck.
I chuckle quietly and shake my head "thanks I guess?"
"big boobs are always comfortable, sometimes I wish I could sleep on mine but it's good, I'll just sleep on yours"
I roll my eyes sarcastically "so this is the reason you're friends with me? to sleep on my boobs?"
"yes, now be quiet I'm sleeping"
I chuckle and keep looking at the questions, answering some more.
do you still talk to billie and finneas?
finneas, yes. billie, no I hate her😐🤚
what's your favourite season?
winter!
how tall are you?
honestly I have no idea lol
tell us a secret
if I told you guys it would't be a secret anymore ;)
if you could meet anyone dead or alive, who would it be?
my beautiful mother. I miss her
what was your last dream about?
IT'S SO EMBARRASSING. i had a sex dream about someone I probably shouldn't have lol
do you have any tattoos?
I have two!
"wait you have tattoos?" billie asked and I chuckle "I thought you were asleep"
"angelllll" billie whines like a kid.
"yes I do, I have my mums handwriting on my forearm"I lift my arm up and show her the writing 'my precious little angel, I love you to the moon and back'
"that's so beautiful"
"thank you, I have a butterfly on my ankle too but i'll show you later"
"okay you can go back to answering the questions"
"so bossy" i huff, smacking the back of her head lightly.
"ow" she whines, and i run my fingers through her hair, ignoring her.
"mmm that feels good" billie moans, when i massage her head with my nails.
jesus fucking christ.
pineapple on pizza?
i've never had it so i don't have an opinion
who influenced you the most?
god there's a few.
my mother has and always will be the biggest inspiration in my life.
my therapist who got me into poetry again.
my dad for being so strong and letting me persuade writing as a career.
my manager for believing in me when no one else did and for being like a second mother.
my best friends for being themselves.
and you guys. i wouldn't be where i am without you and i love you all so much for that.
childhood crush?
milo from the tweenies
what's your favourite book?
i stop somewhere by t e carter is a beautiful book
would you date yourself?
yes I'm hot as fuckkkkkk
if you wasn't an author what would you want to be?
that's a hard question, I've always wanted to write. probably something to do with photography
do you have secrets?
yes. I feel like everyone does?
are you ever going to reveal your identity?
at the moment I don't feel comfortable. it's something I'll definitely do in the future but I want to make sure it's because I decided to, not a leak or someone revealing my identity. please respect that.
what's the biggest life lesson you've learned so far?
life is about creating memories, going on adventures and not being afraid of the 'what if's' so don't compare yourself to anyone, stop thinking of their opinions and LIVE.
do you have a quote you love?
"no matter how bad we are, no matter the mistakes we make, we exist because we make them. we exist because we screw up and we're wrong and we're broken, but those are all the things that make us real. those are all the things we are" - t e carter
do you have any irrational fears?
cats 😍
what are your five, future goals?
fall in love
get more into song writing with other artists
release another book
reveal myself WHEN I'M READY
be happy
who are you most grateful for?
my manager, she believed in me when no-one else did. she is the reason I have a voice
if you could tell your younger self one thing, what would it be?
stop trying to please everyone. those people aren't going to be in your life forever. also hug your mum a little longer, tell her you love her.
what do you do when you can't sleep?
masturbate
if you could have any super power, what would it be?
talk to animals or read minds
what's something you're currently obsessed with?
listening to my worlds by justin bieber and crying in the shower
are you a morning person?
I am now, I like to make the most out of the day!
do you like crystals?
YES! I got some new ones yesterday and I'm obsessed.
come and see me while you're here please
of course bestie!
*black screen*
hi! thank you all so much for all the questions, I had so much fun! I'll definitely do these more often. stay safe & look after yourself. I love you all <3
"I don't wanna get out of bed but I need to pee" billie whispers, curling into me. "what time do we need to get back today?"
"oh, you had enough of me already?"
"I didn't say that" I roll my eyes "I was just thinking because I have a meeting with my merch team later on"
"we should make angel blohsh merch, that would be so cool"
"I'll mention it to my merch team and Lisa and see what they suggest, I've got a lot of shit coming out"
"like what?"
"I already have hoodies, stickers and bookmarks but we've been working on a candle, phone cases and some other random stuff. it's kinds weird because most authors don't have merch but Lisa literally acts like I'm an influencer because of my platform"
"it's so crazy, can you imagine if you reveal yourself, you're gonna have so many brands reaching out to you"
"well I was thinking about revealing myself and I feel like I need to do it soon because I have a gut feeling that it's gonna get leaked"
"angel don't worry about it, honestly. tour is gonna be fun, my team are putting shit in place so you're safe and away from the cameras, me, my family and anyone you're gonna be spending time with aren't gonna post you and we won't be seen together in public, I know Lisa has been speaking to a few people about it too"
"I feel like I'm making a big deal outta this though"
"stop overthinking it. even if you revealed yourself, shit would still have to be put in place to keep you safe, no-one is working harder than they already have too, it's gonna be okay I promise"
"I hope so"
Louis
Louis wanted me to let you know
that his parents have passed away
so he won't be on his phone, I'm with
him and he's okay- Harry
thank you for letting me know, sending
him big hugs, if he needs anyone to talk
to, he can talk to me. I lost my mother so
I know what it's like to lose a parent
Thank you Gabby, he appreciates it
Billie was in the drivers seat, driving us out of paradise and back into reality.
literally the best day i've ever had.
after we spent a little longer in bed, cuddled up together and talking about everything and anything we could think of.
i still can't believe yesterday was real.
reading those messages from harry, i really hope louis is okay. i remember louis talking to me about how close he was to his parents and how supportive they were of him. loosing a parents is so fucking hard, no matter what age you are.
"are you okay love?" billie glances over to me and I realise I've been staring into the distance, deep in thought.
"oh, yeah sorry"
"it's all good, I wanted to make sure you were okay"
"of course, I'm still processing yesterday honestly, it was amazing"
the rest of the drive back was in comfortable silence, with the occasional sing along to a good song that came on.
just thinking of my life six months ago, i felt like i didn't really have anyone properly, and now i have the most amazing girl in my life who makes me so fucking happy, i have a job i love, i've been working hard to release more stuff for my fans, i've got plans to write music for other people and i can see a light at the end of the tunnel.
i can see a light at the other the side of the darkness ive been sucked into for so long.
"i'm so happy" i whisper to no one, looking up at the sky and clutching the crystal in my hand, hoping for good things to come soon.
hi. thanks for being patient with my uploads, i appreciate it.
also billies blonde hair??? woah
she's so fucking hot i DON'T understand
okay bye, drink water & make sure to eat and stay safe!