saying goodbye to my dad at the airport was almost as emotional a when i left home the first time. i promised him i would come back to the uk soon.
it's the anniversary of my mums death today, I miss her so much and I hope I'm making her proud.
billie&finneas
i just dropped my dad off
at the airport
i was thinking of putting a
signed book in a random place
in new york and post it to see who
can find it
billie-
that's such a good idea
i'll do the same
finneas-
Be safe
i walk around new york, putting one in Starbucks, one in a random book store, one on a park bench and one outside of Gucci. i post pictures of them all and write 'HIDDEN IN NEW YORK CITY CENTRE, COME FIND THEM'.
Billie does the same and i make my way back to my apartment, checking my socials to see if anyone found them.
when i walk into the apartment, Cara is sat crying on the couch with a book in her hands.
"are you okay?" i walk towards her and realise she's holding MY book in her hands.
how did she get the book already?
"yeah this book is just so sad" she wipes her eyes and i hear the bathroom door open and Billie appears.
"i brought you both a book" billie smiles, handing me one and i stare at it in my hands.
i can't believe this book is really mine.
"thank you Billie, i love the song by the way"
"thank you angel, keep streaming that shit" she grins and i nod my head.
she needs to stop calling me angel...
"don't forget we're going out tonight" cara smiles and billie throws herself on the couch and groans. "i'm jealous, i'm too famous to go to a club"
"honestly i'd rather not go" I moan, sitting down opposite them both.
"what do you mean?" Billie asks.
i should've kept my mouth shut.
"i've not had the best experience with clubbing that's all"
"i've never been properly, I went when I was a teen but by the time I blew up, it wasn't safe enough and its not worth the hassle"
"its a good job I'm not famous then"
"because of the hassle?"
STOP TALKING GABBY
SHE DOESN'T CARE
"because men are pigs"
"facts, ill make sure no-one goes near you anyway"
"Cara I thought you wanted to pull?"
"what?"
you need to stop talking like you're still in britain gabby.
"oh.. um make out with someone"
"ohh, depends who's there" Cara grins cheekily.
i swear to god if she ditched me for some guy i'm going home
"is your girlfriend going?" Billie asks
"girlfriend?"
what girlfriend?
"yeah, Delilah wasn't it" Cara looks confused and it clicks.
oh
that girlfriend.
"no, she's busy and she's not my girlfriend"
"I wish I lived in NY, I wanna meet your girlfriend"
i'd love to meet my 'girlfriend' too
she seems pretty cool
"ill kick Cara out and you can live with me" I grin and cara huffs.
"I think ill kick you out instead, in fact no I don't wanna hear you and Harry" she shakes her head in disgust.
well...
about that..
"you're gonna be hearing Delilah and Gabrielle when Gabby finally brings her round"
"nope, not happening" I shake my head.
i'm so embarrassed
is it hot in here or just me?
"what's she like in bed?" Cara asks me and I blink at her.
i wouldn't know, the bitch don't exist
"you're being too nosey the both of you, you obviously need to get laid yourselves"
especially billie..
anyways
"billies got a boyfriend, I haven't" I let out a snort and they both look at me like i'm crazy.
way to go gabby.
"you need to get one then don't you?" I change the topic from me.
"yeah but i'm so picky"
"Cara I've seen your ex, no you're not"
"oh my god show me a picture" Billie jumps up and sits beside me and Cara groans. I open my phone and swipe away the notifications of Billie texting me.
fuck
i hope she didn't see anything
"I was like nineteen okay? don't judge me" Billie looks up at Cara and I take the opportunity to click onto instagram and switch to my personal account so Billie can't see.
I go onto the search bar and type in his name, pulling up his instagram and showing Billie a photo.
she takes my phone from my hand and I pray no-one texts me.
lisa if you want to keep your job, don't fucking text me
i'm so glad my notifications aren't on for insta and twitter.
"Cara he's bad, like bad" Billie teases.
"fuck you! your ex who we won't name is worse"
"I was a CHILD dating an adult don't even go there" Billie rolls her eyes and hands my phone back to me.
immediately I get a text from Lisa.
good timing
Lisa
the book sold out!!
I feel like jumping up and down and screaming but I cant give anything away. I reply to Lisa, trying to hide my smile and click onto the group chat even though Billie is right beside me.
i hope she can't see my phone
billie&finneas
THE BOOK SOLD OUT ALREADY
Billies phone pings and she digs it out from her pocket and jumps up. "oh my god the book sold out!"
"congratulations Bil" Cara smiles "are you celebrating with Angel tonight?"
"no, she still won't let me see her so I'm probably just gonna chill in my hotel room with Finn and go for a drive or something"
"she still won't let you see her?" Cara questions and she shakes her head. "no, we were signing books yesterday and they literally locked me in the bathroom while she came next door because she like really doesn't want me to meet her, I don't understand because I- never mind"
"because you what?"
"nothing"
what was she gonna say?
"i'm gonna meet her anyways, I have a plan"
she does?
what if i told you that you're sitting right next to her miss bieber
what then?
"what's your plan?" cara asks and Billie shakes her head "nope, i'm not risking it going wrong"
"are you planning on seeing her while you're still in NY?"
"well I go home tomorrow night so i'm not sure, ill message her and see what she's doing"
"we're not going out until later, why don't you celebrate with us? we can have a few drinks and order food" Cara asks Billie and I want to slap her.
no
nope
NO
"I don't see why not, ill see if Finn can uber over here and get the rental car"
"I need to shower before I start getting ready" I stand up and grab my bag, walking into my bedroom.
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DRINK AND NOT REVEAL MYSELF??
not to mention billie is the hottest thing alive
billie
I CANT BELIEVE THE
BOOK SOLD OUT
IM SO HAPPY
im with cara and her roommate
'celebrating' so apologise if I text you a
lot... I don't drink often lol
what are you doing tonight?
I miss talking to you 🥺
I didn't even think it would
sell out so soon
i'm just staying at home, enjoy
yourself😁
come on angel you gotta celebrate
somehow
i'm celebrating right now
I tell you who will be celebrating
who?
Mike and Lisa😉
OHMY GOD STOP
I cannot think about that nope
HAHA
im serious though
lemme see you and we can do sum
not happening
please 🥺
how about tomorrow night?
angel 😩
you know im going home
tomorrow night
oh?
are you?
must've slipped my mind🥱
oh my god cara has tequila
im gonna die
HAHA cant wait for the drunk texts
I might drink myself
please do
and accidentally send me a photo
of your pretty face
sometimes, poems comes to your mind at the stranger times. i'm literally stood butt naked in the bathroom ready to shower and I open my door and run into my room to and grab my notebook, scribbling my thoughts down onto the paper.
i take time in my shower, not wanting to spend time with Billie and Cara.
especially when mixing alcohol.
i change into sweatpants and a random t shirt and go to dry my hair when someone knocks on my door.
"can i come in?"
billie.
"yeah" i shout back, glancing around my room to make sure no 'angel' related items are in or around my room.
Billie walks in with a drunken smile on her face and a bottle of liquor in her hands.
"Cara has gone for a shower and you're missing out on the fun, drink with me" billie whines, flopping onto my bed.
"i'm gonna do my makeup" i sit down at my desk and billie jumps back up from my bed. "ooh ooh let me do it!!"
"billie you're drunk and i've only ever seen you wear eyeliner"
"hey i can do makeup! and i've only had a teensy weensy bit to drink"
i stand up and walk over to billie who's sat on the edge of the bed, swaying slightly.
"lemme smell your breath"
she smirks and opens her mouth "are we about to kiss right now?"
i slap her arm and walk away "don't make it gay"
billie folds her arm and pouts "fine"
i start doing my makeup, swigging vodka straight from the bottle.
with me living in the uk and not having many friends i'm able to drink vodka like it's water.
although i haven't drank in a while so when i stand up to get something from my bedside drawer, i almost trip over my own feet.
i open my drawer and billie looks inside and i slam it shut.
"oh my god what was that?"
"nothing" i blurt, a blush creeping on my cheeks.
"oh my god i have one of those too!"
we are not going to talk about my vibrator right now.
"okay billie why don't you lie down"
"okay i'm gonna tell you the story of this girl i think i love"
she is wasted.
i don't want her sharing stuff she wouldn't sober.
"why don't you sing to me" I ask instead, especially because I don't think she'll remember.
"okay"
billie starts singing her new song and even though she's drunk and led down, i've never heard anything more beautiful in my life.
her voice is so much better in person.
i finish doing my makeup while billie sings random songs and then she starts laughing.
"you okay there?"
"yeah i was just thinking about yesterday when i was teasing angel with sex songs"
billie starts singing and i stop what i'm doing to listen to her. 'head so good, pussy so good, if i could quit my job and fuck you all day, shit i would yeah i would'
...stop getting distracted.
i open my bedroom door and walk over to Caras room and she's sat at her vanity in just her underwear, doing her makeup.
why do americans get drunk so easily?
pussies.
"what are you wearing?"
Cara just points to her bed while she's focused on her winged eyeliner. on the bed is a tight cheetah print bodycon dress and i have a top in a similar style.
i walk back into my room and Billie is still singing to herself. i walk into my closet and change into my corset top and straight blue jeans, walking back over to my desk to style my hair.
i spray perfume and pick out some random pieces of jewellery, tapping billie on the leg who's seemed to have fallen asleep, quiet snores escaping her lips.
shall i just leave her here?
i walk into caras room and she is sliding the dress over her body.
woah.
"billies asleep in my room, shall i leave her?"
"yeah, she'll be fine"
I'll just use her face ID to unlock her phone and let her brother know or something"
Cara turns around and pauses when she sees me.
oh god do i look bad?
"fuck me you look so hot, come here"
i walk over to her and she turns me in the mirror and she stands beside me. "well what are you waiting for? take some pictures"
i honestly can't remember the last time i took a photo of myself.
i pull out my phone and she grabs onto her boobs and pauses and i try and suck in my fat, making myself look at skinny as i can.
"right come on, the bar is calling my name"
i walk into my room and grab my bag with my essentials for the night, my mocha jordan 1s and respray some perfume, taking another swig from the bottle.
billies phone is in her hand and i hold it up to her face.
thankfully it unlocks so i click onto finneas' messages and text him.
finneas
hi it's gabrielle, caras roommate
just letting you know billie is sleeping
in my bed right now because she
drank abit too much.
just wanted to let you know she's safe!
Thanks for letting me know
i walk over to my desk and scribble down a little note for billie just in case she wakes up.
hi billie, if you're reading this Cara and I have gone out but i didn't want to wake you. i've left some water on my bedside and finneas knows where you are so don't worry. text cara when you wake up, and make yourself at home, you can eat whatever or use my chargers.
-gabrielle <3
i lift billies legs and swing her body so she's actually led on the bed and tuck her into my duvet, taking off her jordans and placing them on the floor beside my bed.
i would love to kiss her forehead right now.
i walk out into the hall and Cara is looking down at her phone. "fuck we look so hot, let's go!"
i hope i don't regret this.