Die Arthia

B i l a n g LXXXII

When I felt like my system is turning upside down again I harshly move open the curtain of my canopy bed. While running to the bathroom I saw Levi move on the couch when he noticed my presence. He's probably sleeping.

I fell on the floor and throw up. Tears formed on the side of my eyes.

"H-hey.." I think Levi can't form any word.

He immediately squat behind me and took my her on his palm. I felt his other hand gently caressing my back while i'm throwing up.

When I finished, tears are on my cheeks. I weakly sat on the bathroom floor.

Levi look at me with so much care. I look away. His thumbs caressed away my tear.

I slightly slap it and stand up. At my first try my head ached but Levi gently assist me. He made me sit on the couch. I leaned my head on the backrest.

No one dared to speak. I closed my eyes tightly. I don't know why my heart is raising so fast, very opposite of my tired body. My heart has the audacity to beat fast while i'm feeling so weak.

I felt Levi's hand on my knee so I looked down at him. He's kneeling infront of me, ang isang tuhod ay nasa sahig samantalang ang isa at nagsilbing tukod ng braso nya.

"What is it?" My voice is showing how tired I am.

When I look around my room it feels different. I have nothing to throw or break.

I only have my closet, a couch, a heavy coffee table, a huge bed and I think my side table has changed.

Just how many hours did I sleep?

"I think you should stay ag Elvish for the mean time." He whispered. I wrinkled my forehead. It sounded like a plea to me.

"Why would I?" I asked in a impolite manner.

"Your condition is very sensitive right now Arthia." He glance on my stomach, napatingin rin ako dito.

Unconciously my hand move towards my stomach. I am silent trying to feel what inside of me.

When I heard that i'm carrying a baby, I lost it.

Never did I imagine that I'll..

I can't believe something is living inside me. A child in this small stomach of mine?

Sounds impossible.

"We'll not get rid of the child Arthia." He said. Now he sounds like he's warning me. I wrinkled my forehead and look at him but my eyes shifted to his hand who found my hands that is placed on my stomach. "This is my child and I won't let you get rid of it kahit gaano mo pa kaayaw."

I wasn't able to think for a moment. A sting of pain came through my heart. I thought it will just pass like before but it stayed.

I want so bad to slap Levi right now for thinking that I will get rid of whatever's inside of me, I don't know what's stopping me.

I just slapped his hand and push him and he didn't even flinch.

"You think so lowly of me." I said, I wasn't able to recognize my voice. It sounds foreign, the pain on it is very foreign to me.

What's that?

"Tia.." He looks startled with what I said but tears fell from my eyes first.

Why is my tears so shallow these days?

"I'm not getting rid of this Levi if that's what you're thinking!" I wasn't able to control my voice, it was loud and I ran out of air while yelling.

I gasped for air.

"Tia listen--"

"Go away Levi!" I said and stand up. Mabilis ako bumalik sa higaan ko at sinara ang kurtina pero naunahan ako ni Levi. Umupo sya sa kama ko habang hawak ang kamay ko. Masama ko syang binalingan.

"I'm sorry." He said. I looked away when I read his eyes. Full of fears. Is he joking with me? "Listen to me alright?" I did not look at him, I even plan not to listen to him but I can't just close my ears. "You'll go to Elvish early tomorrow--"

"Why?"

"So if anything happens here you'll be safe."

"You're not there. You think I'll be safe?" He gave me a gentle look and smile a little. The grip of his hand on mine tighten.

"I'll be going to take the throne so I can offer you something." He moved towards me. I felt his lips on my forehead. "You just gave me the greatest gift I could ever ask for."

I stiffened with what he said. Daggers of pain stab my heart and it felt so unfamiliar. Very unusual to me.

He moved away and I saw his sleepy crimson eyes. He smiled at little. His eyes are full of tenderness, very new to me.

Lukot parin ang mukha kong nakatingin sa kanya na tila wala akong maintindihan.

"And why do I have to be at Elvish for you to do that?" That's not our plan!

Is he already getting rid of me because he has lady Inos now and i'm having a child?

"So if anything bad happens it won't do any harm on you." He said calmly almost begging.

I look at his crimson eyes again as I got drowned by my selfish desire.

My demon, myself..

Tonight I saw Levi's crimson eyes that is begging me. He's also defying me. He's not only letting me do what I want. He's even planning for me.

Never thought that Levi's begging will give me this much pleasure also at the same time a pain the is very new to me.

And i'm probably not Arthia by now, it's just Tia.

And I hated it.

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