Love and Despair (A Hermitcraft Au)

Chapter 19: Snap

I drew my version of a Watcher...

Those wings took me FOREVER but I love the way they turned out

LEZ GO!!

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Word Count: ~1.6 K

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TW: a tiny bit of fighting but not a lot

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POV: Xizara

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A tear leaked from my eye, rolled down my cheek, and fell onto Xisuma's temple, who tittered but didn't wake. His freckles of all different shades of purple sparkled and twinkled in the light as he lay his head on my lap, asleep. I brushed a strand of his auburn hair off his eye, gently running my hand through his messy hair, calming it. A small smile tugged at his lips when I did, making me smile in return even if he couldn't see it.

My mind wondered as I stared at my twin.

I thought of all the good times we had, all the bad times. When we fought each other over a simple piece of candy to when we fought together against a simple school bully.

We protected one another. Us against the world.

I would fight away his demons while he fought away mine.

But here we are. 

Now I am his demon. 

The thing he fears most. The cause of all his nightmares. All his problems. 

I was better off in the Void. There, I couldn't hurt anyone. Here, all I am is a danger to the only people I have left. My family.

Shivers ran down my spine as I thought of the Void. The darkness, the pain, the tears, the cold, the heat, the torture. 

The tears picked up speed as I choked on a breathe, my vision blurring. Memories of the terror from the Void hitting me like a train wreck, my mental barriers crumbling from impact. I tried to suck in a breathe but the panic cut it off, stopping me from getting any air into my lungs. Waterfalls were pouring out of my eyes as the memory of the pain washed over me. I could almost feel the pain all over again. 

I didn't see or feel Xisuma sit up, nor did I hear him call my name, but I felt his hands pull me into him, protecting me from my own mind. My ears felt as if they were stuffed with cotton, but I felt my twin's chest vibrate, so I knew he was speaking.

 Slowly, words began to push through the cotton shields in my ears, and I could finally hear what my brother was say. 

"Bud, I need you to breath, okay? Breath in and out. It's okay. Everything is fine. Just breathe, please." I nodded, trying to match my breathing to his, and eventually, it evened out enough to keep me from passing out. "There you go. You're okay. Can you look at me?"

I sat up some so he could see my face and I could see his. "What happened, bud?" Looking into his eyes, I let all my emotions show in my own. "Oh, bud..." He pulled me into his arms and we held onto each other.

"I-I love you, bub," I mumbled.

"Love ya, too, bud." I smiled at the nicknames.

Together, we promised, "Always and forever."

~TIMESKIP~

"Get off the counter, Xizara." I stuck my tongue out at the annoying Admin. "Dude...I'm trying to cook and you're dirtying up the counter with your nasty butt."

Instead of getting off, I wiggled my butt around. "Oh, this counter?"

Xisuma sent me a glare before grabbing me with magic and throwing me off. I let out a yelp as I hit the floor.