What Am I To You ? ( BTS FANFIC )

Chapter 26 - Worry

I thought I would be okay without you

I was such a fool but now

I can’t live without you Ma girl

 

I can’t let you go like this

because I still love you

You were right, my fault, I know how it feels

please return to me

hold my hand again

I feel like I’ll go crazy like this, Let me fix it

People look at me with strange eyes

Like they will begin to diss me 

empty the feelings, start from the beginning

Everything was my fault to 10 million so

please come back to me, grab my hand tight, please

 

there is nothing wrong with us

we just need to talk

nothing in this world 

can split the two of us

you did nothing wrong

so please stop being so angry

I only have you

 

Without you here, I feel like I’ll break down

this isn’t it

this isn’t it

 

please rethink this 

it’s too soon to end everything here

you know it too, Oh please

 

there is nothing wrong with us

we just need to talk

 

when I imagine you won’t be here

I become so scared 

I become so strange, like a person who wants to die

 

you’ve done nothing wrong

so please stop being so angry

I only have you

there is nothing wrong with us

we just need to talk

 

when I imagine you won’t be here

I become so scared

 I become so strange, like a person w ho wants to die

 

you’ve done nothing wrong

so please stop being so angry

I only have you 

"i'm sorry," he whispered right after the song stopped.

i froze in place. oppa was right. i'm very stubborn. after that incident with Taehyung and Jungkook i won't talk with any of them.. they make me thinking too much. 

"Hyerin," he hold my shoulder.

he released a heavy sigh before said," i'll wait till you ready to talk to me."

and i'm still with my cold self. not moving and just hear him though half of me really wanted to accept his apologise.

"i love you," he said it while brushed my hair with his hand.

 after the door was opened and closed, i move to the side. spacing out myself while staring at the ceiling.

*buzz

a text message.

i'm sorry. but i love you. - Taehyung

i throw the phone aside. not long after it buzz again.

What words can I begin to say so your heart will return to me - Taehyung

will he stop copying that song lyric?

--

the door creaked again. did he came again?

"why did you come again? just go home," i said without looking.

"you want me to go?" he laugh.

i immediately sit, "oppa. i thought its Taehyung."

"playing hard to get?" he wiggled his eyebrow.

"i apologise to him before but he mad but now he apologise, i mad," i mutter everything one by one.

"then Jungkook." i continue with a soft sigh.

"i don't think you have to worry about that now," he hold my hand.

i nodded. "i have my exam. mom and dad will be mad if i'm not doing well right? but tomorrow is last paper."

he shook his head.

"then what?"

'seriously Hyerin? after what happen to you? i know your head was not because fall or hit something. it must be Jihae or Zico. right?"

i bit my lip,"that was because.."

"what?"

 "Jihae," i mention her name in a low voice.

 "Jungkook already told me about Jihae. she willing to do anything to hurt you," oppa soften his gaze.

"i'll be more careful after this."

"if theres anything, tell me," he patted my hand.

i nodded.

--

 "you know, if i don't get Taehyung then i will make him not to get you. i will make you dissappear. don't you like it?" 

"i will give you a chance to live for.. a week? is it enough?" 

"this is just a warning."

my hair became the victim again. mess like my mind right now. that warning keep rewind itself in my head.

she willing to do anything? disappear. thats mean she want to kill me. it really doesn't make sense, 

what will she do?

she will not do anything like that right?

but if i die...