Fighting For You (Book 2)

Love, lies and Sex

I didn’t even get a chance to reply to him because he dipped his head and took my breast into his mouth. I was caught so off guard that I stumbled back a little. However, Killian was fast. His hand came around me, stopping me from falling.

I closed my eyes. My head falling back as his tongue circle my nipple, making them both hard. This feeling that I was feeling was only ever invoked by him. Only he can make my body come alive and burn with passion and fire so strong that all I wanted to do was please him in every way.

I knew that I do whatever he wanted me to do in that moment. It was crazy, but I knew that if he wanted to f**k me with a crowd around us, I do it without any complaints.

His lips let go of my breast, and when I thought that I could finally breathe again, he took the other one in his mouth. I moaned, feeling the heat pooled between my thighs.

“That’s it, sweetheart, say my name.”

I didn’t even realise that I was saying his name, but I was. I was chanting it like it was a prayer. And god, it tasted sweet on my tongue.

He let go of my nipple, dragging the edge of his teeth against the sensitive flesh. I sucked in a breath from the pain and pleasure of it. He smiled at me, loving the way my body was reacting to him.

His hand that was not on my waist reached for my face and then cupped the back of my head. His fingers digging into my scalp. Hard, but not hard enough to cause much pain. He looked at my lips like they were something delicious and he couldn’t wait to dig in. And before I knew it, we were kissing.

He manoeuvred us, still kissing but trying to get to the bed whiles also trying not to trip. I laughed. He did not want to take his hands or his mouth off me, but we were finding it extremely hard to get to the bed without falling flat on our faces. We made it in the end, but we knocked a few things over in the process and will probably get some nasty bruises to show for it the next day.

He was on top of me. He stopped kissing to just look at me. He made me blush, feeling shy. He made me feel like that girl I was before Natasha took him away from me.

“You’re so god damn beautiful, woman. I love everything about you.”

I smiled at his words, feeling myself get emotional. I haven’t felt this emotional in a very long time, and I wasn’t sure how to react to it.

“I love you.” I continued, “I’ve always loved you. Just you. It has only ever been you.”

His face went from passion and love to rage and contempt. I don’t know about what I said got him angry, but, oh boy was he angry. I realised too late that I should have kept my mouth shut. I all but forgot who Killian was and how f**king crazy he can get. I was naked and vulnerable, lying under the man who looked like he wanted to make me feel pain and not the sexy kind.

“And yet you like that idiot f**k you.”

He spat it at me like the words left an extremely sour taste in his mouth. I saw the veins at the side of his face twitched. I was scared and the feeling surprised me. I haven’t been scared of another human being in years. I raised my hand to touch his face, to try and calm him, but he yelled at me.

“You don’t touch me unless I say so. Hands above your head, and don’t move them. You go that Red?!”

I nodded. Swallowing to get rid of the lump in my throat. Oh yeah, I was more than scared. I was terrified.

“Do you know how much I want to punish you right now? I’m upset that you left me for dead and faked your death.”

I tried to say I didn’t, but he wouldn’t let me speak.

“SHUT THE F**K UP!”

I decided that it was in my best interest to stay quiet. Right now, was not the best time to try and clear my name or defend myself.

“The leaving me to die and faking your death, that I can forgive, but what I can’t and will not forgive is you letting him put his dick inside of you.”

He grabbed my face, squeezing my jaw between his fingers and his thumb. The pain shot to my head causing me to see black and white specks behind my eyes. I tried to blink them away. Tears spring to my eyes. I couldn’t move my hands to try and push his hand away, so, all I did was whimpered, blinking my eyes to try and control the pain.

“Just thinking about you with him makes me want to find him, get my gun and shoot his dick off for the disrespect.”

He was silent for a few seconds then he shook his head and said, “F**k it! I will definitely kill him.”

I gasped, shaking my head. He looked at me and smile that sadistic smile that I’ve come to love.

“It’s inevitable, baby, so don’t try to fight the system.”

I couldn’t let him kill Noah for loving me. It was not his fault, I should have continued to tell Noah no, but I give in to his demands in a moment of weakness. Noah couldn’t die for my stupidity. And, besides, it’s not like he spent the last seven years along and pining for me.

“You’re being on fair, Killian. I might have slept with Noah, but you were f**king Cara as well. So, don’t be f**king hypocrite.”

“Cara meant nothing to me! But I know you, Lilly, you wouldn’t have ‘slept’ with him unless you felt something for him in here” He touched the spot above my heart.

I tried my best to blink the tears away, but it was hard because I couldn’t deny the truth in his words.

“So, don’t lie here and tell me that you love only me because I don’t believe your f**king lies.”

But I wasn’t lying. I might care about Noah, but I didn’t love him. It’s not love that I felt for Noah, it just can’t be. I only love Killian. Right?

His eyes bore into mine. I saw no emotion there. No love, no passion, no pain, no rage, no contempt, and no anger. The only thing I saw was that cold hard mask that he wore so well.

It broke my heart because I knew that I caused it. However, although I was feeling guilty for putting that look on his face, I felt anger that he wouldn’t allow me to even try and clear up some of our misunderstandings.

“Look, just let me try and explain, please.” 

“Shut the f**k up! There’s an order to things, woman, and you’re going to learn to follow it.”

“What order is that?” I asked feeling my irritation build.

“I f**k you, I feed you and then we talk. Do I make myself clear, RED!”

“Yes,” I said through clench teeth.

“Good.” He grated out, “Now spread your legs for me, baby.”

I did want he asked still feeling irritated. However, my frustration and irritation washed away the moment I felt him sunk deep inside of me. As mad as I was at him, it didn’t matter as long as he was inside of me. Nothing and no one mattered at that moment.