Guide Me • Kylo Ren

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I went back to Chewie after talking to Luke. He was asking more questions about Kylo and I, but I couldn't find the night Ben turned in Luke's memory. I needed more time.

Try again. Kylo's voice came into my head, but Luke had that memory blocked. So, I left.

Chewie then told me he was going to try and talk to the Resistance, he left me sitting at the game table. I stood up and went to a spot where Ben and I used to hide things from Han and Leia. I sat on the floor and opened the panel expecting nothing to be in there. Instead, everything was untouched.

I had a small vial of sand from my home planet, Tattooine. Also, a doll of a Rebel pilot, Leia gave me to sleep with. Ben had put his Wookie doll in there too, and some pictures Leia gave to us to share. I flip through them. Leia, Han, and Luke so young, ready to change the fate of the galaxy.

Rey found me, "Chewie still can't reach the Resistance. I took him I would keep an eye on you outside if you want to go explore the island with me."

Sure, I'll meet you out there. I say to her, hiding the photos.

I heard her exit the ship. I began to put everything away when I sensed it. My saber. I stood up and walked to the table, lifting up one the seats, I found it. I left it there, until I needed it.

I felt it again. I felt Kylo, with me. Why is the Force connecting us like this?

"I don't know, but tell me where you are so I can bring you home. I can't sleep not knowing where you are."

Do you remember hiding our things in Hans ship? I thought everything would be gone, but everything was still here. Untouched... What happened that night? The night you destroyed the temple?

"I already told you."

Tell me again! Kylo, I've tried looking into Luke's mind to see what he did. That memory is blocked.

"Storm where are you!?" He huffed.

I didn't know if I could touch him but I tried. I put my hand on his face, and I felt him. He put his hand on top of mine, bring my palm to his lips and kissing it. "I need you with me, you keep me calm. I will kill anyone who hurts you. I love you, Storm."

I know. Then, he was gone.

I leaned against the table, biting down on my lip. I wanted to go back to him, it's moments like that I know Ben is in him. Ben Solo isn't dead, he just being held captive. And regardless of whatever Kylo has made Ben do, I love them both. My heart aches to be with him.

I hide my feelings from Rey as we explore around the island. It was pouring rain but we had fun slippping and sliding in the mud. It was strange to have fun like this, with her of all people.

She was supposed to be my enemy, but I could see in her mind. I knew her thoughts and feelings towards me. She had seen me as a monster before, but I think when I had talked to Luke a few days ago. Her opinion changed.

All she wanted was a father or a mother, a family. She saw that in Han and she sees it now in Luke, Leia, and Chewie.

She hadn't made her mind up about me, yet.