Jisoo pov:
"So what? U were just never gonna tell me huh?'
"It's not that Jisoo."
"I can't fucking believe ur doing this to me."
"Mind ur language, I'm ur mom, and I had my reasons okay?"
"Ur a bitch."
I stomp away in annoyance as she stays there, angered by my behaviour. She is not the one who should be angry at me. I wouldn't have called her a bitch if she hadn't forcefully pushed me to shift to Korea with her. I have shifted because of her work so many times, that it really annoys me now. I fucking have a life, which keeps on changing. And finally, when I made so many friends here, she is taking that away from me too. Ugh, I hate her.
I hear a knock on my door.
"Go awayyyy".
"I need to talk to u." She sounded concerned
"No, u clearly don't. U lied to me"
She opens the door and comes in anyways.
"What?"
"Look, I'm really sry. Ur right, I'm being a bitch doing this to ur life. But my work is not the only reason why we're going back.."
I look at her, shocked. Firstly, she never swears. And secondly, if not her work, then why are we going back to Korea.
"Ur grandma is sick."
"What?"
"I got a call from there two weeks back.."
"And u never thought that I deserved to know this?!"
"I was gonna tell u."
"Ur such a fucking liar. LYING TO MY FUCKING FACE."
I run away, slamming the door shut behind me. FML. JUST FML. I rushed out of the house. I couldn't help but feel sensitive. My grandma is the closest person to me and I can't bear losing her. I love her....so much. I run to the park and sit on the swing. Swinging slowly. My legs feel cold and my hair blows from the wind. I look at myself. I have changed. Since the last time my grandma saw me. She will hate it. Hate me. I am not her lil good girl anymore. I look at my ripped jeans and cropped top. My black wavy hair. I'm fake.
Beep. Beep.
I pick up my phone. Lisa wants to facetime. How will I tell her this...? I click on accept and smile widely. Just looking at her goofy smile made my day.
"Heyyy"
Lisa-Hiii
"What happened?"
Lisa-Nothing, I just wanted to talk, hehe.
I grin.
Lisa-What r u doing in the park? It's cold out.
I frown suddenly, thinking abt my mom and r entire convo.
"Idk".
Lisa-What's wrong?
"Nothing.."
Lisa- C'mon, I have known u since we were kids, I know u rly well. Spill.
"Uh...I was talking to my mom earlier....nd she told me that...my grandma is rlly sick."
Lisa- Omg, I'm so sorry Jichu.
"Yea ik, but that's not it Lisa..I will have to go to Korea."
Lisa- Yeah I understand..when r u coming back? After winter break?
"No...I'm not."
I look at her. She looks sad all of a sudden. I wouldn't blame her, if she gets mad at me. It's my fault ik. I hate to leave her. I think she and grandma r the only ppl I don't wanna hurt. I love them the most in the world. The truth is, I only love them.
Lisa- Oh
"I'm rlly sry Lisa, ik I suck and that I'm a total asshole for leaving u."
Lisa- No no, isok Jichu.
She smiles still.
Lisa- We can still facetime, can't we?
"Yeaaa".
I look down. I feel teary now. Ugh, those stupid tears. I don't wanna cry and be all sensitive and shit. I'm strong. I shiver, as the cold gets to me.
"Ah fuck, it's freezing."
Lisa- Yeah, and u bitch, still wear your cropped clothes. It's freaking November.
I giggle.
"Ok, I'm coming over, let's make the most of the week we have left."
She smiles widely.
Lisa- Okieee I'll get the popcorn ready, and find some movies. HEheheheh.
We cut the call. I stand up and hug myself. Oof, I really need some warm clothes.
