I TOLF MYSELF NO YESTERDAY I TOLD MYSELF NO TODAY AND I TOLD MYSELF NO TONIGHT OVER AND OVER AND OVER I TOLD MYSELF THAT I DONT BLOODY CARE ABOUT YOU UNTIL YOU HAD DESCENDED INTO A PITIFUL NIGHTS DREAM AND EVEN THEN I SEE YOUR SHIMMERING EYES AND YOUR ROSY CHEEKS AND YOUR WARM SMILE AND I AM REMINDED THAT IM NO LONGER THE ONE CAUSING IT AND OH JESUS GOD HOW THAT LEAVES ME WITH SUCH NUMBNESS IN MY CHEST MY LUNGS FEEL LIKE THEYRE GOING TO FUCKING COLLAPSE BECAUSE IM A JEWEL AND JEWELS DONT BREAK OVER STUPID BOYS WITH LAUGHTER LINES AND FRECKLED NOSE YET SOMEHOW SOME WAY YOU MANAGED TO SPLIT ME RIGHT DOWN THE MIDDLE
{he needs help.}
