Denial...

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2 years later...

Autumn~

Tears ran down my face as I walked through the graveyard with Armani in my arms I put her down so she could walk on her own as I held her small hand she had one rose in her hand and I had two in mine

"I love you, daddy, even though you've hurt me I still love you I gave you all I had but it wasn't enough for you I'm so sorry," I said as I wiped my tears and put the rose on his grave

"Mama I love you so much and you will forever be my Angel mama I'm so sorry I let you down Mamí" I put the rose in front of her tombstone as I wiped my tears we walked to my grandmothers grave and Armani put her white rose there

"Thank you so much for saving me Grandma mí amor I love you so much and I miss you so much you don't even know I don't have anyone and I'm so scared all the time grandma I want you to come back please I need you" I cried As I rocked my baby boy in the car seat he's almost one now His name is Amari yes he is Lucas's son when I went to the hospital I was a couple weeks pregnant and sooner or later my baby boy came he looks just like Lucas it's sometimes hard to look at how much he looks like his dad... I felt a tap on  my shoulder and I jumped I turned around and saw Adonis I embraced him as I looked at him as he had sadness in his eyes

"What's wrong?" I grabbed his hands he pulled away and tears fell down his face

"I'm just like him" he broke down

"What are you talking about AJ" I called him by his nickname

"I did it I tried so hard not to but I did it" he cried

"What did you do"

"I hit her" he cried I let go of his hands as I looked at him with tears in my eyes

"Adonis I told you-"

"I know I'm so sorry Autumn I tried so hard but I saw Bri talking to another dude and I couldn't control myself" he held his head in his hands as I looked at him in disbelief as tears ran down my face

"I tried so hard to keep you from this!" I yelled

"I know-"

"No, you don't Adonis you don't know the half of what I've been through because of him and Lucas!"  He looked up at me as he shook his head

"He put his hands on you?" He looked at me in disbelief 

"Adonis this isn't about me right now you know Brianna is my best friend I can't-" Armani came and sat in my lap on the ground

"Waaahhh waaaah" Amari cried I sighed I took him out of the car seat wiped the spit and tears off his face and coat

"I swear I didn't mean to," He said as looked at me with his red eyes

"Have you hit her before?" He looked down

"Adonis What is going-"

"I DONT KNOW!" He yelled I jumped in fear Armani grabbed my sweater and hid under it

"I-I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you"

"I'm gonna go talk to Brianna don't and I repeat don't come home until I tell you to you messed up this time" I put Amari back in his car seat and held Armani's hand and we walked through the parking lot I felt as if someone was watching me and I turned around but seen no one

I got to my car and put Armani in her car seat and buckled her in I put Amari's car seat back and buckled him up and I got to my door I felt someone behind me I was too scared to look behind me I looked through the window and saw it was Lucas he pressed against me as I hurried to open my car but I was shaking

"You thought you could get away you can't escape me, Autumn you belong to me," he said in my ear he grabbed my neck roughly as he pressed me against the car my chest heaved I turned around and he wasn't there tears fell down my face as I got in the car

"What's wrong mommy?" Armani looked at me with her big brown eyes

"Nothing baby mommas okay" I exited the parking lot as I wiped my tears

I looked in the mirror and saw a forming bruise on my neck I sighed I have seen Lucas many times since he got out a couple of months ago but he hasn't talked to me or touched me yet...

"Momma I saw daddy today"

"You did?"

"Yea he told me we're all gonna be a happy family again and he's gonna get you back," she said as she drunk her juice out of her sippy cup

My breathing hitched as I thought about what would happen to me when he actually does come for me

"Okay, babies we are here!" Armani clapped excitedly because she hates being in the car I looked back at Amari and he was sleep I chuckled lightly as I wiped the rest of my tears I got out the car and took sleeping Amari in my arms I'm tired so I just got him instead of the whole car seat I went in the back and got the baby bag I opened Armani's door and took a picture of her cause she was looking too cute today!

"Okay, babies we are here!" Armani clapped excitedly because she hates being in the car I looked back at Amari and he was sleep I chuckled lightly as I wiped the rest of my tears I got out the car and took sleeping Amari in my arms I'm tired so I ...

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"Come on baby you gotta walk" I helped her out the car

She jumped down as we walked into Brianna's apartment it was glass everywhere I dropped the bag and picked Armani up so she wouldn't step on the glass and walked up the stairs yes it's hard but I know how to manage

"Bri?"

"Bri where are you?"

"I'm in here" she yelled from the bathroom I went into the guest bedroom and laid them down and turned the tv on I took there coat and shoes off

"Armani make sure you're brother doesn't fall ok?"

"Ok mommy" I kissed her forehead and left the room

"Bri what's going on babe?" I walked into the bathroom as I saw her face my heart broke

"I'm so sorry Bri I tried to keep him under control but... my dad used to do the same thing to my mom" I looked down as I sat on the floor with her she looked at me as she broke down

"He could've killed me, Autumn!" She said as sobs broke through her chest

"I know baby shhh" I stroked her hair

"This isn't the first time he did this," she said as she laid on my chest I looked at her with pity

"You know Autumn I know..." she said

"I know what happened with you and Lucas how did you do it?"

"Do what?"

"How did you stay that long?"

"I was in denial..."

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