I'm being held here in your prison.
My chains made of poison,
Afraid to move to make the pain worse.
Though like most cuffs unavoidable,
I'm constantly in pain.
I turn to numbing agents to deal with you,
Ones that take the pain away,
Ones that remove the filter.
I always end up scared for my life.
Because I know you'll threaten me,
Without fail you threaten me.
The only things assured in life are death,
taxes, and your need to cause me pain.
I'm not supposed to be in this situation.
You are not who you are supposed to be,
I no longer find solace in your hugs.
I cower from your words,
hide in my room,
And pretend as if I'm not in my personal hell.
I can only trick myself for so long.
I always lose it again,
You are ruining the family.
Your shackles that poison me hurt us all.
But you choose to ignore it to pretend.
"Everything is fine, you're just ungrateful"
You choose to blame me.
You take no responsibility.
Nothing is your fault.
You are perfect.
However you are only to yourself.
Everyone sees you for who you are.
No one tells you but me but they tell me.
They sit in solidarity with me.
Too scared to stand but always supportive.
I need to make the decision to leave.
Although I don't know how I'd leave.
I logically understand the steps.
But making the decision is hardest.
I'm so scared to take the leap.
I'm afraid you'll ruin me before I go.
I'm afraid I'll never be able to escape you.
You are ruinous.
And I'm your victim.
