WOW.
Here I am again...
Head laid back,
Nose sniffling constantly,
Trying to keep the blood from leaking.
Not only down my face but onto my bed,
Because my sheets are a soft baby pink.
And blood is not a cute look for a baby.
It's 6:30 am now and I haven't slept.
I wish I knew why.
I wish I knew why I lie to myself.
I know why.
Why I'm awake I mean.
I'm afraid to fall asleep right now..
I've been having unpleasant dreams so I'm awake right now.
And this will be a decision I regret.
But for now I'm fine with sitting here
Waiting for my blood to clot..
Emotionally too of course.
This is off topic but ya know what hurts?
Heartbreak.
ESPECIALLY, unrequited heartbreak.
You were never even given a chance.
And sometimes it's not their fault.
But if they play with your heart.
And then deny you.
They deserve to be heartbroken.
Even if you don't wish it upon them.
They deserve the same pain.
Because I can attest to it's severity,
And honestly I barely lived to tell the tale.
That's why boys are dumb.
That's why I wish I could just be... not me.
The antithesis of what I am.
Then I would be happier.
I don't know what that looks like..
but I'm pretty sure it's better than now.
Much better...
But here I am rambling,
back to the point:
FUCK feelings.
In the kindest way possible,
I want them to fuck off.
And then tying back to the original point,
Nosebleeds are nothing!
Compared to heartbreaks.
If you can't relate, take my word for it.
Enjoy your nosebleeds as a break.
And don't let your heart break in the process.
