Mistakes happen

15| 💚The double date💚

Three months have passed already and it feels as if time is stuck on the day I first arrived here. And I like it this way. I don't want any of this to end. I have so much right now, I'm afraid of losing everything. Another week and moments like these will fade away. I never could have imagined that this big mistake could become my most precious memory. Sometimes we say that mistakes help us improve. Well, it is much more than that. Mistakes help us guide our dreams, they make us find out qualities we don't know we have and make our life change. 

I finally decide to step out of bed feeling the chilling air on my toes. Spring is at the doors but this time, I can feel it only by looking outside the window. No scent is passing through my nose making it hard for me to feel it.

"Finally you decided" says Summer coming out of the shower.
"You just had a flu, Isla. It doesn't mean you have to stay in bed all day".

I grab my robe and head to the bathroom leaving her outside.
I hear her voice from the door.
"You can't hide it forever. You have to face reality. Only three weeks have passed since you last saw Nate and you don't have the courage to speak to him."

I open the door making my sister feel proud of convincing me to reply.
"I've attended classes and this is the only thing that matters. Pleasure can wait." I try to close the door once again but my sister's hand prevents it.

"Nate isn't just pleasure. You love him and you know it more than anyone."

I know she is right but I don't have the courage to say it. I'm just afraid to have a relationship right now. And the truth is I went to find him but I couldn't. I just feel like he is the one hiding from me. Plus I have no idea where my phone is which isn't helping at all.

"Have you found my phone?" I ask instead breaking the icing silence.
"I have looked everywhere, I even looked at the spa you gave me the address. The strange thing is it turns out to be the same one I was staying with Noah."

"Really?! Well, I haven't seen you, so you must have been in another department."

"Maybe, but it feels so strange, you know. Our boyfriends had the same idea. It is just so cool." she stares blankly at the wall for an instant, not long enough for me to enter the shower.

"Oh! I have an idea. Why don't we have a couples dinner tonight? So I can get to know Nate and you can have a chance to see him and say what you have to say."

So you can steal even Nate from me. But fortunately I was talking to myself. I say instead:
"Great! Be ready by 7?"

"Yes! I knew you would love my idea! I found a pizza place which is only ten minutes by foot from this college."

"Text me the address" and finally close the door of the bathroom behind me. As water runs through my face everything seems smaller, melted away by my thoughts, or maybe by the heat moist escaping through the top door. 

30 minuted later

As I head to the classroom my heart starts beating and suddenly the other night starts to print in my mind. His smell, his touch, his voice it seems like he is right in front of me every time I think of him. Suddenly I realise how much I love him. I realise it as it makes me giggle just thinking about having him right by my side. It makes me smile so big just when his voice prints on my mind. It makes my heart beat so fast just smelling his perfume from a far distance.

I suddenly feel a warm body bump on me, making my whole dream vanish.
"I'm sorry" says Noah picking up my script sheets that have already formed a united carpet on the floor.

"It's fine. It was my fault".

"How are you recovering from the flu?" he asks as soon as he makes a pile of blank paper. For a moment my mind comes back to the first day I met him. His sweet voice doesn't let my heart glow anymore but it still makes me feel calm.