insecurities

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Kris came back carry 4 bottles of juice.

"What are you girls talking about?" He asked as he started the engine.

"Just girl talk." Amy said as she took a sip of her juice with her eyes still on me.

Wait... Kris liked me?... what?why?when?. He never struck me as someone who would like me...yet again Ian liked me so I guessed ,anything's possible.

We stopped at a pretty franchise.  It had pretty hanging lights and wooden floors with a pretty menu. It was really relaxing and the waiters were awesome and young too.

We all ordered and we agreed that me and Amy were going to split the bill in half. Amy was on about how her and Darren got along at Ian's birthday party and how they were planning on going on a date...it was cute though.

"Milkshakes?" Ming asked as she got up.

"Yep." The whole lot of us said in unison.

She walked away to go order some of those.

"I need the lady's room." Amy said as she left me and Kris there.

It was awkwardly silent for a while until Kris spoke. "So...you and Ian?"

"No...we just friends." I said reassuring him.

"Mhm...so,it's safe to ask you out?" He asked as he pulled his eyes away from his plate to mine.

"Out?"

He nodded,"Yeah...like a date."

"Ohhw...uhh. I-I'll think about it." I said with so many stutters.

"Great."

"Ming's still not back?" Amy asked as she took a seat next to me.

"Nope." Kris answered as he took a few glances at me before taking a sip of his coke.

"I'll go check on her." I said trying to run away from the awkwardness between me and Kris.

I caught up with Ming still standing in line.

"Have I been gone that long?" She asked as she took a look at her watch. "Just 7 minutes. You are so impatient."

"I just needed some air. Kris asked if he can ask me out on a date...now I feel weird." I said as I leaned against the wall that separated the eating area and the ordering station...

"And?..."

"I said... I'll let him know. What was I supposed to say?"

"May I ask you something?"She asked sounding really serious.

I nodded.

"What about Maya? She's still dating Ian,isn't she?"

I took a long pause... it's not that I haven't thought about his relationship with Maya but everytime he touches me,I seem to forget all that. His company and everything about him...his kiss,his smile,his smell. On friday i almost gave in to him. The way his breath hit on my skin made my insides burn,he grabbed my waist pulling me close to his body and...urgh,but fact remains he is Maya's.

"Next!" A voice pulled me out of my thoughts as Ming pulled me by my hand.

"You're right." I finally answered Ming.

Ming pursed her lips giving me sorry eyes and then she ordered our milkshakes.

"Almost never made it back." Amy grabbed the strawberry milkshake as Ming set down the tray full of drinks.

"Sorry." Ming said and Amy smiled at her.

"Are you okay?" I felt Kris's hand on mine and pulled my hand back to me.

"I'm fine..."

My conversation with Ming messed up my mind all day. It was a helluva fun day but...I couldn't stop thinking of Ian and Maya.

Kris dropped me off at my house and it wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be considering it was just the two of us left.

Night came and Ian called.

"What do you want now?"

"Can't I just call for no reason?" Ian asked.

"No." I answered as i sat on my bed.

"Why not?"

"C'mon,Ian... why'd you call?"

He chuckled lowly,"Well,I don't know. Maybe I wanted to hear your voice and ask how was your day."

"Why not call Maya?" I was sure I sounded like a jealous girlfriend right now.

"Bonnie..."

"Ian...hang up the phone."

"Bonnie... I'm not in love with Maya. I don't want to be with her. Yeah,sure I liked her once but I don't want her anymore.I want you and I will wait until you're ready to trust me because I really want YOU."

My heart started beating fast and I became breathy. He just had this effect on me and I couldn't really say anything at this point.

It was silent for a while then he spoke,"What are you doing now?"

"Just getting ready to sleep."

"What are you wearing?"

I laughed at what what he just asked."I am not answering that."

"C'mon..."

"Okay,fine. PJ's."

"Are you thinking about me?"

"Okay,Ian...goodnight." I said as i hung up the phone and blushed for no good reason. I got in bed and drifted of to the land of the sleeping.