insecurities

Invitation

Bonnie's POV

My mind has been all over the place since Ian touched me and I LET HIM!!!! The thought of his hands on mine gave me shivers. I mean rape isn't something easy to forget but today I managed to let my guard down for a second or two.

"Bonnie?" My mother's voice pulled me out of my thoughts as she planted a kiss on my forehead.

"Ok,bye mom." I said already knowing what she was going to say. "See you later." I added as I grabbed the TV remote control.

She stopped at the door and looked back at me,"Remember -...."

"I know,mom. Lock all doors, in case of emergency ... i call you or Officer James."

She then left. After a couple of hours i passed out on the couch. My mom never made it back last night so i woke up late.

I was in such a rush I didn't get my contact lenses and I wore my glasses for once... I actually had no problem whatsoever wearing them today because well... I had better things to worry about. Today i wore my normal school socks which i never wear because i couldn't find my black stockings. Argh... i didn't even have breakfast. I got to school 7 minutes past class time.

Mr Brooks looked at me almost shocked before he spoke,"Miss Hart,you're late. I don't like people being late and you know that."

I took a deep breath,"Pardon me,sir. Something came up." I lied.

He looked at me with knowing eyes almost as if he saw right through my lie." Go take a seat."

I walked over to my seat and saw a small smirk creeping on Ian's face as he looked at me until i took a seat.

This was weird... actually having a crush on someone... wait did i just say crush??

"I guess i wasn't all the way wrong when i said you're kinda nerdy." A voice said to my left and when i looked it was Zach. He hijacked Melissa's seat again.

I simply smiled at him.

He smiled back as he pretended to focus on his textbook because mr Brooks doesn't really like people talking while he's talking.

"So about the tutoring sessions??" He asked as he flipped a page.

I frowned trying to find the right words since Ian just said 'Not Happening' ... "Well, Ian is kind of a handful so... i really can't..." I paused then spoke again seeing that he was kinda disappointed,"...I would've really liked to though. I'm sorry."

"Miss Hart and Mr Moore. Do you need a minute?" Mr Brooks asked as he shot daggers at me and Zach.

I quickly shook my head no and soon after that i felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I took it out wanting to turn it off but as soon as the screen lit up i saw a text from Ian.

○What did he say?○

I chose to ignore it but as soon as i put it back in my pocket it vibrated twice. I ignored it then it vibrated thrice. Oh My God Ian's annoying. I checked whatever he had to say.

○I asked you something.○
○Answer me.○
○Even if you ignore me. We still have a studying session together...AT MY HOUSE.○
○I can literally do this all day.○
○Or we can just talk about yesterday.○

I finally decided to text back otherwise he can literally text me all day.

●I was telling him i can't study with him too because i already have you.●

○That's so cute,Bonbon. You actually said 'you have me' ,I'm blushing.○

I chuckled then i must've not noticed myself smiling at my phone.