Strings Attached

"Friendly" date

My tongue drew out, slowly encircling around the digit, before sucking on it ever so gently.

At that moment, my mind was completely blank and I wasn't sure what I was doing. But honestly, ruling him up was fun and the thought of being just friends completely slipped my mind.

I let go of his finger with a pop and bit my lip, staring up at him seductively. Although, I wasn't sure how alluring it looked, as I was wearing a dear onesie while giving him a sultry look.

But it seemed as though it worked because I heard a low growl emit from the back of his throat as he reached forward and captured my lips in his, kissing me as if I were the air that filled his lungs.

I let out a dreamy sigh, already having missed his lips on mine, as I pulled him closer, walking backward until both of us were inside.

And like he always seemed to do, he bent down the slightest to pat my thighs, pulling back to whisper, "Jump."

And like always, I jumped and wrapped my legs around his torso, kissing him once again because I was completely addicted to the taste of him and I just couldn't get enough.

Slowly and steadily, although, still in a rush, he tried walking briskly towards my bedroom, albeit that he tripped multiple times on the way and giggles between kisses ensued until we reached the room.

He dropped me on top of the bed and I kept giggling over the fact that he was so clumsy, but I immediately stopped laughing when he almost ripped his shirt above his head.

Fuck.

He gave me a coy smile, noticing the sudden flustered look on my face as he slowly crawled on top of me, his hands trailing across my clothed body.

Licking his lips, he stared into my eyes, and at that moment, I thought about nothing but being with him. Not just sexually, but physically and emotionally, his presence was so special and heart pounding, I don't think I'll be able to find anyone like him.

With a grin, Shawn trailed his lips towards my neck, kissing and nibbling onto every exposed part he could find, as I let out a low moan and tangled my fingers between his locks.

At the sound of the pleasurable noise that had emitted from me, Shawn lifted his head and stared into my eyes, breathing heavily. I licked my lips and gazed back.

What were we? Hadn't I decided that I've had enough of our deal and had ended it? Hadn't we decided to be just friends?

I had questions swirling through my head, and I could see that he was thinking the same.

But there was a thought at the far back of both of our minds.

We knew we were far past being just friends, no matter how many times we'd deny that.

With that thought, he gulped and leaned in once again, kissing me to the point I turned blank to everything else.

........

I let out a low moan at the ache in my body, as my eyes fluttered open.

At first, my mind was blank, but slowly, memories of last night started flooding in and I blushed a scarlet red.

Last night was one of the best nights, I won't deny it. Being able to talk to him, be real with him, knowing he would never judge me, I had always loved that. And then, as we stumbled over to the bedroom, I got to be vulnerable with him, and like always, I wasn't insecure about myself. It was almost beautiful, how on other days I'd be diffident about my body but with him, I was able to let go of my inhibitions, albeit the fact that I still think I'm not good enough for him.

I bit my lip and rested my head against the headboard, sighing softly but that was before I noticed the lack of Shawn next to me.

I furrowed my eyebrows, wondering where he went because usually, he wouldn't have been up yet.

I looked around the bedroom, thinking about the worst when I noticed a rather small note on my bedside table.

I bit my lip nervously, before reaching out to grab the note, letting a sigh of relief when I actually read through the rushed writing of Shawn.

I had to leave early because my manager called. I would've woken you up, but you looked peaceful, so I decided to let you sleep some more.

I read over the note once again, before holding it close to my chest and smiling.

Maybe I could do it.

Maybe I could finally tell him my feelings.

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Author's Note: Sorry for taking so long on updating, I've just been having a hard time juggling between my school work and updating my books on wattpad 🥺