Arranged Love

getting out!!!!!

I stoot there paralised, when he asked me what I dreamed about. It was so bad. And didn't know what to say either. 

Ashwin: ''You don't need to say anything if you don't want to.''

me: "Yeah.''

He grabbed my hand, we both walked to that room. What I didn't know was that I was checking him out from top to toe. 

Ashwin: ''enjoying the vieuw?''

me: ''Uhhh, I was just looking.''

Ashwin: ''It always starts with looking and then before you know we both are sucking on each others lips. At that moment you will be not be able to risist me.''

I didn't know what to say cause I actually felt that one when he said that. 

Ashwin: ''I will be so touchy, but you will enjoy it.''

Me: "I am divoced and have kid, you still want to be with me?''

Ashwin: ''of course I want to with you. I will never lose that opertionity for a live time. I don't care that you are divorced or have kid. And  if we get together, I will actually take care of you and Rani like my  own kid. I don't even need a kid of you, only Rani and you is enough for me. I know you don't remeber our love time, but that's over and I want to start a new one with you.''

Me: ''Why do you want it soo badly?''

Ashwin: ''There isn't a day by that I didn't love you. You were my only tought when I was in America. I couldn't get you out of my mind. And that's why my parents sent me to bording school, cause I wasn't listening to them. I planed so many flights to come to you. But after I saw that you didn't remembered me I needed to move on.  But that didn't went well. Cause I still love you and want to start a live with you. I don't care if i needed to wait a century for you.'' 

Me: ''I don't know what to tell. I just got married and divorced and I got to take care of a kid whose mother gave up on her. Now I need to be that mother for her. I can't tell her that her mother gave up on her. I know however she will get know later. But I can't tell her now!''

I started to cry after that last word.

Ashwin: ''You know, I am going to Sri Lanka next week. You should come with me, take Rani with you. I will pay. It will be fine. Just come! Get know me.''

Me: ''That's a good idea but I can't come on all your cost.''

Ashwin: ''That will not be problem. please, dry your eyes. I can't look, please.''

I dryed my eyes. 

Ashwin: ''Thank you. This afternoon Arun will sign the papers. I will drop you off at your place. Think about it a few days. If you know the answer you can call me any time. How bad I feel I need you to stay in this room for a few hours and I need to prepare some documents.'''

A blue jeansed man: ''Sir, the car is here.''

Ashwin: ''Thank you, please wait out side I will be back in a few minutes.''

A blue jeansed man: ''Sure, sir.''

The man left the room after it. Ashwin gave a kiss on my forehead. 

Ashwin: ''If you didn't like it you can always give it back!''

I smiled, that was sooo sweet of him to tell.

Ashwin: ''That smile is good enough for me to prepare those papers. see you later.''

He left the room. And locked it. I actually didn't felt alone anymore. I felt so filled with love. I never felt this way with Arun. But I miss Arun so much. It's so diffcult lately.

*few hours later* 

I still sat on that bed alone. But then oped the door. By the door was standing Ashwin. I was happy to see him there. Withouth thinking I ran to him and hugged him soo tight. He was shocked that I did that. 

Ashwin: ''I didn't know that you were a tight hugger.''

Me: ''I have changed after the accident.''

ashwin: ''I love tight hugges. Don't worry about that. I came to bring you back to your place.''

Me: ''Can I see Rani first?''

Ashwin: "sure.'' 

We both walked to the end of the hallway without saying a word to each other. I walked trough a door the next thing that I knew was that Rani was hugging me. 

Rani: "mommy, I missed you!''

She actually called me mommy damnn. That was the best moment in my hole life. 

Me: ''What did you call me?''

Rani: ''mommy!!!!''

Her cute voice made it more beautifuller. It warmed my hard by hearing that word. I smiled sooo bright. 

Hey,

sorry for the late update. I will try to update more. Thanks to you all to read my story. 

Take care of your self!

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me