Ice Queen

Chapter 50 ~ "Make me yours"

☆ Warning, sexual content in this chapter. Some people want smut in novels others don't so I hope this chapter works well for everyone. If it's not your thing feel free to skip along to the next chapter.☆ 

Nate

This has to be a dream, there's no way that this is happening, everything's just too perfect. I know she was upset when I broke the news about the scheduling conflict to end all scheduling conflicts. But at the end of the day there was nothing to do but be supportive.

This wasn't what I had planed for our evening, I just thought some nice romance could be in order after a few busy weeks, but I was happy to make an exception.

The amount of times I'd pictured this bordered on creepy, but Sasha was the most amazing girl I knew. I always wondered if we were meant to be more than friends when we were little and now she loved me back. Every girl I'd ever kissed or messed around with before her never felt right, something was missing.

The girl who hated me two and a half months ago and refused to talk to me, was my girlfriend. She was back in my life as the same person she was all those years ago, but we'd grown up. I'd changed and so had she, Sasha had become mature and she was the most beautiful girl in the world. Every time I got to put my arm around her or kiss her I thought about how lucky I was.

I dreamt about her, wondered if she was alright, worried about her. She was mine and I was hers.

I carry her up the stairs and bring her to my room at the end of the hall, shutting the door. I worried that she might not really be ready for this, we'd only been official for a few weeks now. But I'd known her for ten years, I watched her get more and more beautiful everyday.

She wraps her arms around the back of my neck and kisses me quietly. This didn't feel wrong, everything felt intense, it was like there was no air to breathe in the room.

"Wait." I whisper and set her down.

"What is it?" She asks and I smile.

"One second." I say quietly and she nods.

I find the candles I had from last weekend and quickly put them on the nightstands and dresser in my room, trying not to overdo it. I know how cheesy it is but I knew Sasha wanted to feel special. She was important to me and I wanted this to be perfect. Then I light them as quickly as I can and turn off my bedroom light, leaving a warm glow in the room.

When I look back I see her standing with her eyes closed. I laugh a bit and walk over standing behind her. "Nobody said you had to close your eyes." I tell her and she smiles. "Open them." I run my fingertips up her arms and I hear her gulp.

"Oh Nathan." She whispers and I smile, wrapping my arms around her waist. 

"I love you." I tell her quietly. "There's no rush."

She nods and turns around to face me, running her hands over my chest. "I want this." She tells me, pressing her lips together.

"You're sure?" I ask and she nods. "There's no undoing this." I remind her and she smiles.

"Who else would I want to do it with?" She asks with a laugh. "I've loved you as long as I can remember, you're my boyfriend and I'm ready." She says more quietly, pushing up onto her toes. "Just because it's my first time doesn't mean I'm unsure."

I smile and bring her close, leaning down to kiss her again. I pull my shirt over my head and lift her up, laying her down on my bed a second later. I feel her legs wrap around my waist and I groan.

For a while we roll around in bed, hands running over each other, completely intertwined. I didn't want to rush it and I didn't want to push her into something if she wasn't ready. I feel her shift around as she pulls her shirt over her head and my eyes roam over her body.