Afraid // Jaeyong // Texting ff

69. I'm so broke

Taeyong POV

Tennessee

TEN

TAEYONG

I'm so happy but unhappy at the same time

what

Jaehyun makes me so so happy
he's like literally the best person I know
no offense

I'd say none taken but that would be a lie

we talked about my mental health issues and stuff and he was so sweet and understanding
like he kept it real but he was so great about it

what's wrong?

my ocd is getting worse

really?
why didn't you tell me?

well I wasn't really honest with myself it took Jaehyun for me to realize that it
"came back" I guess

I'm sorry Taeyong I know how hard you worked to get to the place you are rn

I'm okay
at least I'm gonna be
I'm gonna make an appointment with my old doctor and Jaehyun is gonna be by my side the whole time

that's good
do you need me to come back?
cause bitch I will

no no you just focus on your job and
well your life
speaking of
what's the deal with you and Johnny

oh
well
I like him
and he likes me
and that's about it

what

we talked
like a lot
and we decided we're probably better off as friends

what

come on Taeyong you didn't like seriously think this was gonna work right?
I live in a different country
how would this work

you ever heard of a thing called
long distance relationship??

yeah I did but we don't even know if we would work in a relationship
we're crushing on each other that's no reason to put both our lives on hold

Ten
listen to me
you deserve to be happy
and you deserve to be in a happy and loving relationship
and if that means you'll have to come to Korea more often I'm not complaining

that's another thing
I can't afford it
I'm so broke

do you need me to send you money?

no are you stupid
I'm not like broke broke but I sure as hell can't afford to go to Korea that often
and he's working at a similar salary I do
so he can't afford to come to Thailand whenever he wants to either
it's just
it would be too hard to be in a relationship solely based on a 4 week crush

you're so unromantic
stop being so smart and rational about your love life
love isn't something you choose it's something you feel

I don't love him
again I've known him for like 2 months

shut up
I know my best friend and he's special to you

pf

my point exactly
don't let this slip away just because it feels hard atm
trust me I did just that and I regret it
I lost months with the love of my life because I felt overwhelmed

I
I need to think
I can't make a decision now

of course
I just don't want you to let him go before you even considered letting him in

I won't

good

thank you Taeyong

always

I gotta go now I'll text you later

okayy
love you

love you too

—

Broyoung

hey you guys need any more help?

no everything's okay thanks

no problem
you know I'm gonna hang out at your house all the time from now on right

yeah I know

you probably won't even notice me in that freaking mansion

hey don't shame my house

pfffft

we literally just moved in today maybe you could save your trash talk for later

alright alright
it is kinda great
I really like it I'm ngl

yay

also the bedroom is h u g e
it's like my bedroom and living room together

yeah Ik it's great

but like are you bankrupt now

no
but I did use most of my savings
and I'm probably gonna spend the rest on furniture

damn
you're gonna be broke again

let's just hope it doesn't come to that
also Sicheng said I'm pretty popular lately so hopefully I'll get some more money soon

hopefully
you're gonna be okay
you're pretty fucking famous I don't think you could run out of money just like that

yeah no I don't think that'll happen
as long as people listen to my music and buy my albums it should be okay

and they do
your fans really miss you yk
they're worried about you
it's so cute to read all the sweet messages they're writing

Ikr
last night I spent three hours on twitter reading what they have to say

aww

I should probably do that interview soon

good idea

they seem really worried and I don't want them to go through that
especially now that I'm getting better and better

when is your next doctors appointment?

in a few days why

you're just still in the wheelchair and that kinda worries me
just tell me what he says okay?

yeah of course

thanks
I'm gonna come over to help you guys more tomorrow okay?

thank you

like around 10?

sounds good

okay great
then I'll see you tomorrow

yess