Afraid // Jaeyong // Texting ff

68. Are you sick?

Jaehyun POV

"Baby I wanna wash the bedsheets today could you help me?" I went into the bedroom and looked at my boyfriend. "We just did that yesterday." "Yeah I know." Taeyong didn't even look up but just continued to change the bed.
"Babe." I grabbed his hands to stop him and sat down to be on the same eye level as him. "I think... we should maybe go see a doctor." "Why? Are you sick?" I couldn't help but smile.
"I'm okay. But... I talked to your sister and... she told me about your ocd." Something in his expression changed. "It was not her place to tell you." "I know baby but... I'm glad she did. You're not very open about your past and that's okay I don't want you to feel pressured to tell me anything. But I'm glad Yerim did tell me because if she didn't I'd be a lot more scared. You shower twice a day and I know since I'm the one helping you. You've been cleaning the whole apartment obsessively like three times a week even though you're in a wheelchair and supposed to rest. I love you so so much but I'm worried." I ran my hand through his hair. "I just want you to be okay." He looked at our hands and I could see he was holding back tears. "I... I don't think I am." He took a deep breath. "I didn't want to admit it for the past few weeks but you're right. My ocd is a lot worse and... I don't know how to deal with that. I'm sorry for putting you through this Jaehyun."
"Don't apologize baby." I put my hand under his chin so he would look at me and smiled. "I love you and we're gonna get through this together." He nodded his head and smiled through his tears. "Do you want me to make an appointment with a doctor?" I asked. "Yes that would be good I think, thank you." I kissed him and got up.
"Now let's get these bedsheets changed."

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y'all know I'm not American but I was still very invested in the 2020 election and I'm so happy Biden won cause fuck donald trump that dude is the fucking worst kind of human being