Afraid // Jaeyong // Texting ff

61. ocd

Taeyong POV

Jaeminie Dongsaeng

would it be okay if I stayed at Jeno's a little longer?
like after you're back from the hospital

yeah sure
Jaehyun's gonna be with me
I'll be fine

okay thank you
how are you feeling?

I'm okay
it's just weird to not do anything
I'm used to being busy and not having any free time
now the only thing I have is free time and it's weird

well maybe you could use that free time to recharge and gain strength for what's gonna come once you start getting back into the business?

I'm fully recharged trust me
all I do is sleep and eat and rest
I'm frEACKING OUT

calm down okay?
just relax and use the energy you're saving for something else
maybe write some new songs?
or Idk
paint

yeah Idk
I need to be active
walk around
just do something
but as long as I still have these stupid casts on my legs I won't walk anywhere

exactly
that's why you need to take it easy and relax and give your body time to heal

ugh
I hate this
also I have a question

yes?

did you really not know Jaehyun and I were dating? Like I never old you?

no
I mean I kinda suspected something was going on but
I never knew knew
yk what I mean?

yeah
I get why I didn't tell you but I also don't
like you're my brother why didn't I

Idk man
but I'm not mad or smth I completely understand

that's good
I think Yerim knew tho
like she never asked me about it
I've been going through some text messages from the past few months
and it definitely seemed like she knew
but I don't think I told her

yeah she knew
I'm not sure how either but she definitely did

hmmm
I gotta ask her

lol okay

hey it's really weird to just have huge gaps in your memories okay?
like some things did come back but it's taking so long and I'm still missing so much

they're gonna come back
the doctor said it could take some time for all the memories to come back but you will remember everything again

I hope so

trust me
trust your doctor
he knows what he's talking about

yeah you're right

I know

damn
how was school today?

stressful
I have so much to catch up on

are you having trouble?
I could get you a tutor if you want to

no it's okay I'm fine

are you sure?

yes I am don't worry
the only one you should be worried about atm is you

you know I'll always worry about you

yeah I know
you're my older brother
and also you're you
you can't not worry it's in your nature

exactly
I gotta go now the doctor is here

okay
text me what he said

I will!
later

laters

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Jaehyun POV

Yerim (Taeyong)

hey Yerim

hey Jaehyun

I have a question

shoot

it's about Taeyong...

okay

he's kinda acting a little strange lately
he's always organizing everything and he's using hand sanitizer obsessively and that's only two of the things I've noticed
do you know what's up with that?

oh
yeah I noticed too
well of course I'm not sure cause I don't know what's going on in his head
but his ocd is probably coming back
he was in therapy and on medication for years after the first accident and he was doing a lot better
but I guess the second accident and being in a wheelchair left him feeling like he lost control and this is his way of getting it back

he had ocd?
he never told me...
sometimes I feel like I don't even know him
I never wanted to pressure him into telling me stuff and now I feel like he just didn't tell me anything

he's a very private person he barely talks about his feelings not even to me
and he was always kind of ashamed of his condition
he probably just didn't want to scare you off
and I know you wouldn't have been but
you know Taeyong
he's just like that

yeah
he's so cute

aw

do you know if there's anything I can do to help him?

make him feel like he can do something
if he feels needed and in control it'll get better

okay
thank you

of course
but be careful okay?
don't make it obvious

yeah no I won't
thanks for telling me

no problem
I figured you should know as his roommate and boyfriend

yeah probably

ah btw Nahyun and I are gonna stay with a friend for a few days
Taeyong already knows but I just wanted to let you know
I feel lonely at home nobody's there

oh yeah of course I understand
have a good time

thank you!
oh Nahyun is awake I gotta go

okay I'll see you soon

yes

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I love tiger inside so much I could listen to Taeyongs part on a loop for three days and I wouldn't get bored