Afraid // Jaeyong // Texting ff

44. it's getting better

Taeyong POV

Johnny (Jaehyun)

hey
uhm
how is Jaehyun doing?

okay
he's worried about you

that's sweet
how is the job going?

pretty good I think
he's still kinda adapting to the work hours but it's getting better

that's good
so
Yerim had her baby
and I want him to know
maybe you could mention it?

yeah sure

okay thank you
he was just really involved and I
Idk
I guess I still want him to be a part of my life?
is that weird?

no not at all
you love him
and also you don't have to explain yourself to me Taeyong
it's all good

thank you

how is Yerim doing?

she's great
she's so happy and relieved
she can't shut up about Nahyun she's everything to her
I'm so proud of her
she gave birth to a beautiful, healthy little girl

aww
I'm glad she's okay
I know how nervous she was hearing that everything's fine is a relief

it really is
except
Jaehyun is not here
god I can't believe I still miss him this much
it's been months

you're allowed to miss him
cut yourself some slack okay?

hm
Idk
It's just
everything's so much worse when he's not here
I didn't even realize how much better he made my life

aw omg
I still don't get why you broke up with him

he was the perfect guy at the worst time
I couldn't and still can't be the boyfriend he needed and deserved at the time
and that made it so hard to have a healthy relationship
right now my career is at it's peak I can't be a good boyfriend to anybody
and Jaehyun doesn't deserve to come second

but what if one day your career is not as hectic and stressful as it is now?
would you go back to him

I can't imagine myself not loving him
if he'd have me back I probably would yeah

you guys are so adorable I can't

haha
I gotta leave now my break is over

okay
we'll probably talk soon?

yeah probably
thank you
bye

bye

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