My Emotions On Paper

I don't know🍃

What's going on with me these days ?
It feels like I'm just going through the motions.
I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore.
I feel like I'm just sinking deeper Everyday into God knows what.

I don't understand this sudden urge to distance myself from people.
I'm not myself I don't know who this person is.
I feel like my friends don't care about me even though subconsciously I know they do.

Writing my emotions and feelings used to feel like an escape.
An outlet to my feelings but how do you write about something you don't even understand?
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Everything suddenly feels pointless .

I think i need to get out of my house or this prison my mind has created.
I feel like a piece of myself is missing.

I don't seem to have a direction in my life anymore.
I feel like I have lost all my motivation and I hate it.
I hate not knowing what I feel .
I hate feeling like I'm giving up .
Because I know I'm better than this .

I guess this quarantine really is taking its toll.
I will be okay I will figure all this out .
This isn't a plea for help.
This is me trying to figure out my emotions the only way i know how.
With a pen and paper .
Letting my thoughts and feelings flow through me.
Writing all the words I cannot say.

Thank you so much for 2k!
Stay safe ily❤