WARNING: This poem contains reference to self-harm, drug abuse and alcohol abuse
It was my fault
You and your little luggage
Out, out of the door
In about 3 minutes
You were gone
I laughed at idiot girls. Now I'm Karma's
Laughing stock
I became the idiot girl
And I was small
I sat there and watched you.
Muttering. As you packed up all your stuff
You made me
Caress my arms. See how I could design
You made me
Find that powder, inhale it and pretend to feel
that pretend glow
For days
I became a hole, within a hole
For weeks
I smelt like shit, lied in shit
For months
Food was my enemy and I was at war
For years
That lucrative drink, has been my best friend
Why did you go?
I could have been better
Loved you harder. Fucked you louder
Loved you louder. Fucked you harder
Could I get it right next time?
Sleep takes me. I hear footsteps
It's you and that little luggage
That I like to say I forgot
but really?
now know best
You come closer. And press my tiny body
Into your big chest
Don't look at me
I don't need to explain
This damage, the leech I grew within myself
Eating away
Maybe I do
You left me.
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