Left (Season 4): Fear.

Pangapatnapu't-apat.

Pangapatnapu't-apat.

//Louie's//

Lumipas na naman ang isang araw na hindi namin nahanap 'yong mga putanginang ginawan ako ng masama. Magagaling magtago!

Nakakaparanoid pa na baka balikan kami. Plus nakadagdag sa anxiety ko 'yong nagpakamatay 'nong isang araw.

Sobrang nakakalungkot. She claimed her own justice but she chose to claimed the end of her life as well. And the sad part of it all. She was pregnant.

Enough! I need to stop thinking about this. It just gave me more anxiety. I hope the girl rest in peace.

Napalingon ako sa tabi ko ng yakapin ako ni Blake. Umaga na pero hindi pa kami bumabangon.

Hinarap ko siya ng maayos at niyakap siya pabalik.

"What are you thinking?" He asked.

"The girl who died."

"Don't think about it."

"Yeah, that's what I told myself before you ask."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

Natahimik kami. And I like how comforting this silence is. I like how I'm not thinking about anything and just relaxing on his arms. I hope we can be like this forever.

"If we're in a normal circumstances I'll marry you."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa narinig. But I found myself laughing.

"Grabe hulog na hulog sa ganda ko! My God Kuya Wil!"

He laughed.

"Grabe naman sir ni hindi pa nga tayo nagiisang taon as boyfriend and girlfriend tapos gusto mo kasal agad! Nakakaloka!"

"Silly, I don't need a long one with you to figure it out that I want to marry you. Just thinking about waking up beside you made me think of marriage. I want this lazy morning with you for the rest of my life."

"I want this too. I hope we can be like this forever but our circumstances is not giving us that option."

"Well babe, fuck those circumstances. I'll forever fight for our life to be with you and be like this forever."

Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya. Then I rolled on top of him and sitting on his stomach.

"How about waking up with me on top?"

"That's the best thing I'll forever wake up to."

Napangisi ito and I found myself laughing wholeheartedly and just falls on top of him.

Oh how I hope we're just in a normal time where our problems doesn't include lefters.

//Bebang's//

"Ahh ahh!"

Putangina. Kumapit ako ng maigi sa braso ni Michael na nasa ibabaw ko na mabilis na gumagalaw. Kagigising ko lang at ang bumungad sa akin si Michael na nasa ilalim ng kumot ko at nasa gitna ng hita ko. Umagang umaga siya ang bubungad sa akin. Ako naman si maharot go lang. Kaya heto kami ngayon nasa ibabaw ko na siya.

"Hoy ahh!" Ungol ko ng maramdaman ang papasabog na sarap na pinaparamdam niya sa akin. Ilang atras abante pa sabay kaming sumabog na dalawa.

Hingal na bumagsak ito sa ibabaw ko at ibinaon ang mukha sa leeg ko.

Pero maya maya lang gumulong ito pahiga pero isinama ako kaya ako naman ang nasa taas ngayon.