At first Carson got embarrassed everytime he had to ask for my help but as he recognized I didn't care, he became more confident and began joking about him being 'dumb baby'.
I laughed and looked at his computer screen to answer another question, since I had finished my homework already."I don't want to do this! How can you be this smart? " I just smiled a little and looked at the text he was writing.
"No I'm serious! How can you have an A in every class? " He seemed like he really needed an answer. But I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready to tell him about all of my non existing friends, and my sad study sessions in my room.
So I just shrugged and tried to get his attention back onto his homework.Carson just pouted and continued typing.
Internally I was more than thankful that he had stopped asking.
When Carson was almost done with his homework I looked at the time on his screen. It was almost 8 . Carson noticed too and began printing his essay."So I'm going to stream again soon. Do you want to stay again? "
I was unsure I didn't want to be outside at a late hour. On the other hand I wanted to do everything I could to become his friend and to make him want to see me again.
"Don't feel pressured! You don't have to. "I looked at him and half smiled "I would prefer going home if I'm honest" .
Carson looked disappointed for just a second before he was his grinning self again. "Sure, of course. ", he mumbled and I led me out of his room. I missed it already, I felt so at home in there it was strange.When we arrived in his living room he pointed to a couch, so I sat down while he searched for his car keys.
Cooper was seated next to me.
" So you liked the stream? "He asked scanning my face. I just nodded and felt a little uncomfortable.
" You like Carson?" He asked and scanned my face again. I didn't nod. I didn't want him to tell carson the wrong thing and jeopardize our friendship.
"You see, Carson was fucked over by a girl not long ago. She took his happiness and his smile. He really got depressed, he still is... You aren't going to do something like that to him? Are you? "I slowly shook my head and felt a clump in my throat. I knew if I'd say something it immediately start to cry. I just felt so uncomfortable, sitting on this couch and being judged for something I didn't do, by someone I thought liked me.
I turned away from Cooper and started going through my phone. After a while Carson's came into the room."Ready to go?" He asked grinning but I couldn't bring myself to smile. I just stood up and followed him outside.
During the ride Carson tried to build up a conversation but I answered all his questions by shrugging and looking out the window.
After a while he stopped trying.When we arrived at campus he turned of the car and turned to me.
"Look Anna, I know I wasn't very impressive with the homework today bu-.. I'm not dumb! It's just-.. I-.. " He looked at his hands and it seemed he was really uneasy."If you don't want to talk to me anymore-.. I get it. Well.. Today was really nice. " I looked up to him. His smile was clearly fake and his eyes looked really hurt.
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Strangers | CallMeCarson FF
Fanfiction"I don't want Cooper to tell my secrets to strangers" Strangers, that's what we were. With : lunch club, misfits