I'm sick of this shit.

I'm blonde. I want to be blonde. I'm going to be blonde.

I'm sick of having to change myself because i'm too conscious of other people's opinions of me.

When i say i was blonde. I was like really really blonde. Like fucking Oliver Twist blonde.

Okay that was a bit dramatic. It had more yellow tones to it.

I ring up the hairdressers and they have an appointment in fifteen minutes.

I get to the hairdressers and i sit down in the chair.

"hi what can i do for you?" he asks me

"i need to go back blonde" i tell him

"i can see that, darling these roots!" he says looking at my hair and i can't help but chuckle

"tell me about it" i say

"how are are you willing to go?" he asks me

"well i was really really blonde before i dyed it" i tell him showing him a picture of me when i was younger

He nods, "so go as far as you want" i tell him

"cool, i'll be right back" he says

"so how long have you been dying it for?" he asks me suddenly with everything he needs

"since i was around four, i got my cousin to bye the dye for me and she did it and we surprised my mom. She was mortified" i say and he chuckles

"I bet she was, especially at that age. Why did you dye it?" he asks

"I got bullied for having blonde hair when i was younger so i dyed it brown to stop them" i tell him

"oh i'm sorry" he says

"it's alright, it's all good now" i say and he smiles at me

Before i turn my phone off i see a text from Finn and i sigh before turning it off completely.

"So honey, who's the boy?" he asks and i look at him through the mirror

"what?" i ask

"you don't think i can't tell when a girl walks in here with her heartbroken?" he says

"His name is Finn" i say and he smiles

"We've been friends since we were born, our moms are best friends. He left with his brothers when i was younger. And he jumped out of the window and kissed me then ran back to the car. That was the last time i heard from him up until about a month and a half a ago when he appeared on my doorstep with his brothers waiting for my twin brother" i tell him

"We spent a lot of time together looking back on it now over the past month and a bit. My family and friends thought we were together for ages. They kept saying we should be together but we both said we were just friends. It took me to see his ex hanging off his arm and kissing him got me to realise that i love him and i finally saw what my family was talking about" i say

"Well it sounds like you two have history" he says

"Something like that" i say

"if you want my advice, if you love him. See how he is around her, watch his reactions and his facial expressions, his body language. Is he relaxed around her? Or he reserved. If he doesn't even talk to her properly or make an effort he probably deep down doesn't even want to be with her. Notice if he starts the conversations or takes her out on little trips. If he doesn't do anything and just goes along with it. I doubt he likes her" he says and i'm left there speechless

"I have a gut feeling that he likes you too. And my gut is never wrong" he says

"Maybe you have to ask yourself what is holding you back from getting your man, ask yourself what is so important that is stopping you from being with him, for you to be happy together. He might not have made a moves because he thinks that he's not good enough for you. He might think that you should be with someone who you have more in common with"

"I've never thought of it like that" i say and he smiles

"Your good at this" i tell him

"well after sixteen years of listening to people's problems when you dye their hair, you practically become an expert" he says and i chuckle

Three hours later

"oh my god i love it" i say smiling

"you do suit blonde more if i'm being honest" he says and i nod

"thank you so much" i tell him giving him some money

"it's no problem at all, it's always fun doing blonde on someone. When a client lets me chose what colour,i always try and link in their personality. I like to make the hair have an aspect of their personality because you can be told a lot by someone's hair colour. That's why i went like this because i could tell as soon as you walked in your a badass who likes to have fun and you simply don't give a fuck about what people say anymore" he say and i laugh

"spot on" i say and he smiles

"oh and Holly, go get your man" he says and i smile at him before leaving the shop.

Hollys hair

I get home and as soon as i put my bag down i hear the door open and laughing fills the room until i hear Emily scream

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I get home and as soon as i put my bag down i hear the door open and laughing fills the room until i hear Emily scream

"YOUR BLONDE!" she shouts at me and i laugh

"that i am" i say and she runs up to my and i kneel down

"woah" she says touching my hair

"do you like it?" i ask her

"i love it" Oscar and Emily say at the same time

I look up to see my mom, "i know you said bed rest but i needed to get out of the house, i've packed any everything"

She doesn't say anything but she just hugs me, "i'm not angry, this is your way of dealing with things. A distraction. You take after me" she says with a chuckle

"you look great" she tells me

"thanks" i say as Jordan and my dad walk in

"woah" they both say at the same time and we laugh

"Oh my god i love it" Jordan says and i laugh as my dad hugs me

"you look great" my dad says

"thanks" i say smiling

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