Paul's POV
"How did you pay for this house?" Y/N asks.
"I saved money for a long time. Waited to spend it at the right time." I answer.
The house is large enough for at least four people. It's close to the beach, something Y/N always dreamed of."We'll start looking for a well-paid job right away, don't you think?" She laughs.
"We still have some time for that. We can get used to the new environment, relax and be together." I say.
She smiles and steps towards me. "I think that's a good idea." She says, wrapping her arms around my neck before kissing me.
"Are you going to show me our bedroom again?" She asks in between the kisses.I want to but something stops me.
"Not now, okay?" I say as I take her hands off me.
"Why are you so distant?"
I sigh and roll my eyes. "I just need some time to get used to it."
"Okay well, get used to it as I explore the beach and bars." She says as she takes her coat.
"Don't go now." I say.
"Why not? Obviously you're not in the mood for my company."
I stand in front of the door before she can open it."It's not you okay? There's a lot on my mind. I've been through a lot in a short time and I've left a lot in Belfast."
"You're not the only one who left things behind Paul!"
"You don't understand. You didn't leave any children. No family."
"Oh so I didn't have anyone before you? Is that what you're saying?"
I see she's trying to hold back her tears."Of course not." I look at the floor and sigh. Maybe I should have put it in another way. But in the end, this is how I feel about it. I want nothing more than to start a new life with her. I love her. I want her with me. But now that everything is official, I need time to get used to the fact that I will probably never see my children again in real life. Never see them grow up. And it's my own damn fault. If only I could explain it to her. But for some reason I can't at this moment.
"Good. I'm going to take a walk along the beach." I step aside to let her through. "Come back before dark please?" I say as she walks out the door but I get no answer.
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Falling For Paul Spector ("The Fall" Fanfiction)
מתח / מותחןOn a night out you meet Paul, a 32-year old brown-haired handsome man. You think he's a sweet guy but he's not at all. When you meet his dark side, will you still want him or will you be scared off? What will he do to you?