Our Journey From Engagement To Marriage (#1) ✔

61. I don't deserve him

"Come on Preeti it's my wedding. You can't upset me and we all know how beautiful dancer you are.." she said.

"Neha please..i can't" i said.

"Okey fine don't dance but pull out some some romantic shayari (poem) from your treasure trove and tell us. As i know you are a fantastic shayari (poem) writer." Neha said.

"Bhabhi please.." keerti looked at me with her puppy eyes which no one can resist.

"Okey.." i said with a smile and walked to a stage. Neha hand me a mike and after giving me her encourage smile to me she leaved the stage.

My eyes started searching for Siddharth and when they meet to him his eyes are only focused on me. He is leaning to the chair and put his hands into his pocket while crossing his legs.

I closed my eyes and take deep breath. I opened my eyes and they met with his intensive one.

Mujhe aaj bhi yad hai jo pehli mulakat humari thi,
Dil mai kuch to hua tha jab teri nazar mujhse mili thi.

I write this poem long time ago but i still remember its every single word.
Because it shows our love.

Ishq kya hota hai yeh pehli bar maine jana tha,
jab taron ki chav mai pyar ka izhar humara hua tha,

Chand tha gavha us chandni rat ka...
Chand tha gavha us chandni rat ka..

jab tere labon ne phli bar mere galo ko chuma tha.

My eyes didn't leave his eyes. I felt tears in a back of my eyes. I still remember the full moon night in my room's balcony where we confessed our love to each other.

Teri mohabbat mai had se guzar ker, Tujhe tuet ker chahne lagi hu..

Teri mohabbat mai had se guzar ker, tujhe tuet ker chahne lagi hu..
k ab log khte hai, mai meera si diwani hone lagi hu.

It's true I'm crazy about him. I can see the glossiness in his eyes. His eyes are glistening with unshaded tears.
My vision also started blurring with tears.

Tu zindagi hai meri ye mai jaan gayi..tujhse hi meri pehchaan ho gayi..
Tune chaha tha jise mai wo yad purani ho gayi,
tere ishq mai yara mai bin phero k suhagan ho gayi.

I whispered the last line while looking at only him and He straightened himself immediately after hearing the last line and looked at me with love like he is directly looking into my soul.

It's true i became his bride without any ritual. It's not matter we are officially husband- wife. I already looked at him as my husband. It's not matter what others said about me i already became his. My death also can't less my love for him because he lives in my soul. Every single vain of my body, every single drop of my blood know that they are only belongs to him.

I don't what happened in future with us, we become one or not but i will only be his.

I also know i don't deserve him. He deserves batter than me. With whom he will share his sorrows, happiness. Who can love him more then anything in this world.

Our gaze broke with a round of applause.

Siddharth and I looked here and there except each other. He run his finger in his perfectly gelled hair. I also took a deep breath to control my unshed tears.

If I stay here one more minute my tears will betray me. I put the mice on nearest table and leave from there.
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When People thinks that their love us just one step away from them but when they cover that step to reach their love, their love take one step back and this is same is happening with me.