Happy.
H, A, P, P,
why does my room feel so dark and empty?
I never leave it dirty
I always make sure to clean
keep the floor pristine
sweep the dust into the bin
but then I forget that happy
H, A, P, P,
why are my eyes bruised in the morning?
the daylight must be bad for my skin.
I make sure to take my vitamins.
make sure to close my curtains.
make sure to remind me that happy
H, A, P, P,
why do I feel like running in circles?
running through walls,
running in cycles.
I can not seem to outrun.
I am not athletic.
I am a bomb and I tick, tick, tick.
my story feels tragic
I only ever want the happy
H, A, P, P,
why does this keep on happening?
I laugh at the perfect comedy.
I am not a comedian.
I am still the kid you left hanging
when I dialed the telephone
the sound of the ring, ring, ring
and the anticipation in between
and the sinking feeling that the no response
was the response
my chest cracked from the wring, wring, wring
but my heart keeps going,
toward what I believe was happy
H, A, P, P,
why the hell am I here again?
- the toxic personality
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Pen and Paper: Poetry & Prose (2020)
PoesiWords are bullets. Readers are targets. Come all, the loud and the silent! Dive into this merriment. Hi there! This is my collection of poetry & prose divided into three parts: When she hurts When she heals ...